your own happily ever after

Royal Wedding on Friday 29th April! Kate Middleton looked super pretty in her wedding dress! It's so simple yet beautiful. Managed to catch some parts of the wedding. =D They are really a sweet couple! It's like can tell they are really married not 'cause of obligations but 'cause they truly love each other. It's so cool how fairytale really still do exist in real life. I think they will really live happily ever after. =)

Haha! Can't wait for my friends or my sister to get hitched! Omg, I really hope my sister will find her one soon. HAHA! I want to be a bridesmaid. =D It's so fun to participate in a wedding! You can really do all the fun stuffs. And it's the people you know and love getting married! The best is if you know both the bride and groom. =D I really want to go to a wedding where I actually know know the person/people getting married. Weddings are nice but it'll be nicer when you know the bride and groom. =D

I want to see my sister get married! Can some guy just come into her life now and change her whole mindset about marriage? And best, about kids too so that I can have nieces and nephews. =DD Haha! I'm so nice to my sis. She's going to be 20 years old already lar! I really hope she'll find someone soon. =D It's damn fun you know. It's like having a new older brother. =D

And yes, my friends. Wahahahaha. Ok, I don't expect them to get married like now. It's insane. I might go crazy if one of my friends actually gets married now. But yep, someday. =D Soon. Like hmm... 20? 21? HAHA! Ok, so I'm really pinning my hopes on my sis for the earliest possible wedding where I know the bride and/or groom. =D It's sad that all my cousins are younger than me. The last time I actually participated in a wedding was my aunt's which 12years ago with me being one of the flower girls. =D

It will really be so cool if you know both the bride and groom. HAHA! You can totally have fun at the wedding. And omg! I want to help them take photos!! Haha! Not wedding photos but those on the wedding day itself photos. Ok, I don't mind taking wedding photos too but yep! Ok, that is if they will actually hire me to take which I highly doubt so since they are all so annoying. But yes!! I will be really happy for both of them since I know both of them well. =D

And alright, yes, I hope someday, I'll be able to walk down the aisle, to the guy I'll spend the rest of my life with. Lol. It sounds so funny but yea, I do want to have a happy ending of my own too. But for now, I'll wait. I'm going to wait for the right guy for me. I know he's out there somewhere, and when the time is right, it will all fall into place. It just makes me wonder who the guy actually is. Is it someone I haven't meet yet? Someone I used to know? Or someone that is right before me now just that I didn't realise it? But yep, even if I haven't meet him yet, or even if he's really right before my eyes, I know someday, I'll see him. Lol. This just sounds so cheesy. Pity whoever that poor soul is though. Have to put up with all my weirdness and nonsense. But yea, I really wonder sometimes will I actually find him. Or did he just pass me by and I just let it slip? But I guess that's when fate comes. If it's fated, he will sort of come back? If it isn't, maybe he's not the one after all.

Whatever it is, let's just all leave it to God. If it's meant to happen, it will. Even if it doesn't happen, you know you will still be able to find happiness in whatever comes your way because life is just like that. So yep! Whatever happens, I know that I will continue to be happy and contented with life! =D

[ Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too ]

Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood

keep your head in check

Totally didn't expect those crazy people to get this for me. Lol. Ah, I really love them. Agents. =D We are really the coolest agents ever. =D Thankyou super lot for this! I'll take nice photos of you guys with it. After I figure out how to use it well. =D

Hmm.. I have a lot of stuffs I feel like saying but I guess, there really isn't a need to. I know that I really need to focus and prioritize my time well. I am quite free, so I shouldn't waste my time like that. Make full use of it. Don't waste it away doing useless stuffs. Or just sitting there stoning or whatever. Games. I realise I can really sit there playing the games in my phone. Watch videos and shows to laugh, I think it's alright. But not too much. And try to multi task though I know I kinda suck real bad at multi-tasking. But yes, I must really make full use of my time since I'm really a way lot less busy than everyone else.

