[ See the light as it shines on the sea? It's blinding
But no one knows, how deep it goes
And it seems like it's calling out to me, so come find me
And let me know
What's beyond that line, will I cross that line? ]
How Far I'll Go - Auli'i Cravalho (Moana OST)
This song has been stuck in my head recently even though the movie was last year LOL yes, I only properly listen to this song recently and remember how good a song it is.
So actually, I'm posting 'cause I'm scared that I won't have time the next few days and I'll miss my at least one post a month thing HAHA but in any case, I do have stuffs that I wanna post about too. I guess with graduation coming and the many conversations about the future with many different people, a lot of different thoughts are going in my head as well. And many other miscellaneous random nonsense that haunts my brain. Okay, haunt is a strong word. Just random stuffs that make me over think things and make me all negative for no reasons. I swear it's really tiring to be in my own thoughts sometimes. Or rather, I'm tired of them.
But okay, I guess February really was a lot better than Jan HAHA Like I'm more certain of what I want and have a better idea. Right now it's really the process of actually doing it. And properly planning and thinking and following through with it. And I think the part of taking risks and what not. How far I'll go. Not being all cliche and all but really, I think the most important step is really to be brave and step out of the comfort zone. Deviant from the norm. Don't restrict yourself from what you want to do or can do.
I think being risk averse is something that's holding me back from many things but being risk averse isn't completely a bad thing. It's just that I think right now, I really must be more daring and brave in going for the things that I truly want.
But in any case, a serious reminder to myself: stop worrying so much about the future that hasn't happen yet, stop trying to satisfy the world because you really don't owe the world anything and it is really not your responsibility to make everyone happy. And also, I think sometimes it's really unfair to yourself and to others when you overthink things yourself without letting other people know also. It's just stupid lar ah YF so just stop worrying so much and focus on other more important things and you know very well that most of the times (or rather all the time), your worries are needless and everything always works out well. So stop worrying so much and just learn to trust yourself and others.
