twentyseven january two thousand and twelve =))))

Wanted to blog on 27th itself 'cause I was scared that I will forget but didn't have the time. But then actually, how can I forget all the incredible things my awesome friends did? =) I'm seriously so grateful and thankful to have them in my life. I really cannot thank God enough for giving me such incredible friends, who are really just the best. =)

I shall now type out everything that happened on my 18th birthday! (gah, I do feel older.)

The night before, Jiesi texted me that she needed to go sch earlier for some guitar thing. I suspected something, just that didn't thought much of it 'cause yea, she might really have some guitar stuffs ma and later you know, you expect then after that nothing happens. LOL! Anyway, so she told me to reach the bus stop at 6.10am.

So on my birthday, I woke up earlier and left the house. Apparently, at the first floor of my block, 4 pple were hiding behind the lift. Haha! But they didn't surprise me then. They actually just followed behind me all the way to the bus stop. LOL! The scene will be freaking hilarious if you think abt it. Just that I didn't see it lar.

When I reached the bus stop, I saw Changhui! I don't usually see him at this bus stop 'cause the other one was nearer to his house. So I asked him why he was there, and he told me he was taking bus to school. Then I told him the other bus stop was nearer and you know what he said? He said yep, I know. LOL! Joke right? He totally cannot lie at all. So I kinda figured something was wrong already. Just that yes, I seriously did not expect them to actually surprise me. So he told me Feli was supposed to be there, then just nice Feli texted me and told me she was going to be late.

Then somehow, I dunno why I suddenly turned around and I saw 4 pple running towards me. HAHA! Faeqa, Felicia, Guodong and Jiesi! =D So yes, these 4 pple were hiding behind the lift. They wanted to surprise me when I got out of the lift but Changhui was at the bus stop instead. LOL! Joke lar seriously. So they changed it to surprise me at the bus stop. Just that I turned and saw them running towards me with this balloon. Haha!

I was really stun by them. Ok, my reaction was kinda lousy but yes, I really shocked and kinda yea, didn't react properly. HAHA! But I was really happy to see them. And super touched! They actually woke up earlier than usual just to let me have a good start on the first day of me being an 18 years old person! So yes, I really love you all. =D And those who wanted to go but couldn't! =D Ah, you guys are seriously awesome. =D I shall talk more later. HAHA!

Heh, this was what became of the balloon. =D Sorry lar! I really don't know how it became so sad. I really didn't do anything to it. Maybe it's the way I hold the balloon ba. Haha! Sorry! But I will still keep it after it got deflated completely. I WILL! =D

Hairband that Faeqa made and Felicia's idea. LOL! They forced me to wear it the whole day. And yes, I actually wore it the whole day. Tsk. I'm so nice right? But ya! It's really damn attractive. As in, a lot of pple can really see the hairband all since I don't usually wear hairband at all. Tsk, their idea of annoying me.

But okok, I was really happy that day. =) Though yes lar, the balloon is still annoying. Made me carry it around like some walking advertisement. And it gets in the way man. And keep hitting me!! Okok, I know I shouldn't complain. So yes, I still love and appreciate all your efforts!!! =D

So yep! 184 came and Jiesi, Feli, Changhui and I took the bus! Changhui alighted earlier to take another bus while the 3 of us sat all the way to Clementi! As we were reaching, Feli suddenly said she got cravings for Mac Breakfast. -_- Since we were a bit earlier for school and all. But I really didn't want to be late for school so I told her I was hungry too and let's just go school eat or Buona Vista, like somewhere nearer to school so that the chances of us being late is lower.

But yes!! This girl kept insisting and Jiesi actually said ok to it too. Actually, at that point of time, I really didn't suspect anything. LOL! Like I was just complaining to Jiesi how we have to put up with Feli's chlid-like annoyance. HAHA! I seriously thought she had this weird strong cravings since well, she's really weird like that, with all the random cravings. Heh.

So yep! I made her get the meal so that I could have hashbrown and milo. =D We walked back up to the MRT and instead of walking towards the MRT, Feli just walked straight, and back to the bus stop where we came from originally. I seriously thought that she was blur and forgot that we are supposed to go to the MRT and just stood there to wait for her to realise her stupidity and walk back. HAHA! I swear, I'm so nice to Feli. =D But no! She continued walking. Then Jiesi told me to just go also. LOL. Then yea, I realise it was most likely another surprise of something. HAHA! But ok, I only thought of Sweden and not Brendan and Junyuan somehow. 'Cause we always see Sweden at that bus stop. But at that point, I was really more of annoyed 'cause I don't want to be late for school. Yes, I'm damn paranoid.

So yep, we walked down and lol, I was complaining to Jiesi and she actually shook my hand where the balloon was in, making me look quite retarded actually. Haha! We had to find them instead of them finding us. It's really quite joke lar. LOL! But yep! Those 3 idiots there, Sweden, Junyuan and Brendan, at this weird corner holding a string with photos and their cards on the string.

This is the thing that they were holding there. Haha! Ah they are damn joke. =D So since we were rushing for time, we didn't get to talk much and we just quickly packed everything together and rush off for the MRT. Except Sweden who took bus to school. Haha! Didn't even take photo!! So yes, this is really all that I've got. LOL! Never mind, we'll go out soon! I hope! Must find time! Going to get busy soon but yes! I really want to meet up with them.

These bunch of agents. Ok, those 3 guys are lousy lar! They were there already when we alighted from the bus but weren't exactly done with the string thing already. If they had surprise me then then I'll really be stun. Haha! But yes!!! I was really still surprise! I mean I didn't expect them to actually wake up early and go to Clementi to surprise me! Though it's on the way to school but still. They are awesome. =) Stupid friends who are indispensable. We can be pissed off, angry, angst, disappointed and everything at each other, but somehow, we can never stay angry at each other forever. We really angst each other quite a lot but yea lar, it'll always get by 'cause there are more important stuffs than being angry with each other. =)

So we headed off to school! When we reached Buona Vista, we saw Darren, Yingkiat and Shuhang! Haha! It was really by chance by damn cool. I think it's the first time I went to school with so much of them around. It's almost all the 4e1 pple that went to AC! =D Shuhang rushed off earlier 'cause he had council duty and when we reached the sch gate, we saw him there and seriously, it's damn joke. LOL! We just saw him at the MRT and we saw him again at the sch gate. Haha!

We had to run a short distance to the hall in the end 'cause we were nearly late. Junyuan's delusion that we won't be late. Haha! He really kept insisting that we were not late. He is pro at it already. Haha!

Semi hide the balloon 'cause I really didn't want the whole world to know that it's my birthday. Maybe that's why the balloon became like that now. Heh. The class sang song for me during GP lesson! =)

Ohya!!

The watch that Eunice gave me! Haha! It's super joke! The reason behind thing watch was 'cause during Math lecture, we were talking abt how Eunice's watch was too girly and doesn't really fit her. Then she was saying how we should all buy funny watches and wear during April Fool's Day for fun. Then I said I wanted Power Rangers (Don't ask me why Power Rangers came into my mind first.) and she insisted that I should have Ultraman instead. LOL. So that day, she happened to go Chinatown and saw an Ultraman watch so she bought it for me! Haha! She is seriously joke!! =D But yep! I kept to my promise and wore it to school on 27th! =) Just that it became like that aft that. =(

Ah!! I really don't know how it came off. =(( Damn sad now suddenly. LOL! Though it's a nonsense watch, it was still a gift ma. I really suck at taking care of my things. But ya!! I really didn't know how it came off. =( haven't exactly tell Eunice yet but oh well, she will be reading this. LOL! And anyway, I'll see her tomorrow. Haha!

So yep! During break, Eunice asked me if I brought extra clothes so I strongly told her no 'cause I really didn't bring extra clothes. I could see she had ideas in her head. Tsk. So yep I didn't really think much of it and just continue on. LOL! As in yea lar. I didn't really thought there would be cake somehow. I dunno why also but yea.

Joyce suddenly said she wanted to go take photo at the bleachers so we just went since it's Joyce and her love for taking photos and I thought maybe 'cause my birthday so just take photos for fun and all. LOL! Then as we want to take group photo, I was looking around to see if there was anyone who could help us take a group photo first. And I saw Brendan!

HAHA! Standing so awkwardly there. I was happily calling him to come help us take a photo. Then I saw a lighter in his hand and then the cake came out. HAHA! It's damn funny 'cause I kinda ruined my own surprise once again. LOL! I started laughing like mad after that. Then YL the best lar, she got it slower than me. HAHA! Then I pretended that I didn't expect it and talked to YL. LOL!