Just don't lose focus and you will be alright. Keep your head in check, guard your heart and mind. Don't let small things affect you. Leave it all up to God and fate to whatever that may come before you. And seriously, don't get so easily distracted. I really get distracted super easily. And don't bloody hell sleep when you aren't all that tired. Don't think that you got a lot of time to waste 'cause you don't and you will regret it for wasting time and you will end up being all pissed off with yourself time and again for wasting time. So stop making yourself feel horrible after wasting your time away. Keep your focus and you will be alright.

And most important of all, don't give up. No matter how tough it is, hang on. If you feel like you are at the edge, struggling to hang on, look out for your family and friends that will always be there for you. They always will be there to give you a hand to hold on to. So don't you dare ever give up.

I feel like giving up.

But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

What if somehow, you just don't see the chance given to you when it's right in your face? What if you are that blind to not see that what you want is just right before your eyes? What if because of your blindness, you missed the chance, and never have a second one? What if you didn't even know the chance given right in front of you, missed it and is still wondering when will you have your chance, when will it be your turn? How can we not let go of the chance when we don't even see them? Then how will we know when we are given a chance?

I feel like giving up. On photography, on studies, on waiting for something nice to happen. I think I really was given a chance, or chances, but I missed them. It's either I'm too blind or too scared. And I just let go of it. I'm not sure if I will be given a chance again because I really don't see one coming and it's really sad? I don't know. I want something yet I don't want. I am never sure. I never knew what I wanted.

Frankly speaking, I really don't think I will make a good career out of photography. My love for it is one thing, my ability to do it is another. I highly doubt I will be able to make it in the industry. Just look at the photos I take. They really suck.

Spoilt a tripod and so many thoughts come racing into my head. It's as if they are on a race, and the prize is to make me all down and negative. I really have a problem of thinking too much and linking too much. Stupid tripod.

It's a good Good Friday! =D

Spend Good Friday with these unholy pple. =D I love our group photo! I think it's really our best group photo. =D Just that the lighting a little bit bad. Oh well, self timer lar. Not bad already. =D

Really love these people man. Feels so nice and all to go out with them and just talk abt all sorts of stuffs. =D And we can just sit there and slack and stone and dunno what we do but yea, it's just nice. =D

OHYA! AND Agents got me a holga! I think I'll post more tmr 'cause I kinda need sleep soon. And I'll post the rest of the photos on Facebook! =D

they are really awesome beyond words. =DDD 6H ROCK MY LIFE!!

Meeting them will always leave me wanting to meet them more! Seriously man, the things we do and ah! They are really the people that I can don't meet up with them for damn long, but when we meet up, we are still the same old crazy ass, annoying, irritating, crazy people. =D

They really make me feel super happy every time I meet up with them. And somehow, all my troubles really fly away whenever I met up with them. They have this thing that makes me just relax and enjoy my time with them, not worrying about anything else. We can be so freaking frank with each other that we really don't care what we say. And the thing is we know that we are saying just for fun and laughter and we don't mean it. That's the really awesome thing. We know each other since we were what, a bunch of 9 years old kids, 11 year old kids. The familiarity, the comfort, it's really incomparable. =D

The friendship that we shared is really pure, innocent and simple. True, we don't share all our deep thoughts and feelings with each other always. But so what? We really love and enjoy each others' company. It's similar to the kind of relationship you have with you family. Just that they are really funny idiots that say and do the most hilarious things. =D

I really make me laugh and smile without realising. We will really do the most silly stuffs ever. But we don't give a damn. Image is nothing in 6H. 'Cause seriously, we have seen each other since p3, p4 or p5, what is image to us man? =D

10 years, 20 years, I am pretty sure and confirm that 6H will still continue to meet up. =) Though it will get harder as the years go by but I'm really sure that we will make it an afford to meet up, especially for Mr Phang's Birthday! He's 40 this year, and I bet we will still be celebrating his 50th, 60th birthdays!

But wah, they really are as annoying as ever. Lol. It was supposed to be at Greenridge but we realise that there isn't a dine in place at Greenridge anymore! Wah!! It's so sian lar! Our cool place is gone now. Tsk. Super annoying. But then, we found a new place. =D

The rooftop of the carpark linked to plaza!! =D That place is super awesome. And a really nice place to just chill out with those pple while we ate dinner. =D And they are so freaking funny lar. Waited for us to come back after we got the cake and pizza then they started to eat. Aww.. So sweet. Haha! =D

So we had our dinner there!! And then just when I took out my camera, I realised that I forgot to bring my memory card. I'm so awesome rite? Damn horrible man. But lucky it's just at plaza, so I ran home to take it with Faeqa. =D We really ran back man. Haha! So funny lar. The things we do for 6H. =D But yes!! I'm so glad I did go back to take the memory card or else there won't be any photos! Though the photos kinda suck. We should seriously go out during DAY time so that nicer photos can be taken! =D

Anyway, so yep, went back and we had cake all and we took photos at the carpark! =D Lol. I really suck as a photographer man. Haha! Just ask them lar. I'm like super blur with the functions of my camera. Horrible man. I seriously better learn it well and all.

Went to garden plaza to talk and slack. Ah really love sitting around talking to them like that. Somehow, we can just talk and talk. Though majority of the time is useless nonsense, it's still awesome. The kind of comfort I'm talking about. =D Spammed some photos after that. D

Walked home the long way! We went mad singing!! Damn crazy lar. The guys were freaking embarrassed by us. HAHA! Oh well, live with it. =D Sort of send Weiying and Kenneth home first, then Faeqa and Swapna, Guodong and Rizheng. =D Then walked back with Shaohao, Jinghan and Feli! The same few of us. =D And we're talking about how 2 years later may be a bit harder to meet 'cause the guys got NS! HAHA! I seriously can't wait to see them all with shaved heads. =D I think I'll laugh like crazy. =D

6HONESTY 2006 FTW!!

They are really the most annoyingly awesome people in my life. Can't thank them enough for being in my life. =D Though ok, I never really did thank them. HAHA! But yes! We all know how much we love each other though we never once say a praise to each other before. That's how we work. =D

[ When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

Oh this has gotta be a good life
This has gotta be a good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire night
This could really be a good life
A good, good life ]

Good Life - OneRepublic

crazy hair people. =D

Had dinner with these awesome 3 people yesterday. =D

LOL. Jiesi always made herself look nice when we all look funny. Why Jiesi? Tsk. You should join the crowd.

Somehow, Qiaofen and I can never take a nice decent photo together lately. LOL. Both of us weren't in the mood to smile for photo yesterday. But I like my smile here. HAHA! It's the cannot-see-my-eyes smile. Ridiculously stupid but oh well.

Wahahahaha. I took this. =D nice rite? I really like taking photos! You can try and test all sorts of angles and modes and settings. =D

HAHA! Love both their faces. =D

I really look like I'm smiling to some invisible person. Like some crazy woman.

HAHA! I love our faces. =D

Puiling and Qiaofen were awesome. =D HAHA!

Jiesi's archeologist outfit. She's trying all different job looks apparently.

LOL! I totally love this photo. Mad women on the lose. =D

Really miss hanging out with the girls like that. I can never get sick of meeting them. Ok fine, we really don't meet often. Used to see them everyday last year! Seriously miss spending breaks with them. All our crazy sudden random singing when we walked to the toilet. =D Or rather, Puiling, Feli and I. =D

We must still meet up like that after Qiaofen shifts to Tampines!! I want to go out with them leh. Like not just dinner. Time pass super fast when I had dinner with them. It's like we sat there for quite long but we didn't realise it.

a dream is a wish you heart makes

A dream is a wish your heart makes when you’re fast asleep. In dreams you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams, and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dreams that you wish will come true.
- Cinderella

benefits of laughing

I'm done with making my blog look nice and pretty!

But I wasted a hundred million times doing it. And I'm making it nice just to please my own eyes. Man, I really rock at wasting time.

