make or break; your choice

23 days to prelims, 99 days to A levels.

At this point of time, I should be panicking and feeling stress and get studying and stop doing useless things. Yet I'm here blogging. It's really annoying how I'll rather do many other stuffs and not study. And the strangest thing sometimes is that I want to study but I don't. I just don't start. Maybe because there is just too much, maybe at the back of my head, I still think that there is enough time.

But let's face it. There really isn't enough time left. So yes, at this hour, I should be sleeping to replenish my energy but I'm not. Sometimes, I really wonder what am I doing to my life.

Ah, there are just really a lot of thoughts in my head now. I feel messed up? Clear yet messed up. While walking to my grandma's house today, I had a revelation. Haha! Maybe I'll share it another time. But yes, I think I'll stick to that. Just that I have to find something else now. And I think I know what it is but I'm not sure if I can do it. But I guess, it's a start.

I realise sometimes in life, in many things you do, don't say what you don't want the most. Don't say what you doesn't want to have. Say the things you want, say the things you want to have. We must be careful of what we wish for. Wish for what we want, and not what we don't want.

Tell yourself that you want this. Tell yourself what you want to achieve. And work towards it. Have faith and believe. As long as you think you can achieve it, go for it. But of course, you must be self-aware and know what you are capable of.

Ah, there are so many contradictions in life that it gets tiring. But yes, life isn't fair. But as long as you know how to see the better side of things, the better side of life, things won't be all that bad. There are still people worthy for you to live for and really, there is so much more to life than all the sad and angry things.

And just breathe and this hard time will get by fast. Support one another and work hard. Social life may be low now but I guess it's a sacrifice that we have to make. It will be worth it in the end. Just believe that whatever you are doing now, you will be thankful that you have done it. So just suck it up and get through it all!

You are strong enough to handle this and yes, just strengthen yourself and firm up your heart and just work a little WAY MORE harder.

And laugh and smile like this boy below too~

Heh. One of the people who makes me happy. =)

Yes, just look around you and you will realise how there are still people around who can make you smile and laugh. Remember to smile and laugh amidst all these stressing and studying. There are still many things to smile and laugh about in life. Just hang in there and put in effort and you will get through it all.

WORK HARDER, STUDY SMARTER, SMILE MORE, LAUGH LOUDER, EAT HEALTHILY, REST ENOUGH, CALM YOURSELF, FIND PEACE, BELIEVE, HAVE FAITH, HOPE, LIVE.

give a tough and worthy fight

Fight for the things you want.

You won't have it unless you fight for it. Life isn't easy.

But before you fight, make sure that this thing that you want, this thing that you are fighting for is something that you really want and know that it's worth fighting for.

If you are sure, fight for it. Don't let it slip.

Even if you may not get what you wanted in the end, at least you know that you have tried.

So don't give up before even fighting for it. Dare to give it a shot.

Miracles can happen.

Take a chance.

Haha! I got this from a friend's tumblr. (Hope you don't mind!) And though I agree with some of it, taking photos are part of the memory and not just something to capture the moment. The moment of taking that photo and all, it's all part of the memory as well. Of course, memories are what we should hold on to more than photos but photos are part of it and not a mere photo. But yep, that's just my opinion. Haha! I mean yea, coming from someone who loves photographs. =D  But yep, memories are really powerful because if it's something that is really just great, you will remember that moment, even if there isn't any photographs. And be thankful that at least you have such great memories before even if things may not be as great as it used to be now. =)

And ah, I still miss taking photos. Though I got touch my camera and all, it's still not enough to satisfy this craving. Or maybe it's just me wanting to go to nice places with nice people. Haha! I want to travel! My sister is coming back from Australia tonight! Wahhhhh the place that I wanted to go since I was young. I still want to go!! =( Actually, if you give me anywhere to go now, I would really take it. Haha! Even those dangerous places. I mean yea, it's dangerous and all but I will still want to go.

I think something about turning 18 is that you realise that you are still young but the days will go by soon and so while we still have the chance, we should try as much thrilling stuffs that only you can do when you are young. Like reverse bungee, roller coaster, travelling to places where you need energy and lots of strengths. Yes, you can kinda still do it when you are old but there is a higher chance of fear and even if your mind wants it, your body may not be able to take it.

So yes!! I really want to try all that and more. It's like things in life that would be a super worthy experience no matter what. =D

And ohya!! I think I didn't mention that my school at blood donation drive that day!!! And I really wanted to donate blood and stuffs but you know what? My veins are too thin. Tsk. Damn sad lar! It's like I quite on about it already but cannot in the end. =\ But yep! I accompanied Sharon while she donated! She was the only one who can donate among us. Haha! Eunice's veins cannot be found. But sigh, it's really quite sad that I can't donate. =\ The person told me to play more badminton and stuffs so strengthen the arms. Haha! But it's true lar, my arms really no strength one. So yes! I should play more badminton~ Haha!

Anyway, last Monday was funny 'cause my mum and I went travelling to Ang Mo Kio in an attempt to eat crab but we didn't in the end 'cause the queue was super long. And we wanted to eat Big Pawn noodle but the stall wasn't open so we ended up eating Kampung Chicken. HAHA! But it's still quite nice lar! Just that I really still want my crab! Been super long since I had crab! Hopefully I can eat it soon~ =D

laugh, noise, insults, smiles. =)

Weiying's birthday on 17th July! =D 

So the plan was to go to her house after school and surprise her. =D And she was so "cooperative" 'cause she was telling me her process of going home. HAHA! And we didn't even have to try to find out. Aha. So we were kinda lucky lar. =D 

Met up with Swap and Guodong at plaza after school and went to get the balloon for her. Luckily there was a 18 years old one. =D And ya! Swap skipped sch that day. Tsk tsk. Anyway, waited for Faeqa to come and we went off to Jelapang! Met Feli, Shaohao and Jinghan at Bukit Panjang LRT and they saw Weiying lar! Lucky Shaohao was sharp enough to see her and went to hide. Haha!

Travelled to Jelapang and somehow, whenever we met up, we would become a public hazard or something. We somehow become very noisy collectively. Lol! And all they are damn funny in how they tried to balance on the LRT while writing. =D 

The board for Weiying! It isn't very flattering but hope she still like it nonetheless. =D And of course, our rubbish cards. =D Ok, I really wrote nonsense. Haha! But I'll give her another card next time!

So yep, we walked to her house and somehow, when we reached her corridor, we didn't know what to do 'cause we have to pass by the window and the people inside can see us. Lol! So dunno why, we squat down and it's just damn freaking hilarious lar!! All of us didn't know what we were doing and we just squat down and break into silent laughing, which was freaking painful, since we can't make any noise. Lol! We mad lar!

Then Weiying's mother came out 'cause I think can hear some movements outside. Then we told her it's surprise for Weiying then she came back out and told us Weiying was showering. Haha! Took her forever to shower finish lar!

 

So yep, the idea was for Weiying to walk towards the window and grab the balloon and then see Shaohao's face. HAHA! Then Weiying's sister came to the window to tell us they coming out soon already then Shaohao thought it was Weiying so he said a super loud Hello! LOL! Laugh until I want to die lar 'cause must control the laughter all. It's really damn mad. =D

In the end, Weiying came out from the door and saw 7 little pple squatting on the floor, trying our best to contain our laughter. HAHA!

And we made her go to the window for the "actual" surprise. =D Heh.

Weiying's brother came out and helped us take a bunch of photos! Quite sad for him 'cause we aren't people who love to take photos so it takes us forever to get into position and all. And of course, we would always take nonsense while deciding so Weiying's brother had to wait for us all. Haha! But he's quite patient so yay! =D

This is super retarded! And the guys look super awkward. HAHA!

And a rather failed jumpshot but oh well. =D Stupid Weiying who refused to stand up. Tsk. 

 

 And yep! First time taking Polaroids with them and we spammed about 12 shots. HAHA! Super mad. =D We took so much so that everyone can keep one~ But super funny 'cause we really smile until damn tired. Stiffen smiles. =D But somehow still quite nice. Heh.

And yes!! Weiying has her own Polaroid now~ =D We can take Polaroids together when we want now! =D I borrowed the Polaroid camera from Eunice~ So yep! Thankyou Eunice. HAHA!

These people and of course some other of them who aren't in the photo, I seriously love them. =) I really like it that we stay near each other so we can do stuffs like that for each other. =D Though ok, the guys don't get as much except for BELATED birthday gifts. Heh. But yep! We can don't meet up for freaking ages but the feelings remain the same as ever and yes, I'm really luck to have them around. They may not be there for me always, but I know that I'll always have them to count on. And aha, I think I really treat the guys as my little brothers. Heh. I'll really feel proud and happy for them and all. LOL! They are simply the best. =)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIYING! I know you are touched by our surprise~ =D

bimbo day~

 

Went to celebrate this girl's birthday on 6th July! 

So yes! It was supposed to be a surprise 'cause she was supposed to be meeting another group of friend for dinner on that day. But we switched with them to that we can surprise her!

The plan failed 'cause our friend suck. Haha! But it's ok lar. Jiesi isn't a fun person to surprise anyway. =D

Anyway, so rushed to buy balloon for this woman at Holland V after photog! Rushed to The Cathay meet Feli and yes!! We are the earliest. Haha! Ok, anyway, everyone were late. LOL! Lucky Jiesi also late. Or else the surprise won't be a surprise anymore.

So yes, we forgot that she has no sense of direction so we made for find her way by herself to the restaurant. Best right? Haha! And yep, so she walked the opposite direction and took about 1 hour longer to meet us. Lol! She the best man. All of us were super hungry already. But it's still damn funny 'cause we kept looking out if she was coming.

And when I got up to look, I saw her. Haha! So we pretended that nothing was wrong when she step in. Then she started complaining about getting lost. HAHA! Loser man she. =D

But yes!! I like the place we had dinner at! Though the food isn't that great and quite pricy, the ambeince is nice! And there is a car outside. =D 

Hehe, I'm the driver~ Ok, 'cause I purposely went to sit there. =D

So after dinner, we of course took photos~ Just that wah!! I should have bough my camera!!! Super wasted! Such a pretty place with no proper camera. =( Nevermind! There are other nicer places to explore together next time!

All 5 of us in the car~

YAY!! I like my position. =D I'm really looking forward to learning how to drive. And yep! Mummy promised to let me learn after A levels already! So yes! Focus on A levels first. =D It's really something that I want to do after I turn 18. Ok, it's actually the only perk for me for being 18. =D

Of course, the guys kinda like the car too but they can't really show it 'cause the car does look kinda gay. Haha! But yes, I love this photo~ Gay shit. =D

Group photo!! =) Seriously love this bunch of pple. Even though it was a rather short dinner but it was still awesome. =) We spammed polaroids inside the Cathay as well. Haha! And got scolded though. Lol! First time we took Polaroid together and we spammed max. Haha! But I like! =D I just want a group photo now too. =D

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIESI~ Hope you had an awesome birthday with the most lovely us. =D

shutterbugs

The J2s! 

Yep, there were supposed to be more of us but some of them didn't come for the farewell but I guess these are the people who really matter since they came for the farewell. =) We may not be a close and tight CCA, but I'm glad that I have them as my CCA mates. They are pretty awesome. Haha! Best memory with some of them would be lying on school field at night during photog camp this year. =D Heh. That was really pretty damn awesome. HAHA!

The J1 excos and us! =) 

It's really quite sad how we couldn't have the exco camp with them during June Hols like how the seniors did for us. It would have been a more proper handover. But nevertheless, I hope that they will bring photog to even greater heights! And I really hope that they would work well together.

A more informal photo of the J2s. =D

Vanessa and Swap! 

These two are the ones who make my photog experience really fun and enjoyable. Haha! Both super mad and high people. Though I only got to know Vanessa more this year, she's really one person that I could talk to especially during Photog Camp this year! And Swap is aiya, obvious reasons. Heh. The sad girl who would always have to accompany me for photog stuffs if I want to bring someone along to accompany me 'cause I'll just drag her along whether she say yes or not. =D And of course, dinners after Photog session. Heh. It's always nice to have a person with you who just you don't need to be polite or nice around. HAHA! But yes lar, I really cannot imagine photog without her. =)

Had exco dinner on 13th July! Friday the 13. Haha! But it was a nice day. =) First time we had dinner together! And it's really quite awesome. Had dinner at Saveur! And we ordered 7 different dishes so that we could share. And it's super funny 'cause it felt like we were food tasting at the place, eat small portions of each dish. Haha! But it's worth it!! 'cause you get to try a lot of different dishes and they are pretty awesome. I don't mind going back there again! The price is quite reasonable too. Though it's quite noisy so the ambiance not very good but ok lar, good food is enough. =D

Outside Saveur!

Went to Suntec City after dinner! We didn't know where to go at first but decided to go Suntec since it was of walkable distance. And I realised a few pretty cool places. Haha! I shall bring pple there next time. It's seriously nice to explore those places where people in general rarely go to. Singapore is small but there are still many places that await for us to explore~! Haha! Yes! I will go explore after A levels. =D

Sat at Suntec City's MacDonalds for super long, talking about the most random of things but time passed really quickly unexpectedly. Had a great time talking to them! And I swear it's so funny how we are from photog but we took so little photos every time we have outings and gatherings. That's the special thing about photog pple I guess. Heh.

So we took one last photo before we left! Self timer~ Haha! We could have spammed more photos if not for that the lights were switched off. Haha! So it was a sign for us to start going home.

I really had a great time spend with them! They are the most awesome excos to work together with. True, we aren't the most perfect team but I think we really complement each other pretty well. And I'm really glad that they are the ones who I had to work together with. All the long meetings, last minute rushing, spammings on Whatsapp, complaining to each other about our favourite person ever. Haha! Our essays!! I'm so proud of our essays. Haha! We all chipped in something for the essay and not just one person having to write everything. I think our team worked 'cause we really work together and split up the responsibilities and jobs well. Of course, our dear Pres and Vice Pres are really the most dedicated yet quite annoying people who will rather do everything themselves than to trouble others. But they also learned to share the load after awhile and somehow, all 7 of us just worked together really well. