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Wouldn't it be truly great if I can wake up to such views everyday? Waking up to see mountains and amazing sceneries. This isn't much of a view but this entire town in Austria was really one of my all time favourite place in Europe. Granted, I have too many favourite places in Europe but Austria is really one of my top 3 beautiful countries in Europe. And the standard of living is way more manageable as compared to Switzerland so that's a great alternative HAHA

Anyway, this photo is also a very good reminder to start sorting out my exchange photos again LOL really keep procrastinating and it's gonna be almost a year since I left Europe. But I'm so very sure I left part of my heart there. =\

Lately I really feel that there is something missing in my life. But I really can't pinpoint to what it is. But honestly, there are many things missing in my life right now. Like a job, a boyfriend, and many more actually. LOL but idk, I guess ever since exams ended, I feel very empty. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm really enjoying this post exams freedom, and being able to sit around and do nothing and talk for hours without feeling guilty. But I guess I really need to start moving and doing something because it is really not me to just sit around forever. Even helping out with chores at home makes me feel more alive than sitting in front of the TV or laptop rotting. Okay lar, not rotting but like watching shows again and again. I'm enjoying the shows but I also still need to do something LOL I guess I hate it most when I just sit on my sofa and use my phone for damn long. Like hello? What is on your phone that can actually keep you looking at it for so long?

But okay, I guess really enough of all these frustrations that I complain about ever so often. But okay ah, I am only human and if I don't complain or let it out, I will just have everything suppressed in my head and it'll definitely explode someday and everything will be worse. Right now, I just have to set some short term goals for myself and slowly work towards them. I think I really need to start organising my life and everything 'cause as much as spontaneous and easy going as I can be, for my own life I really need some kind of organisation. But okay ah, organisation is always good to keep things in perspective. But I think also to really find out what exactly you wanna do. I have at least 50 good years ahead of me and it's really up to the current me to make the most out of everything. Like what Coldplay said, "but if you never try, you'll never know just what you're worth". HAHA sorry, that was really cheap shot.

Okayy time to find some life back into myself HAHA just needa reorientate myself and readjust to this post uni life and start working hard for the future. Let's goooo 

wait for it

[ Today more than yesterday, Tomorrow more than today
eojeboda oneul oneulboda naeil  

If I only have you, I will brightly smile
neoman issdamyeon hwaljjak useul geoya  

I’ll pick you up, wherever you are
derireo galge neol eodie issdeunji  

Is it too late? I’ll run to you
neujeun geon anin geolkka dallyeogalge  

I’ll pick you up, so you won’t regret
derireo galge neol huhoehaji  

I’ll wait for you
anhdorok gidarillae  

I’ll pick you up right now
jigeum neol derireo galge ]

I'll Pick You Up (데리러 갈게) - Standing Egg

Sigh, this song really gets to me idk why. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo is greattt. Actually, the Kdramas lately has been quite nice. Ever since I came back from exchange. And yes, I find myself watching them regularly for my final year at SMU HAHA but in all honestly, they are really pretty feel good dramas or dramas with interesting storylines. And the drama OSTs is DAEBAK really. Their songs are really good. Or rather, you just feel a lot after listening to them. Maybe it's just me ah LOL

Anyway, yea the past week had been quite nice of doing nothing HAHA okay, I did quite a lot of stuffs actually. Just that yea, still haven't properly sit down and reflect and all. Or rather just consolidate my thoughts properly. Because okay, I was watching a drama HAHA so like that took up some time heh.

But yea, I really slightly blame being too free to get me thinking about many things. I mean, thinking is good, but it's not that great when it heads in a certain direction that doesn't make you feel good. So I guess I really need to stop lazing around and get my head back in the game. I think what I really need is to have something to work on and really just focus on it. When I have a clear direction, I'll stop all these thoughts from growing in my head and just yea, Idk, make me feel more in control of my life?

Sigh, I guess it's okay to feel things sometimes. Just that, sometimes these feelings really suck. Or rather, it's confusing to me and part of me want to figure it out but the other part doesn't want to also. So like, Idk what exactly do I want. I guess, even though I'm already 23, I still feel that I'm less than 20. How is it that I'm 23? But okay, to some extend, I feel that my outlook on life is really kinda different from when I was 19, fresh out of college. 4 years of university did change me, in a good way I think. And wah, when I look back at all the old photos, I really cringe. Though, those times were really great and fun. And somehow when you look back at all these photographs, a part of you really wants to go back to those times and relive them. But I know that they are really in the past. So, you really just have to deal with it. And look forward. The thing about the past (which I have been saying forever and ever) is that you cannot go back. So really, look forward k YF. Just try. And know that yea, everything will really fall into place somehow somewhere. But of course, it won't fall into place if you are just going to sit in front of your laptop and watch your kdramas and live in your self delusional state and hoping for things to just work automatically. You still need to work hard for them. So yea, slowly but surely find your way again k.

I really blame watching dramas sometimes for having all these thoughts. But I still can't help watching them oh welllll