Yes, I want to laugh until my stomach hurts real bad, until tears start rolling down but they are tears of joy. It's been quite sometime since I laugh until so bad. Sure, I still do laugh, but not the laugh until you really want to die kind of laugh.

Oh! But I know how to make myself laugh like crazy; watch Korean variety shows! Haha! Such at Running Man and 2 Days 1 Night! Been a long time since I watch that! And I'll laugh like mad every time I watch it. =D

Of course, my awesome awesome friends that will always make me laugh until I want to die. =D Thinking of them can make me laugh also. Haha! The things they did and said are just hilarious. I love those crazy pple! =D

My family too! Haha! My mum, my sis and my dad! It really shows how we are a family, the way we do things and the way we think are so similar. LOL. Ok, it's stupid to say that but seriously man, I've got a weird family. =)

Don't really get how I can actually post something about laughing. Lol. I think I really rock at crapping hell lot of stuffs out of nothing. Good. =D

Telling The World - Taio Cruz

[ Every part in my heart I'm giving out
Every song on my lips I'm singing out
Any fear in my soul I'm letting go
And anyone who ask I'll let them know ]

Telling The World - Taio Cruz

This song is super sweet! Taio Cruz got really nice song for once. =D

So the past week, Monday went home earlier with Jiesi, but we ended up going Lot One for awhile. LOL. 'Cause this girl don't want to take LRT home and I wanted to 'cause I want to buy food. But yep, brought nice bread at Lot One. =D

Tuesday, went Lot One again with Jiesi and Feli. LOL. Actually wasted time there. It's like you don't feel like going home so early so we just slack outside for awhile walking around. Haha!

Met up with Faeqa at KAP with Swap and Feli! Ah! It's really nice meeting up like that. We talked for super long and scolded each other and all. And LOL, we tried praising each other and we failed terribly. =D We are like that ba! Cannot praise each other one. It will be super weird when we start to praise each other and meaning it. =D But yes, they are awesome. =)

Thursday, had photog! This week was special 'cause it's either you go for Thursday or Friday so I figured that Thursday was better since Friday I can go back Fuhua for HOPE. =D Took sports photography! Ok, practice taking sports photography. Took tennis, swimming, floorball and basketball. Saw Jordan at floorball but he refused to pose for me. Tsk. But yea, it was damn funny how we just went around taking photos. LOL. Saw Eunice at basketball! She pose nicely for me. =D But she didn't let me take photo of them training, 'cause they were jumping and all. LOL. Had to choose 3 of the best shots. Super hard 'cause all kinda suck. I'm just randomly snapping some shots.

Had swim PE on Friday! It was better than the previous time 'cause I think I could stand on the swimming pool floor so I felt more secure. =D We actually just swim and kinda play a bit also. LOL. Anyhow ba. =D Didn't get to bathe after that 'cause need to go back Fuhua for Hope, so I smell chlorine all over. Went bck with Jordan and Aikseng. Nisa got MCS. Tsk. She can actually don't go but she, being so good and all, went. Haha!

Taught Gerald! Haha! I really just go back 'cause of him. =D Ok, I really hope he will benefit from it all ba! But it's quite bad 'cause it's like we will want to talk about AVA stuffs instead. LOL. But yea, I'll stop him. =D Wahahaha, proud of myself. But yea, I can only teach math, but better than nothing lar. Got to talk to Ceksin, Vivian and Kangjing too. =D Ah, I seriously love going back Fuhua. =) It's nice and homely. Sijia got CCA if not she'll be back too! Miss her! And she still owe me money! Haha! And I owe her the body for the pen. LOL. Wah, if she sees this, bet she'll feel so full of herself again. Tsk. But yea, miss her super blur-ness. Haha!

Hmm.. Really hope that time will sped up sometimes but hope it to slow down at times too. I just kinda wasted my aftnoon again. Crap. Yet to have lunch and all. Seriously man. I dunno how I can use the computer for so long. Sometimes, it really wasn't Facebook that distracted me! And actually Facebook will only kill me through phone but not computer.

Alright, I shall go eat lunch first and bloody start on the many work I had to do. It's scarily lot and I have no idea why.

Agents, we rock. =D

I really miss those pple even though I'm in the same sch with 3 of them. Being same school really doesn't mean you'll see them often and talk to them often! Ok, except Feli. Brendan was like you've been in same class with Felicia since forever. I KNOW RIGHT. Tsk.

Anyway, so yep, yesterday we decided to celebrate Sweden and Felicia's Birthday in advance and give Feli a surprise. =D It was all planned on Thursday night. LOL. We are freaking last minute. Suppose to be Monday but I figured that there is sch the next day so might as well do it on Friday. =D

Met up with Sweden at IMM and we went around searching for nice cake. It's so funny how it's his birthday too but he had to buy the cake and all as well. =D Next time you won't have to slave around already. =D

Brendan came over and we got the cake and went over to Westmall! Supposed to be at Clementi but Feli changed the location. LOL. Though she was unware of it all.

So proud of Junyuan for the first time. He actually successfully bring Feli over to Westmall without her realising anything. =D Haha! For the first time, Junyuan rock at lying. =D

Ohya, Brendan is monster lar. He ate a total of 3 burgers yesterday plus water and all. Crazy much? Eat and eat and eat. I dunno how man.

So yes, this is us at Mos Burger, Westmall. We really suck man. LOL. With the candles and all. And Sweden really was the one doing it all. With the not very good help from Brendan. Since I know I can't do it, I just took photos. =D

The nice tiramisu cake from Delifrance!

And the candles burn scarily quickly. Like seriously man. And the best was, Sweden light up the candle, and then blew it away 'cause it was burning fast. Funny lar seriously.

So Feli and Junyuan came, and Feli saw us with the cake with all confusion. Then she started to cry. LOL. Damn funny lar. I was concentrating on the candles melting fast then suddenly I looked up and saw Feli crying. Haha! Sang a quick happy birthday song and then quickly blew the candles away. It was really a mess man. LOL. We totally suck. =D So yep, after they blew the fire, the powder on the cake got blown too, so the table had all cocoa powder and all. Messy like crap man.

But yes!!! I'm so happy that we all managed to fool Feli and make her really surprise and all. =D For once, she didn't realise anything. Wahahaha.

The fast melting candles. LOL. It really melted super fast. Scary.


The 2 Birthday people! =D

These 2 idiots playing with the inner camera. LOL.

Ate the cake and ate our dinner at Mos Burger. Stayed there and talked for freaking long. Went outside of Mos Burger to talk for awhile more. Then Brendan went off then 4 of us went to another place to talk since they were closing.

This photo is nice! Though it looked ridiculously dumb. =D

Ah, I really miss these crazy 4 pple. Yesterday was too short. We seriously got a lot of things going on in our lives and I really think we should go out soon and talk for freaking long. Miss them super lot. Like seriously man. We all miss each other super lot.

Holidays are still the best 'cause we could go out for the whole day and just slack around and talk for freaking long. Sucks that we all are so busy now. Ok, I'm actually the most free among them. =D I love my CCA. =D

Hope that we can meet up real soon again. They rock my life totally. =D

Stupid PI

The reason why I'm awake now is 'cause of PI. Seriously, it sucks. I got stuck for freaking long at feasibility and manageability 'cause both seem similar. And I actually went to look up the meaning. What the shit right? Ah, freaking spend a lot of time on PI and I'm still not satisfied with it at all. It's not nice lar. I shall just wait and see what my teacher says.

Crap. That's all I did today so far. OMG, this is bad. I have to do personal statement for the GP Korea Trip now. Crap. See yifang, this is the result of procrastination which you always always do even after telling yourself countless time that you should stop procrastinate. I shall stop telling myself not to procrastinate. Ah, this is not good man.

There's history, math and GP tests next week too. I seriously have no confidence I dunno why. Hist is like contents and analysis. I dunno ba, it's just a long time since I had to remember details and all. I refer like crazy to my notes whenever I do my tutorials. Even math. I seriously, seriously miss Ms Tan's Math lessons. I could get her!!!! Ah.. Feeling quite sian now.

Alright, faster get the personal statement done and head to bed. And BE EARLY TOMORROW! STOP MAKING JIESI AND FELICIA WAIT FOR YOU. I seriously have late issues.

sometimes, you shouldn't think too much and just do it, and don't look back.

We make all sorts of decisions and choices everyday and we end up doing things; some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could relieve over and over again. But all of these make us for who we are. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be who we are now so just live, make mistakes, learn from them and never doubt who you are, where you’ve been and where you’re going.

Deciding over the most small and simple things. That's what I always do. For a small thing, I can decide for ages whether I should go for it or not. I think sometimes, I really think too much and ponder too much. There are times, where you should just make a decision, and stay firm to it. Don't change, don't weaver, and just make the most out of the decision that you had taken.

I'm tired of having to decide at times. But then again, in life, we have to make decisions everyday, every time. It's just like that. So I really got to learn to make quick, fast decisions, or else I'll end up wasting a lot of time.

GP trip to Korea or OCIP? I want both. Both are rare experiences. But both equally hard to get. Ah I really want to go overseas for CIP. But I think this GP trip will be worth the experience as well. Hmm.. I think I'll just sign up for Korean trip first? Then if I get through, let it be. And make the best out of the whole trip 'cause I think it'll really be fun. If I don't, I'll try for OCIP to wherever. =) I just know that I must go overseas to help pple at least more than once in my life. It's really meaningful and you really get to see a lot of things. And omg, the photographs are going to be really pretty.

I'm not saying Korea won't have, 'cause obviously, Korea will be super pretty. And woah, if I'm lucky, if I'm really really extremely lucky, I might get to bump into celebs. =D Woah, I swear I'll go crazy if I actually see Lee Seung Gi, Song Joong Ki, Eunhyuk, or any Super Junior members, or Wooyoung. The trip will be totally worth it no doubt. Wahahaha, I'm suddenly motivated to go. HAHA! Okok, just joking, ain't that guy crazy. Korea is really a cool country too! So yep! I'm alright with anywhere! As long as I get to travel overseas and take photos. =)

But yes, I must really go to a less developed country and volunteer my help and take photos. I think that the photographs of people that I can take in LDCs is what making me really feel like going there. And to help them of course. But yes, you can really portray a lot of emotions in all those photos.

Ohya! Last Friday, this woman photographer came to our schools and gave us a talk on photography. It was freaking cool. She really went to cover a lot of news and she's a woman! That's the coolest thing. It will be cool if I have the chance to talk to her. She's really cool. I didn't get her name 'cause we were a bit late for the talk since a few of us had swim pe. But she is really cool! She went to cover the Thailand Red Army Protests, 2004 Indonesia Tsunami, YOG and many more. I think the whole point is generally 'cause she's a female working in this area which is what I really want to work in. And she really shared with us a lot of her experiences. Ah! I really want to do the things that she did. It's really cool though quite dangerous. She was sharing with us her experience during the Thailand Red Army Protests. They had to be all geared up and there were bombings and all. Pretty dangerous, but yea, I think such experiences are quite cool? Just that yea, must make sure you get yourself out alive lar huh. But yes! I'm so motivated by her. She told us about how she did some humanitarian work while doing her photog work during the 2004 Indonesia Tsunami. It's like you get to help pple while doing something you like. Ah, her work is really cool and meaningful.

I think I need to save up for a lot of things. Like photog related and many other things. There's this 30-hour famine programme that is really super cool! But you need to pay $45-$55 for it. But I think it's really cool and I kinda still feel like going for it. Ah, control on your food intake!!! I can really spend a lot of money on food only. But they are so nice. And they make me happy eating them. Lol! Especially that AWESOME soft yogurt at plaza!! It's freaking awesome lar! Ah, I really have to save up. I want too much things already.

Everything will turn out fine. I hope?