And we realised that it wasn't the cake that she bought! Apparently, it wasn't supposed to be my cake. LOL! Someone had the same birthday as me that day too, so we thought it was another person's cake. Haha! But somehow yea, it wasn't the exact case. Haha! It was misconceptions between them. Super joke!

So yep! We took a group photo and I made 3 wishes and all.


The not-supposed-to-be-mine cake. =D

So yes, I was really scared that they will do anything stupid. I was actually scared of Eunice and Feli more 'cause it's them. LOL! They are horribly mean pple to me. So they told me to make a wish and I was really scared since you know, eyes closed and all. Nothing happened and they told me to eat the cake. Then wah!! JOYCE!!! She just pushed the whole silce of cake into my face!! She held there for a long time 'cause I didn't dare to move since I don't want to dirty my shirt. I haven't even take a full mouth of the cake yet!! Then Eunice cake and smear some chocolate cream on face. Tsk. And yes, getting smashed by cake isn't a very nice feeling. As in seriously man. I got my karma from doing it to Nisa already.

But ok, at least I did it to YL. HAHA! She is the best lar! She wanted to take photo with me in that state and think that I won't do anything to her. HAHA! I had to do it to at least someone to make me feel better lar. Sorry YL! You're the easiest to target. =D

Went to the toilet to wash up. It's tiring. Lol! But didn't have to wash up much since there wasn't much on my uniform. And ok, the others didn't play a part in it. It was just Joyce who wanted to smash. Tsk. She's so going to get it on her birthday. =D

Went out and saw another cake waiting for me. Lol! This time with the class also. So they sang for me again and I was really fearful of the cake. This cake was the one that Yl bought. Haha! Ok, so the reason why there was 2 cakes was 'cause YL bought a cake but then I think some of them didn't know so during the break, they went to get another cake. Then after YL was stun at the "new" cake, they figured out that there was 2 cakes. Haha! YL was kept in the dark though. HAHA! That's why she was equally as blur as me.

Anyway, so yep! We took a class photo! I was still fearful so I put the cake far from the table. It didn't work apparently.

'Cause Diandra just managed to smash the slide of cake in my face. WAHHH. I was really sian at that point of time. Like seriously man. The thought of having to clean up again. It's tiring. Lol! But yes, I really appreciate their thought to make this birthday a memorable one. It sure hell is man. Lol! But can be memorable without me getting dirty what!! This time was worse 'cause Diandra really smear the whole thing around my face, like giving me some facial like that. And Eunice had this fondue stuffs also so she continued too.

This time, I managed to make Lingli and Joyce. Haha! So ok lar, at least I got 3 pple to join me in getting dirty all. =D But wah, my face was really black since it was chocolate cake. It's damn gross. =( And I stink like mad after that. Lol! I can really smell myself. Purposely sat beside Eunice since she was the one with the fondue all. She and Izati lend me their deodorant so I had chocolate cake smell and 2 different deodorant smell on me. Awesome man. Everyone could smell this weird mixture smell. Haha! And ya!! I could really smell it and it's damn gross. =( I regret doing it to Nisa man. One time only leh. And it's at her house somemore. So convenient for her! I smash pple with careful considerations one! Haha!

After sch, we took some photos before Feli and I went to Holland V to meet Faeqa! Allinda was super scary. Lol! She totally jumped behind me and shouted Happy birthday in my ear. LOL! That, I was really surprised. But Lingli super LOL lar! She wasn't supposed to tell me Allinda was finding me but she did. Haha! Super joke. =D But she really super funny! The night before, she accidentally typed something on the WhatsApp group with me inside that wasn't supposed to be known by me. Then Eunice and her started spamming to make sure I won't see it. Lucky for them, I didn't check WhatsApp the day before. Haha! But she's seriously super blur. =D

Got chocolate fondue from Eliza and Shaun!! =) I wanted to make Swapna treat me instead but then she wasn't in school that day. Damn sad lar! I was finding her that day but realised that she wasn't in school. Hope she's feeling better though! She must be there when the J1s come in on Tuesday!!!

Took train to Holland V with Feli! When we reached, we were walking out when we saw Weiying walking towards us, unknowingly. HAHA! I wanted to go, "Eh!! That's Weiying!", in the surprised way then I realised why she was there immediately and I looked at Feli. Then she pretended she didn't see her and continued talking to me, acting like nothing happened. LOL! And Weiying got surprised by us. HAHA! Seriously man, I love how most of the surprises failed 'cause of me. Haha! I'm just too sharp and smart already lar. =D

Settled down at Wendy's since it was Halal and reasonably cheaper food at Holland V. Waited for Faeqa to come before we went to order food. =D

As usual, it was a mad time catching up with them and talking nonsense yet awesome stuffs; laughing over nothing; being simply carefree and happy and not caring how stupid we may look; talking everything off the head without being scared that it will hurt each other; nothing to fear, nothing to hide; simply being ourselves. =) They are the friends who I've known before I was fully aware of myself. Friends who have seen me growing up, seen me mature, seen me change and become who I am now. Friends who greatly influenced how I am now, how I had become. Friends who are there for me always, even though they aren't physically around. Somehow, they are just there and you know it. Seriously can't be more thankful to have them around. =)

So yes! We tried to take a decent group photo but obviously it doesn't work. Haha! So it's all nonsense photos. Haha! Swapna was supposed to be here too! Lousy girl with low immune system.

Especially love this 'cause we all looked damn retarded here. =D Ok, I just love Weiying's face lar. HAHA! So yes! Had a great time with them, no doubt it was short. =) Went sending Faeqa around 'cause of Feli. LOL! Lazy to explain but yes, had to accompany Faeqa here and there. But it's worth it 'cause she actually travelled there to find me. =)

Went back to school to meet Nisa!! Haha! Was supposed to find her before school started but I didn't care about my phone in the morning so decided to meet her after that! She passed me her card and we talked for quite long before her mum came. One grandma who I cannot imagine how AC life will be like without having her around. =) She really became quite important to me aft we came to AC. I mean she was initially, just that yea, you get what I mean. HAHA!

Took 198 to JP to meet with Kamin for dinner! =D This girl last minute asked me out for dinner. Haha! Should have taken the train instead 'cause the bus got stuck in traffic jams and all. I alighted somewhere near Chinese Garden to take train after that since I was kinda late. Haha! And then it rained. Wah, balancing balloon and everything in your hands with umbrella was really annoying. LOL! But yes, I wasn't that pissed off. Just annoyed for awhile but then yea, I realised I was still really lucky so I stopped being annoyed. Haha!

Had KFC with her and we talked for quite long. Had to reach home earlier to bathe though so didn't stay for long but yes! It was still nice meeting up with her! My dear daughter! Haha! A friend who is important to me and I do worry abt often. But yes! I know she can do it! She will be strong and yep, I'll be there for her when she's not. =)

And yes!! This is a cool camera necklace that she gave me!! =)) I seriously love it a lot. It's damn nice lar! Haha! Thankyou Kamin~ =DD

Went home and finally bathe!! Wah. Felt so much better aft that. I seriously felt super gross for majority of the day but yes, I was still happy. Haha! That day really made me feel happy. I really felt nice. And in a good mood and all. =)

Had late night movie with my mum and dad! =D Watched Long Zhong Wu which isn't a very nice movie actually. My mum and dad fell asleep at some parts of the movie then wake up. LOL! Lousy~ but yes, it really wasn't that good. But oh well, it's still spending time with them. =)

THANKYOU EVERYONE WHO HAD MADE MY 18TH BIRTHDAY SO AWESOME. =)))))
Seriously man, I still want to type a lot of stuffs but it's getting late now and I need to go to sch tmr. =( Ahhh, I slacked too much.

There are still many pple I want to thank, special pple who I want to mention more about, pple who weren't there to celebrate my birthday on that day but I know will want to celebrate like Qiaofen and Puiling! Those 2 awesome girls. =) I miss them lar! There are still a few pple who I really want to thank them for being in my life. Haha! My thankyou list will just go on since I'm really a thankful person. LOL! Even though I may not be that important to them, I'll still thank them for remembering my birthday! But yes, I know who are the ones who truly matters and that's for me to know. =D

I shall type a proper birthday one another day. This one is just more of recounting what happened on my birthday. Haha! There are still 2 more events that happened! And yes, a proper thankyou one to all those awesome pple. And my thoughts on being 18. LOL! I seem so organised, listing out what I needed to post and all. HAHA! And ya!! CNY also. Damn man. Why I like to waste time seriously? I seriously wasted time today. Ahhh. Whatever already. I really must managed my time well. It's getting bad.

Alright! Shall post again when I find the time, somehow. =\ It's 12.11am now!

Going to make it short 'cause my dad need to use com. Shall post abt CNY next time. =D Just that yes!! I enjoyed myself for all 3 days. I seriously love my cousins. =D They the best lar. See them I'm happy already. =D

So I'm posting actually 'cause there was a freaking hilarious thing happened today in school. HAHA! I'm quite lazy to elaborate though. It had been a long time since I laughed until so hard. LOL! Really the stomach pain and want to cry like mad. And how we can laugh so hard until it looks like we're crying. =D HAHA! Seriously, I love school 'cause of them man. Eunice, YL, Lingli, Sharon and Joyce! OK yes, Feli too. Just that ya lar. She's just there. HAHA! But yes! Wah, today YL, Feli and I really laughed until we wanted to die. But seriously, it's freaking hilarious. But you have to be there to find it funny. =D Showers of honey lemon~ No, it's actually a Merlion spurt of honey lemon. HAHA! Seriously man. It's damn hilarious. =D

I miss laughing until I want to cry and my stomach hurts damn badly! Just that ya, it's really damn pain. Haha! But yes! Today was a good day! Accomplished 2 rounds of running around the school too! It's actually 2.4km. Freaking tired after that but felt healthier. =D And got a funny gift from Eunice! HAHA! Shall post that up tmr! =D She is damn joke!

OK! Shall post more tmr or something. I kinda wasted my time away again but oh well, life's like that. Haha! And yep, tmr's going to be like any other day! And there's no photog! Actually, I didn't really mind photog since it was supposed to be outing to Chinatown but oh well, it's busy time so it's ok I guess! I can actually still go on my own but quite retarded lar since I'll be in school uni. Actually, it's quite fun to go out take photos. Maybe I should really try doing it on my own. But yea lar, cannot do it on your own. Must have at least someone to accompany you and all. But that's for street photography. I realise, I'm damn good at rambling on and on. Haha!

Alright I think I'm sleeping soon! I'll post more next time!

Friday was CNY celebrations! It was surprisingly quite good. It was better than last year's concert! And yea man! My friends were performing. =D And maybe 'cause I can see the concert more clearly too.

Met with Faeqa at Buona Vista and we headed off to Somerset for lunch and met Weiying for shopping! It's so awesome how we all do last minute shopping for CNY clothes. Haha! Damn fail but oh well. We didn't get anything in the end though. But yes! I miss them lar. Lol! Annoying humans but the best still. Haha! And I got a dress from plaza in the end. Haha! So at least I had something. =D

NFC Brunch yesterday! Supposed to be breakfast but it became brunch. Haha! I was on time! But ok, a lot of the rest were late. But oh well, it's fine. Must have a taste of waiting for pple too. So yep! Wasn't the full force family but it was still a nice get-together! =)

We took a group photo! But it's blurred. -_- though it actually looks quite nice in some ways. HAHA! But I'm not posting 'cause it gives me headache when I look at it often. LOL! Ok, sounds retarded but yea lar. 11 pple went! Not bad lar! I think next year may have more since some of us will be very very free. =D

Anyway, went shopping around JP with Feli, Jiesi, Nisa and Jeslyn after that! Feli and I need to get CNY clothes and Jiesi needed her school shoes. Jeslyn left after awhile and lol, we really speed shop. Haha! Desperate already. Had ice cream 'cause we got annoyed with the bloody weather. Bought some stuffs in the end but my money seriously flew away fast that day. Freaking scary. =\

But then I suddenly realise a few pple still owe me money for cake. So yes, I still have about $20 out there. Though, I kinda owe more pple money. Haha! But yes! Aft CNY, I'm really going to repay all my debts first before I start spending them.

Currently, I'm listening to the online geog lecture. I actually paid full attention for the first lecture. Which was about 75 minutes long. I seriously sat down and listen and highlight and write notes. But this current one that I'm listening to while blogging, it's about 115minutes. So yes, no way man. As in ahh I know it's important but really lar. I was trying my best to stay awake for the first lecture. This one is really way too long. Though it's sadly more important. =\ Damn man. I should have watched this one instead!

And wah, my teacher really feed us with a lot of examples. I'm not complaining abt that. Just that it makes the notes very thick and makes you not want to start reading the notes. But yes!! I love my geog, hist and econs teachers. =DD My arts subjects teachers are really good this year so yes! I must work hard for them.

And gahhhh the homework all is really piling up. Sucks. I dunno how man. Feel like skipping school on Wed to get all the studying plus homework done. Actually, my subjects are really more of reading notes, which are all FREAKING THICK. So yes, my life. Tsk.

But oh well, had fun today with my cousins. =D Super long since I saw them and spent time with them! Going to spend more time with them tmr too. Haha! We're wearing nice stuffs tmr~! Haha! And ya! I actually went to play catching with them. WAHHHH I felt old somehow. LOL! Like I really cannot run as fast as last time already. But ok, I didn't get caught often. I'm good at hiding I realise. HAHA! CRAP!! I want to play block catching. =(

And I'm not looking forward to Friday. I like staying at 17. No, actually I want to be 16 again. 18 just seems scary. But I can learn driving~ Haha! That's the only thing I'm looking forward to. And I can only learn driving aft A levels. Sucks man!!!

sorting out everything

I like this photo~ =D Taken by Lingli. Haha! My hair was that long last time! It's now really short but yes, I don't mind short hair actually. Ok actually, I just need to take care of my hair. LOL! It will be nice whether long or short if I actually take care of it. But ok, I like this photo 'cause I look cool taking photos. HAHA!

Anyway, this week had been a busy week. A long yet short week, with lots of ups and downs, and a lot, a lot of talking. I talked to quite a lot of pple this week. By talking I meant the long talk, the talking besides the normal usual conversations. And I guess, it really does feel better when you talk to pple. It may not necessarily make you feel happier but it makes you realise a lot of things and talking it out always makes you feel better.

But yes, after all these talking and stuffs, there must always be a time to sort out all the thoughts and everything from all the talking. And I know, I'm not exactly sorting out yet. I guess, some stuffs I sort them out already, but there are still some things that just aren't sorted out yet and I think some part of me isn't doing anything to sort it out 'cause I'm running away from it. I guess, I just don't want to feel this lost feeling when I finally realise that what I have been wanting to do since p5 may not be what I actually will do in the future. The future, it's scary. Even though I have a target, even though I have a goal, it still feels blurry. I know I really want it. I really want to do this. I have been wanting to do it ever since P5. And it stuck on. True, it did left for awhile, but it came back. And I dunno, I just feel positive that I will really enjoy doing it and like my job. But the thing is, I'm really not good at it. And I'm not exactly doing anything much to improve or anything. I bring my camera out with me often but it's not as if I will always take and practice taking nice photos. My photos are really kinda bad. Maybe 'cause I'm looking at the technical aspects. I'm really not good with the technical aspects and I really should learn but I'm not doing it. So yes, all the thinking but no doing.

I had been telling pple that they should not think only and should do. Thinking won't go anywhere 'cause the thoughts will only stay in your head. Doing is what makes all the difference. Actions speaks louder than words. That is very true. Sometimes, I think I don't listen to the advices that I gave pple when I need those advices too. I know, but I don't listen to myself. Strange huh.

I should really start doing and stop thinking too. Do something. Don't sit and wait and think you have all the time in the world 'cause you seriously don't. I need to brush up on my English as well. AHHHHHH. Once again, time sucks. I seriously feel like I'm running out of time even though it's just the freaking 2nd week of school. Felt like many weeks had passed.

But yes, I will pull through this year. And I will do something I like. Just have faith in myself and the thing is, my parents already give me their support so I don't really have to worry so much about that. I seriously am grateful to God for having such supportive and understanding parents. I must really do them proud.

Focus and keep my head in this. Plan out how I want to go about achieving what I want. And yes, another thing about doing all the social work and stuffs. I really want to do social work stuffs in the future. Now too if I can find time. I really want to contribute and do something meaningful and worthwhile. I'm glad that I did have the opportunity even though it was rather short. Yunnan OCIP was really worthwhile and I gained so much more from it. Experiences and things that I will never forget. It's always nice to help out somehow. It's nice to give. I just think yea, I really need to be more outspoken. Dare to speak out and all. It's something that I just still can't fully do. Don't count close friends 'cause they are your close friends for a reason. I need to dare to speak out my thoughts and not hold back.

Ahh, there is really a lot that I need to do. I think I should really sit down and plan it out properly. If not I really feel like I'm going about aimlessly. The only aim I sort of have now is just to do well for A levels, which to be true, I'm not doing much to prepare for it. So yes, I really need to get things sort out.

On a bright side, CNY is here! Though ok, I'm not feeling so super hyped out about it. But I get to see my relative and spend time with my cousins! =D They are the best people for photo opportunity. =D

And yes!! CNY FOOD. =D Always the best~ HAHA! And I think we're going Malaysia for fireworks too! Yea man!!

demanding princess~ HAHA!

I super like this photo! Super candid. And lol, it's not taken by me though. HAHA! Qiaofen's boyfriend took it! I just edited it 'cause it was super dark in the original one. But yes! This photo is nice!

Anyway so yes!! 18th Jan was Qiaofen's birthday! Her boyfriend, Weilun, planned for all these! Haha! He is really a super nice person and yes!! So happy for Qiaofen! =D And yep! It's co-planned by Jiesi so yes, she's awesome too! =D

So yep! On that day, after school, I stayed in school for awhile 'cause I initially wanted to just go to Qiaofen's house straight from school. But I ended up going home 'cause I didn't bring my camera and much money along. Haha!

Went to Plaza Sing from home to meet Puiling at around 5plus. The journey there was somehow longer than usual and I was asleep for most of the journey? Just that I tried to stay awake 'cause yes, I don't want to miss my stop. It will be super sian man. Anyway so yep! Met Puiling at Plaza Sing! We went to walk around first and heh, kinda window shopped before we went to hunt for the cake for Qiaofen. Feli came over to meet us and we waited for Sweden to come. Jiesi and Junyuan had CNY rehearsal so they went straight to Tampines to meet us!

After buying her cake, we took the train to Tampines! Yes, it's a long journey. LOL! So yes, I love Qiaofen for being so willing to travel there just to meet up with us! I think it's further than from Jurong? Actually, I'm not very sure but yes, it felt long lar. Maybe 'cause we were all really tired and drained out. Haha!

Reached Tampines and met up with Jiesi and Junyuan! Took away Mac for dinner and we headed off to Qiaofen's house! It's our first time ever going to her house but likely we managed to find our way! YEA MAN! HAHA! Ok lar, Weilun gave Jiesi the directions and all so we just followed. But from the bus stop to her house need to walk a bit and that we found it out on our own. =D Proud of us right? HAHA!

So yep! Went up to her house, and somehow, everyone got really excited after entering her house. Haha! Her brother was at home and wah!! Her brother didn't eat dinner 'cause he was waiting for us to arrive. He is damn nice!! And super sweet lar. Haha! And yes, we were all like flustered and excited humans inside her house. LOL! Damn joke. Then after awhile, we settled down and had our dinner~

Slacked around to wait for this birthday girl who was shopping away to come home!


This is the cake we bought! It's quite nice lar I feel. Haha! Ohya!!! Must remind pple to pay me back money. HAHA!

Anyway, so yep, after that we went to hide in her sister's room 'cause Weilun told Jiesi that they were on their way back. And it's really quite funny 'cause we really stayed in the room for quite long. Then dunno why we got false alarm so we switched off the lights in the room. So yes, we were living in the dark for quite awhile. And Junyuan went mad lar. Crazy one. It's just freaking funny how we could have just switched on the lights first, yet we didn't. Super retarded man.

So yes! Finally, this annoying shopping girl came home~! Haha! And LOL! She the best lar! Her conversation with her brother when she got back was freaking hilarious. All of us were struggling to not burst into laughter. She is really one mad crazy girl. =D And the whole situation was just funny 'cause it's kinda not something you thought will happen in real life sort of thing. Haha! We were hiding to surprise and sort of accidentally eavesdropped on her conversation with her brother. HAHA! But yea lar, not like we dunno how she is. But seriously man, she is super funny! Demanding girl. =D

Then yes! Her brother is so smart!! Usually, she will go wash her feet once she's back home. Then dunno why that day she slacked around a bit longer before she went to wash her feet. So her brother asked her, "Isn't your feet smelly?" She is a mean sister lor! She replied, " Of course lar! Walked all day how can not smelly?" Or somewhere along the lines. HAHA! She is seriously the best. =D

So yes!!! She finally walked to the kitchen bathroom and washed her feet. We all sneaked out from the room and it was quite funny 'cause Junyuan lighted up the cake and someone else was supposed to take the cake up but we just left the cake on the floor. I was holding my camera so I couldn't take the cake. So ya, Junyuan lighted up the candle on the cake while the cake was still on the floor. LOL! Joke man.

The fire went out so Junyuan lighted up again and we stood there waiting for Qiaofen to come out. Haha! And somehow, there was a formation of some sort. LOL! It was really quite joke.

And Qiaofen came out! Her immediate reaction was really just stun there. Then we all just looked back at her for awhile before we tried to break into a birthday song. LOL! Then this girl started crying! She was really touched by us! =) And I really felt so happy at that moment. Happy that she was really happy to see us and were touched by us! Haha! Happy that she had an awesome surprise! =))

All the girls cried except for me. LOL! But ehhh I'm really happy also!! Just that I don't cry when I'm super happy. Haha! But yes!! I was really happy to see her and see how happy she was to see us. =) Ahh, suddenly miss her. LOL! Though it was a short while meeting them all, it felt nice. Like especially meeting up with Qiaofen and Puiling! These two pple who I love so much but cannot see as often. Sweden aiya, there's Feli around so he will just appear randomly at times. HAHA! But yes! I seriously miss them already. =\ Hopefully we can meet up again sometime soon!!

Anyway so yep! She made a wish, blow the candle (She got loser blowing strength! Need to blow a few times before the candle light off), and cut the cake. The cake was nice ba! Hope she likes it! =)

Gave her our cards after that! We gave it to her one by one like giving some certificate like that. Joke man. Haha! And we took photos!

This photo is damn funny 'cause I was helping Qiaofen and Weilun take photo and these 5 pple just sat at the sofa, watching them pose for the photo and all. Like watching some show like that. Damn joke man! Retarded humans. =D

The surprising Qiaofen group! HAHA! Qiaofen's photo taking skills improve already~! =D Just that Jiesi's head too big. HAHA!

The most awesome girls ever! =DDD Seriously miss us together a lot! All the time we spend during recess and lunch breaks. The many weird stuffs we did. But yes, I'm really happy to have them. Distance really isn't a problem for us. I mean yea, Qiaofen is all the way in the east man! But we are still meeting! =) And though yes, Jiesi, Feli and I live in the same area but yea lar, that's not the point. Haha! I really won't get bored meeting them often. =)

Pretty birthday girl~! =D

Talked for awhile and watched TV before we left. Got hooked to the TV somehow. HAHA! But ok, we mainly left 'cause Junyuan lost something super important and we rushed off to find it. He is damn lucky that the thing was still there when we went back to the place lar! Lucky ass! If not he would really get killed.

So yep! Glad that Qiaofen was really happy on her 18th birthday! =) All the stuffs I want to say to you are in your birthday card already so just read lar! HAHA! Love you lots and yes, stay happy and smiling and crazy~ =D

it's the dumb blonde's day!

Haha! Love this retarded photo of his man. This birthday boy made us travel like mad all around on his birthday.

So ok, the process is cool. HAHA! The initial plan was to surprise Brendan after his canoe training on his birthday. But oh well, obviously things never really go according to plan lar. Haha!

In the morning on 16th Jan, Junyuan brought the board to school! I was supposed to put in photog room aft assembly but yea didn't get the key yet. So Junyuan passed us the board and Feli took it. Then lol, we saw Brendan somewhere in the void deck and we really ran to avoid him. HAHA! Feli really kept running away with the board whenever she saw him. Quite funny actually. =D

So yep, during the next break, I got the key from Xinxing and I put the board in Photog room! =D Had Photog meeting after school so aft photog meeting, I lugged the stupid board all the way to Somerset. Why Somerset? Feli and I were kinda very desperate to shop for CNY clothes 'cause yes, we really haven't bought any CNY clothes yet. So we thought that we can go there first to shop awhile before we go back school. And Feli had to go Novena first so yep, might as well meet at Somerset that kinda thing.

Travelled to Somerset! Sweden asked me where I was meeting Feli, so I told him to go Somerset. I think he was tired and wasn't thinking at all and didn't bother to ask why we were going there so he just went over. Met him at Orchard Central and we sat at Mos Burger 'cause I wasn't going to lug the board around anymore. The first thing I did when I saw Sweden was passed the board to him. It's freaking troublesome lar! I was really annoyed by the board so yes, I really don't like board. I thought it was cool at first but wah, it's really damn irritating to carry around. Give me some small simple album like thing I'll be happy. =D

ANYWAY, so we waited for Feli to come. Sweden went to buy a Tshirt. Tsk. He ended up buying stuffs instead of us man. What the heck. So Feli came and we realised we had to go back to Buona Vista already. So we travelled back. On the way, I texted Darren and Yingkiat to ask them if canoe ended and Darren told me Brendan left already. -_-

So yes, damn annoying right? Just so happen Junyuan had dance that day so we had to wait for him to end before we surprise Brendan but then Brendan's parents wanted to treat him for dinner. It only kinda makes sense for his parents to have dinner with him on his birthday but yes, the thought didn't occur to us somehow. LOL.

Anyway, so we just travelled back to Buona Vista to meet Junyuan first. Went to Art Friend to buy stuffs first, while Junyuan was chiong-ing from sch to Buona Vista! After we met Junyuan, we just stayed there for awhile 'cause we needed pple to help us ask where he was having dinner at. So yes, Brendan just didn't tell those pple where he was. Annoying lar. If he did, we could have met him earlier!

So we decided to travel to Boon Lay first to have dinner then hopefully they were having dinner there and anyway, it is near to Brendan's house and all. On the way there, we thought of a way to get the place where he was having dinner at out from him. And guess what, he called Feli just when we reached Boon Lay. And guess where he was? Clementi. 2 MRT stops from Buona Vista. And a few bus stops from our school!!!!! He was at the West Coast Bowl there which is yes, very near our school. Damn annoying man. At that moment, we all just went crazy.

So yes, this explains the photo that we took on our journey back to Clementi. Wah. So yes, we really travelled a lot man. Or rather, it's just circling around. The best man.

After we reached Clementi, we still had to walk to the place. Then Feli and Junyuan went high and started singing. LOL! Sweden and I were busy making sure we got the directions right. Then dunno why he started running. Haha! Got that Running Man feeling come to think of it. Like chasing after this stupid birthday boy. Tsk. So yes, we all went running away suddenly. Haha!

And when we reached there, THEY JUST LEFT. The best right? But yes, before we reached, we told Feli to just text Brendan not to move from where he was. Then I think Brendan called her or Feli called Brendan. And yep! They were off already but luckily they haven't reached the highway so they dropped Brendan and he ran back to find us.

And lol, with the annoying board, it felt like we were fans at the airport, waiting for their favourite idol. HAHA! So yes!!! We managed to surprise him successfully. =D But wah, it was really tiring. Running around and all. Travelling around and all. Last time I was lazy to travel around this much. But dunno why ever since last year, I don't mind travelling just for pple who I care about. LOL! Seriously man. Distance somehow doesn't seem to matter that much anymore. I think 'cause the only way to meet pple who I really want to meet is to travel to find them. Haha! Sounds so funny.

So we had dinner at Jack's Place. HAHA! Brendan just watched us eat. Took a group photo outside! It's actually not very nice but they are asses so having one photo is not bad already lar.

So yep! It was another success in surprising pple. HAHA! Just that this one is more of joke and all. Like seriously man. Chasing after the birthday boy. But yep, I hope that all that we did was worth it. And yes, I really hope that I won't get disappointed again and have another wrong judgement in giving my trust to some people.

Went out on Saturday for Brendan's birthday dinner. Feli, Sweden, Junyuan and I were surprising him. LOL. It's actually quite a retarded surprise but oh well. Brendan was still surprise by us ba! Just that Junyuan, Jiesi and I were angsty pple before we all met up. It's really strange how after meeting up, all the angst-ness will just disappear. LOL. At least for me lar. Maybe Junyuan suck at texting 'cause he always sounds angst in his text and make the recipient feel sian also. Tsk.

Funny surprise that nearly got ruined if not for Yingkiat's stretching. Haha! Feli, Sweden and I were walking to Marche at Vivo to meet them and "spring attack" Brendan and we were finding the short cuts to walk there. Then I saw some guy stretching and realised it was Yingkiat and the 3 of us ran away. LOL! It's really damn joke. Like got the crap feeling. We were so closed to ruining it man. Haha! If we just spoiled the surprise like that, it's quite sad. LOL!

So yep! Managed to surprise him and had awesome food at Marche~ =D

Group photo!




And we took Circle Line back! I got kinda amused by it 'cause it's really like some roller coaster ride. HAHA! And we were saying how it will be damn scary if something actually jumps out suddenly. It's fun leh. As in the fact that we can see the tracks and all. Lol. I think I sound sad here. Like deprived or something. Lol! But yes!! I really want to go USS! =(

So yep! Had a nice dinner with them! It was more of a dinner meet up than a birthday celebration. LOL! But yep! Enjoyed my time with them ba! =D It's actually all AC pple plus Sweden. HAHA! But okok, that's not how we catergorise. =D

Anyway, more of Brendan's birthday in the next post! Which I'm kinda lazy to post now. Lol! I shall do it another day.

And hmm.. I'll just add something more.

If you want to apologise, come to us to do it. Don't go through another person. It's really very coward of you. And to be true, what are you actually scared about? We are your friends right? Unless maybe you just don't treat us the way we treat you. You don't care about us in the way that we care about you. I think, you still don't really get why we are reacting this way now. Maybe you never even try understanding how we are actually feeling, and why we are reacting like that. If you think hard enough, you should know. And if you think it's just one thing that made us like this, you obviously don't care. No matter how much of an importance you are to us, I guess we just aren't that important anymore to you right? It's not as if I want to be important in your life. All we want, is just you to be smart enough to know who are true to you and who's not. Hmm.. I really have to much stuffs I want to say to you. I'm not angry or sad anymore. I'm not even that disappointed anymore. I'm just numb to it all. I want to talk to you. But yes, this time, you come talk to us, if you actually still treat us as your friends, if you actually treasure us, and if you actually appreciate the effort we took just to see your smile. I can't help feeling how I could have spend that time doing something else more worth it instead. If you are not going to take the initiative to talk to us this time, neither will we. And we kinda mean it. It's not that we gave up on you. We never once gave up on you. It's you who gave up on us. It's not hard to find us to talk to us. So don't be a coward. Don't get others to help you 'cause we want to hear it from your freaking mouth, whatever you want to say. I will listen if you want to talk to us. I cannot guarantee how I will react to whatever you want to say, but yes, I will listen. Just that, I'm really not sure if you will actually try talking to us even. We had been there for you, but you were not. And please, you decided to stick on and study hard. DO IT. If you gave up on yourself, I'm not giving a shit about you too. I help pple who help themselves first. If A levels doesn't seem like a big deal to you, then yes, I'm letting you be, since you decided to be this way. Motivate yourself first. Just understand what the hell you freaking want. You are lost and I really don't know when you will find your way, IF you will actually find your way at all. And yes, I can no longer read you anymore. You seem distance. I guess it just sucks 'cause I know that somehow, we still won't give up on you completely. We aren't heartless. But if you don't even want to try to do something about this now, then maybe you aren't worth my time either. I'll rather spend my time on some other pple who are more worth it.

I wonder if the person I'm talking about will actually read this.

1st week!

First day of school! I felt lost. LOL. As in really man. I think it's too long never go back to school for lessons or something. Had this unfamiliar feeling. But yes! It got wayy better on the 2nd day of school! I guess, I'm really really grateful to have those wonderful friends around me. =D They really make going to school way more bearable. =D

Met Faeqa on the first day. To buy present for my friend. HAHA! She accompanied me to get present for a friend. =D but yes, got to eat some nice food that she recommended. I think I went home on the 2nd day of school. OHYA! I quite like my timetable. =D Just that Friday is my earliest day at 12.50 but I have cca. -_- seriously man. Damn sian.

3rd day was Open House! So proud of Photog. =DD
And yes, it's really during times like these where you can feel the AC spirit. And it's really quite nice actually. Haha! It's infectious I guess. That's why orientation was really awesome 'cause of the spirit all. Few more weeks to J1's orientation!! =)

Photog Soc!! =))) The cool pple behind the lens.

Our Photog booth!! I think our booth is really the most classy and sophisticated one. =D Yea man!!

HAHA! Junyuan in his funny dance costume! =D We just had to take a photo with him. =D

The awesome pple in school~ =D I love YL's face. HAHA!

And yes!! I love the poster we pasted behind/in front of our colligate! =D It's damn cute and super easy to identify us. HAHA! Seriously man, I love Photog Soc. =) We are so cool like that. =D Celebrated Nadia's birthday too! Haha! We all sang to her in our small yet nice Photog room. =D

So yep! Open house was rather successful! A few Fuhua juniors are coming ba! Haha! I'm going to grab pple to join photog man! =D CCA Display~ But seriously, I think our photog booth is really cool. Haha!

4th day of school: First Mass PE. Well, being the lousy and rather unfit me, I nearly die. OK, actually not really lar. I just felt damn uncomfortable after that. I think it's 'cause I didn't exercise for a long time. But yep! I guess I'll get used to it. Once every week man. Plus swim PE. -_-

5th day nothing much actually. Just had CCA and all. Haha! Watched Running Men after I got home I think. =D It's still the best~ =)

SO YES!!! That was first week. HAHA! 2nd week of school, pretty much the same. But it's faster this week I guess. Had 2 birthday surprise celebration which I will post about separately! GP Tuition on Tuesday.

And yes, I really need to plan well for A levels already. I feel quite lost and a bit aimless. And I'm too damn slack. True, technically I can afford to slack now but I know I shouldn't 'cause everything will come crashing down soon and I will get out of breath and all again. The panic feeling. I must stop feeling that! So yes, better time management. So must start planning! Ah, I really have so much more stuffs to blog about but I know I should stop. =\ Ok one more post I guess!

Simple steps to happiness. =)

First week of school: I conquered it. HAHA! Ok, it was a long week when it was just the first week. It was tiring. But I know that this is nothing as compared to the many other more weeks left. Things will be harder, but yes, just remember that being happy isn't hard. =D

Got quite a lot of stuffs I feel like posting about but let's leave it for later or something. Right now, I need to get cracking on my holiday homework. Yep, holiday homework. I'm the best man.

Somehow, I want time to speed up yet I want it to slow down too. I always like to contradict myself but really what. It's like that. Haha!

And I'm praying hard that nothing happens to my harddisk. All my photos are inside it. =( If they are all gone, I will really cry like mad. Seriously man, my photos are damn important to me. YES!! My harddisk will be fine!!!

Year 3000 - Busted

[ He told me he'd built a time machine
Like one in a film I've seen (Yeah, yeah)

He said I've been to the year 3000
Not much has changed but they lived underwater
And your great, great, great-granddaughter (and your great-granddaughter)
Is pretty fine, she's pretty fine ]

Year 3000 - Busted

Busted!! I love their songs! Just that they are not around anymore but yes! Their songs are really good. Suddenly went to listen to their songs after not listening for so long. Haha! But yes! It's still good. I suddenly feel like listening to Westlife and all the boybands songs. They are really classics. I actually know a lot of boybands songs. HAHA! But yes! They are still good.

Anyway, yep! School starts tomorrow! Basically no one is looking forward to it. HAHA! Ok, maybe some pple are but yep! I guess things will all be fine. Have a positive mind and see things the way you want to see!

Feeling sleepy now though lol, I'm still left with a lot of stuffs but gah, I think I should sleep early. First day of school! Haha! It really feels different somehow. J2 first day of school. Different from secondary school first day of school. HAHA! Ok, of course got different ba! I don't know what I'm talking about.

Watched Kungfu Panda just now! And it was actually the first time I watched the movie full. LOL! Quite sad lar but yes! I realise the show is super cute. =D I like! And there are a lot of values from the movie. Shall share more next time! Haha!

I want to watch a lot of movies! Was randomly finding movies yesterday and there are actually some really good ones. =D Hopefully I get to watch them!

Ohya! Didn't post about class chalet. Lol! 1AA3 '11 had class chalet on 5th to 6th! But I only went for bbq. Nothing much to say actually. LOL! Just that the chalet was at aloha Changi! I still like that place. =D And yes, I had fun with these pple in the photos. =D


As much as I do love them, I still rather meet them outside than in school. =\ Haha! At least outside we can do fun stuffs. Though ok, I think school will still be nice with them around! 11 more months!

Went back to school for Darkroom on Friday! Painted the banner for open house and yes!! Darkroom! Haha!

Clara and I went spamming the printing of the photos after all the other members were taught how to do the darkroom. I kinda forgot but after I remember, I got the hang of it and yes!!! It's freaking fun lar! And super addictive. Ahh it's times like these that make me remember the wonders of film photography and photography in general and make me really want to learn more about it. Yes, I am going to go this direction. It's really something I like and have passion about. Though yes, currently, this passion isn't as bright as before, but I know I'll get it back. =) It's been with me for so long and I really like it. Haha!

I shall go sleep now! Guess, I won't be posting much soon already. Ah, I think I've spammed enough for the past few weeks anyway. Haha!

See all the tabs? Yes, they are websites related to my History acadamic paper topic. It's not essay apparently. =\ And yes it's not fun doing it. Though yes, you get to know more interesting stuffs but wah, do until your head want to burst one you know.

OK!! I'M DONE WITH IT!! Time now is 11.58am, 8th Jan. HAHA! Yay, school starts tmr! And that's my only fully completed homework I've done this holidays. The best right? AHHH! I know I shouldn't start regretting all 'cause there is really no point. At least this holiday, I guess I really took a break? And recharge I hope. HAHA! I think I'm really super slack this holidays. Just roaming around freely. LOL! And yes, I am not looking forward to tmr. =\ I don't mind going school to see my friends and all, but I just don't want school. Actually, ya! I can meet my friends outside also what!!!!

I like learning. But studying is like a whole other thing. Gah. Crap, just thinking of all my subjects makes me feel scared now. Before holidays, I wrote down what I wanted to do for each subject during the holidays, what I wanted to complete. But yes, today is the last freaking day of the holidays, and I have not done any. I'm so screwed.

And homework. Ok, I'm not in the right to complain about since I really don't have much as compared to science students. But yes, I'm only done with History, and I think it kinda sucks. Like I sort of anyhow do but I still took damn long to do. =\

PROCRASTINATION, I never learn my lesson.

Oh well, to heck with it. I'm still going to try enjoy my last day. LOL! Like maybe watch Running Man while I'm eating my lunch. Then yes!! Back to work.

And hehehe, I love fan-girling with pple who will be willing to fan-girl with me. HAHA! While doing the essay yesterday, Faeqa and I went mad fan-girling over my favourite guy. =D HYUK!! HAHA! I think she was more crazy than me lor. But yes, damn fun. LOL! Ok, maybe I have no life but ya! It's fun lor. =D

Full speed ahead from tomorrow onwards so yes, have to brace myself!

Day 10: One person you can trust

Myself

Not to sound cliche and all, but really, the one person that I can trust the most is myself. I do trust pple but I trust myself the most. Every decisions you make, every opinions you have, if you just share everything with someone, what is left of you? It just makes sense to have something about yourself that no one truly knows about. I'm not saying that you should hide who you are. You just have to trust yourself the most.

Trust your own feelings, trust your own decisions. I guess only when you really trust yourself, people around you will trust you to. Trust that you can do it and just this believing in yourself. Once you believe in yourself, believe in what you are capable of, only then you can prove to the world that you can do it. If you don't trust yourself, no one will trust you. The first step to gain your trust from others, is to first trust yourself.

Trust your gut feeling I guess. And once you decide on something, stick to it. Be decisive. Haha! I've been saying this a lot since the start of this year but yes, it's something that I really want to do. I have been an indecisive person since well, forever. I guess I still will be. I mean lol! I won't call it indecisive, I'm just more okay with things? HAHA! Can't think of the word. But yep! I'll make firm decisions when I have to. No more hesitating. My indecisive days shall all be in the past!

And yes, I do admit that sometimes, I leave decisions-making to my family and friends. I make them help me decide. I guess yes, I do trust them a little more than myself sometimes. But even though they suggest decisions for me to make, I'm the one that make the ultimate decision. So yes, I do trust myself. 'Cause yep, I trust myself that whatever decisions I make is the best for me. And to be true, not to boast or anything, I do make good decisions. Ok, not always but yep, in terms of a few matters, I think I do make good decisions. Of course, towards some stuffs, I make horrible decisions. But I guess ultimately, as long as you, yourself, make the final decision, and you trust yourself that it is the right one, it will be.

You just have to trust yourself that you are doing the right thing. And just do it and don't look back. Life is really about moving forward. So yea, sometimes we just have to do things spontaneously. Planning helps but we have to learn to be flexible and adapt to situations accordingly.

Haha! So yes, I trust myself the most. =) Family, yes, I trust them a lot too. I mean yea, they are your family, pple who know you all your life. How can I not trust them? They just feel safe. =) And I do trust some of my friends a lot. But yes, they are the ones who I know that I can trust. LOL! As in yea, some pple trust pple easily. I don't think I do? In some circumstances, I do. But when it comes to personal stuffs, I only trust some pple. I mean, ok most pple are like that. But there really are some pple who trust pple very easily. I can never really get that but oh well, it's how they want to be. Haha! Just that yep, I still think that everyone should trust themselves more than others. I guess in a way, you won't get hurt easily? If you trust this person more than yourself, once the person is gone, you are just lost. No one stays with you forever. It's true. Some pple do stay longer than others. Just that yes, the moral of the story is: trust yourself the most. =)


AHAHAHAHA! I made it to the 10th day!! Yes! I am proud of myself. =D Though ok, obviously I played cheat but I really wanted to get this over with before school starts. Most likely I won't be posting much once school starts. Time is already running out. And there isn't anymore PW to be using com for. Haha! And I think this year, the only reason for me to use com is to watch RUNNING MAN! HAHA! Or just shows to make me laugh and relax. I think I need it this year.

But yep! This 10 days challenge this is actually quite fun. I mean yea, you get to post about very nice stuffs. But I don't think I'll be doing one anytime soon. It's actually damn hard lar. And waste a lot of time!!! So yep, erm, this may most likely be my last post before school starts. I have this huge beautiful pile of work left. =) Just that ok, I think art students are still way more lucky than science students. Just that history students are sad. >=\

And random, but I shall talk abt trust more in depth one day. It's actually quite a lot to say abt trust. There is actually a lot of things I want to talk abt and just ponder and think deeply about. Life is amazing. Lol! Like there is so much stuffs sort of thing. Haha! It's cool to learn abt philosophy stuffs I think. There is so many cool things to study abt! Speaking of which, I think I shd better check out what course I want to take in uni. Lol! I have a rough idea what I want to study already. Just need to find the exact course. And yes, I'm really thankful for having really supportive parents. They really support me and want me to study what I want to study. It just gives me comfort to know that they support you? Though I admit, I should be more realistic but somehow, when you have your parents support to do something that you like doing, you really want to go for it. So yes, I really love my parents for just being so cool. =D

Jumpstart - These Kids Wear Crowns

[ Time
Ain't got to worry bout' it anymore
And if they try to stop us at the door
You know we're gonna
break it down, break it down, break it down
We gotta' get up off of the ground! ]

Jumpstart - These Kids Wear Crowns

Spent my 1st day of 2012 in Malaysia! Haha! After I came back from Sweden's aunt's house, I went straight to Malaysia. LOL! I only slept like on the car and all. I think I was quite pro. LOL! Just that yes, I was really sleeping almost every time when I got on the car.

Went to visit my granduncle! And lol! We brought back a lot of fruits. LOL! Seriously man. My granduncle gave us 2 coconuts first, then along the way to lunch, we saw Papayas on a tree and my mum wanted them. HAHA! My mum is damn joke also. So my granduncle helped to get it for her! I'm lazy to post the photos but yep! It's damn funny. =D

Then after lunch, my dad wanted pineapple so we got pineapple after that. Ah, I love how random my parents can be. At the fruit shop, they got watermelon too. Haha! Went to get durians after that!!! =D Haha! It was really fresh from the tree and it tasted good man!

Saw this tree with a lot of papayas on it too. And the papaya looked juicy and all. Personally, I don't like papaya at all. But they really looked nice. Haha! I shall post the photos up someday. Introducing the fruits from Malaysia. =D

But yes, I love the long car rides, long highways in Malaysia. It gets you to think a lot and figure things out. And yes, I needed to figure out stuffs and I really did. HAHA! So yep! I actually kinda like going Malaysia. Haha! Going to go back on CNY day 2 for fireworks!! My granduncle went to buy a lot of fireworks for us to play. Yes, it's damn sad how we can't play them in Singapore. But it is allowed in Malaysia~! =D

Came back home and got knocked out immediately. =D HAHA! Ehh, I managed to last quite long awake even though I didn't sleep the night before. So it's not bad already. =D

2nd day of 2012, I went cycling with my parents in the aftnoon! Haha! Yep, I had a lot of family time with them for those 2 days. They were free since it was public holidays and I guess, I really missed spending time with them like that. That's why I'll always try to be home during public holidays 'cause that when they are totally free.

Had lunch at Sakae with my grandma as well! Heh, I totally don't crave for Sakae anymore since my mum satisfied it before 2012 and we went there again this year. =D

Went ECP after that! It was just the 3 of us 'cause my dear sister was knocked out at her friend's house. HAHA! Lousy girl. But yep! Cycling with my parents will always end up a lone cycling journey for me. Haha! But yes, it was still nice. Cycling in general is just awesome. =) And yes, got me thinking too! I had a lot of thinking time ever since the year started. LOL! But yep, I needed them I guess! But yes! Cycling is still the best. =D

Pretty beach. =) We actually made it to the start of Changi Airport runway stretch. =D Ok, my dad and I only. Haha! My mummy ain't as pro as she was before already! Actually, my dad isn't too. LOL! Seriously man, both my sis and I are better than my dad. HAHA!

And lol! My dad is so cute. 'Cause they wanted to take photo at the nice scenery place. So I told them can take all 3 of us. Then they kinda got amused by the inner camera thing. Haha! Yes, my dad has an iPhone 4S. Oh! My sis just got one too. LOL! So yep! They used to have iPhone 3GS and now they have iPhone 4S. AHAHAHAHAHA! If you see the trend, it means that I may get iPhone 5. Heh. But ok, I'm really happy and fine with my current iPhone 4! It's still good. =D

Anyway, so yep! My dad is just amused lar! Haha! Kept taking random photos and shots. It's just funny seeing him like that. I dunno why. =D So yep! As we cycled back, I ended up cycling on my own. Haha! Was too lazy to wait for them already. And actually, I think we were quite good! We rent the bikes for 2 hours only but we managed to get quite far. Haha! Not bad for 2 old pple. Heh. =D Woah, My dad is 49 this year while my mum is 51 man. Sometimes, I really just forget how old they are since they look young, fit and healthy. And yes!! They will stay young, fit and healthy, and fool everyone else of their age. =D

Had dinner with my sister! We actually went back to Bukit Panjang to fetch her, and travelled to Toa Payoh just to have Sizzlers. It was one of our favourite restaurants since young but a lot of branches closed down and there are only 2 in Singapore now. But yep, there was a horribly long queue. LOL! So we ended up eating Pizza Hut. HAHA! So we travelled all the way to Toa Payoh for Pizza Hut. Yep, my parents the best lar. =D

But yes, I really love how spontaneous my family is. How super random they are and how they make decisions on a fly. I should learn from my parents more. =)

let's go all, the way tonight~

Countdown to 2012 with these bunch of crazy humans! Plus Sweden and Junyuan. =D

We didn't take much photos 'cause lol, it was just a simple sleepover. =D OHYA!

THANKYOU SWEDEN FOR LETTING US CRASH YOUR AUNT'S HOUSE! =))

Yes! Haha! If not for him asking his parents and aunt all, we wouldn't have a place to crash for countdown. =D

Played Mahjong for awhile before 2012! And wahahahaha, I won 3 rounds straight! I have the strangest luck with games lately. LOL! Seriously man, I win without even trying. Haha! But yes, I got think when I play one ok! Just that I forgot some rules and all. But yes, mahjong is fun. Haha! And for a person who's family doesn't play mahjong, not bad already! =D

So we all crowded around the TV when they started counting down. Haha! It's quite hilarious counting down 'cause yes, we were really crowding around the TV. But it felt nice. =) It's always fun to do such stupid stuffs with friends. Haha! Then we watched the fireworks for about 10mins. It's pretty this year!! But super long. LOL!

We had a break for texting and replying texts before we continued to play with card games! It's fun man. As in the card games. Played all sorts of weird random games. Somehow, we managed to play for quite long. Went on to play Monopoly! Haha! And yes, I actually brought Cluedo too but we ended up not playing. I KNEW IT. But oh well, it wasn't that heavy. Haha!

And Puiling got us gifts from Jarkata! =D It has our names on it. =D

Haha! Showing the souvenirs off~!

Power rangers! Haha! Yea lar, I don't know what we were thinking. Haha! But I still like the souvenir a lot. =D

Haha! Junyuan's idea to put him in the middle of us. =D

Stayed up the whole night talking after we ended Monopoly! =D I'm so proud of ourselves! We really managed to stay up all the way! =) Though yes, there were times we really felt like sleeping but yep! We stayed strong. Haha! Just that ya, we need more comfortable place to lean on. But yes! Sweden's aunt's house is really good. Haha! Thankyou Sweden~! =D

Went home early in the morning 'cause I had to go Malaysia with my parents. Actually, I didn't really have to but I kinda want to go with them. Haha! Good daughter! =D

So yes, to a friendship that will last for a long time. =)

We'll rule the world with our names on our wrists.

HAHA! Ok, this sounds more retarded than cool.

Day 9: Two things you wish you could do

1. Leave everything behind and just go travel around the world.
As much as I do love my life now, I rather have a life where I can go wherever I want, see the things I want to see. Of course, by doing so, I will miss all the pple I love. But yes, sometimes, you really just have the urge to leave everything and just go travelling. I don't know why but yes, I do have the urge sometimes. Leave all the troubles, and just see the world. LOL! I think I sound like some sad girl, trapped in a messy world. I'm happy with my life as it is. I really am man. I'm not complaining all. Just that you know, sometimes when things get tough, when everything seems to be piling up, you just feel like running away from it all and just be with yourself. Haha! I sound like some loner. But yep! Travelling is really always nice. =)

2. Travel with my grandfather to China, back to our hometown.
It was 2009 when my grandfather wanted to bring me and my 2 younger cousins to China to visit our relatives. He brought my sister the previous year and since one of our relatives was getting married, might as well bring the 3 of us there too. But yes, it just so happened that the trip coincide with sec 3 camp. So yep, being the loser me, choose sec 3 camp over the China trip with them. And yes, I really regretted not going China with them. Yes, sec 3 camp was fun. I had a great time bonding with them. But that was the last trip my grandfather took to China. And I didn't go with him. Yes, it's really one of the biggest regrets of my life. No, it is the biggest regret of my life. I miss him. I still do. Why did I think that I could go on the trip with him the next year? I guess yea, this made me realise how life is really short. And whatever we want to do, whatever we want to say, do it and say it before it's all too late. At least, I did saw my grandfather a few days before he was gone. And yes, life is really short. You really don't know what to expect and I guess, we really just have to live everyday to the fullest. Don't leave any room for any regrets. Try everything, do everything, say what you need to say. Don't hesitate. Once you've decided to do it, stick to it. Don't be indecisive. And make smart decisions. And no matter what happens, family still comes first. To me at least. Family is really important, and quite a few times, we only truly treasure our family members aft they are gone. Don't do that. Always treasure them. They are important people in your lives. They are the ones that make you who you are today. Grandparents. They are the ones who pamper you, teach you, love you and more. They always worry about you, you are always on their minds. And even though they may not be with you always, you can feel their presence. Once they are gone, something just doesn't feel right. So yes, treasure your grandparents, visit them often, talk to them even if you don't really have much to tell them. Listen to them, be a good grandchild. 'cause yes, they really are wonders in our world. Actually, this applies to your parents too. So yes, just family in general. Don't take them for granted. Don't think that there will be a next time 'cause sometimes, next time just doesn't come.

Shared this quote before but I really want to share it again,

“Nobody can do for little children what grandparents do. Grandparents sort of sprinkle stardust over the lives of little children.” — Alex Haley

Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using

1. Annoying
Haha! Yes, my favourite word. If you know me well, yep, this is my favourite word. Everything and everyone can be annoying, according to me. =D I guess I use annoying 'cause it isn't a very strong word but it still expresses feelings and emotions? HAHA! I'm like analyzing a word I used everyday. =D

2. Shut Up
Ahahaha. Yes, I know it's two words but it comes together. I always say this when I've got nothing to rebut back. Yea lar, lack of vocabulary but yep, these are two useful words. Though mean but yep, they will just shut up. Ok, actually they don't. -_- So yes, it's just lack of vocabs.

3. Damn
It can be used in any ways, any circumstances. =D Haha! I really use "damn" a lot. Should cut a bit 'cause it sounds quite annoying at times when used too often. And it's actually a swear word too. But yep, not as harsh I guess. LOL!


Ok, think that's about it. HAHA! Maybe I should start saying nicer words more often. Like erm.. ok, can't think of any nice words. =D But yes, I'm generally a nice person but I won't say like praises and nice stuffs about you often. =D It's just the comfort level with your friends where you just say what you want, and they know that you don't mean all the mean stuffs you say to them. That's just how we communicate. =D

innocence at its best

This video deserves to be posted. HAHA! Saw it before and ahh! Kids are really so cute! The little boy is like so proud and happy. Haha! Watching this will really warm your heart.

And yes! It really makes me want to have kids. Haha! I love kids all along and yes! I want to have my own kid to pamper, to teach, to take care of and to love with all my heart. I shall talk more about this next time! Too much stuffs to type about.

Children are really the best gifts on earth.
The best gift that God gives to every parent. =)

orchard with a bunch of childish kids; yes I'm part of the kids =D

So yes! I spent my last day of the year with the most awesome pple once again. =D

Heh. I was late. Haha! But yes, there were reasons ok. And Swap and Kenneth were worse 'cause they overslept. Sheesh.

Went to Cineleisure Orchard for Sherlock Homles! I think the movie was quite good? I kinda like it ba. Haha! At least the storyline is good. =D And ya!!! Someone's idea of buying 2 medium popcorn and 4 medium drinks, when there was just 6 pple. Sheesh. I ended up eating a lot and there were still quite a lot left. See lar see lar, so smart. Tsk. But ok, been a long time since I ate popcorn while watching movie. I still like to eat popcorn while watching movies. =D

Anyway, so yep! Met Swapna Kenneth, Shaohao and Jinghan before we had lunch. And yes, I seriously love how we always play with escalators whenever we meet. LOL! Shaohao and Jinghan went down the escalator then somehow, Faeqa just followed them and so did we and they just came straight back up. Annoying right? And the funny thing is we really just blindly followed. Haha! I really love how everyone just blindly follows and not asking where we are going. =D Until we are nearing the place. Haha!

Had lunch at Long John Silvers at Somerset 313! Yes, we actually walked there just for lunch. But yes, it was there where my favourite picture of the day was born!

Tada!~ You must be wondering what's so nice about this photo when there is nothing much in this photo actually. Well, that's the whole point. =D I laughed like mad for awhile over this photo. And ok, to be true, it isn't THAT funny but that's just what I love about them. Haha! I'll always laugh like some mad person but when I look back, it actually wasn't that funny. LOL! But ok, this photo is really just epic. =D

And ya! This person decided to start shooting ice at Faeqa. LOL! And erm, ok I actually joined him. Eh! I used to be able to do it well! Just that I lost my skill. Haha! But yes, at that moment, we really became so freaking childish. HAHA! I'm actually turning 18 soon. Oh well, you can't do stuffs like that once you turn 21? So must make use of the remaining few years left to do all these nonsense stuffs. =D

Went back to Cine for pool. Stop by the rubber band shop to get rubber bands. And lol, it's so funny how the guys will really just wait outside for us. Haha! Some guys will just go see something else first then come back. But they just waited outside. HAHA! Okok, so we went to check out the price of the pooling and it was quite ex so we actually decided to just go slack at some place. Went out of Cine to meet Faeqa. LOL! This is actually funny also. Faeqa had to go pray so she went to pray first. And surprisingly, no one noticed she was gone after awhile later. LOL! Damn joke.

So yep! We decided to go pooling in the end. So yes, we went up again. LOL! We really love doing such stuffs. But yep! Had fun pooling with them. Though erm, we kinda suck. As in the girls. I really don't get why the guys can be so good at it. It seems like some natural thing for them. And wahahaha I won once. =D Ok yes, I was teamed with Kenneth and I did nothing~! HAHA! He just scored in all the balls man. And the black ball as well. LOL! So yes, I really did nothing. =D Oh well, it's still funny watching Feli and Faeqa pool. They suck like mad. I think Swap and I were actually not that bad. =D Jiamin was way better than the 4 of us man. She has some skills in her while the rest of us were just doing our best. =D

Girls group photo! Ohya! I think this is the first outing where there is an even number of girls and guys. Usually there will be more guys but yep! 5 girls and 5 guys this time! HAHA!

Went to Mac for ice cream/drinks after that! And they were all amused by the retarded toys I bought from Yunnan. =D

And ok fine, I was damn amused by them initially as well. HAHA! Just that you should really see how greatly amused Faeqa was. She was like on a roll man. HAHA! Forever the best. =D

Bus home! And all of them actually sent me home. Haha! It's really damn funny how they walk. It's really a longer way but they just did it. =D Yea, they love me too much. HAHA!

But yes!! Ah, they are seriously the best. =) They are really friends I cannot imagine not having around. I still love going out with them 'cause we'll always do rubbish stuffs. Haha! We rarely do something really constructive. Ok this time still not bad since we went pooling.

I really love this awesome tradition of ours. =D And yes! Running Man Marathon! Haha! One day, when we all get tired and stressed out from all these A levels shit, we shall have a Running Man marathon! I welcome my house for it. =D

Seriously these awesome pple rock my life so much. Love you pple~! =D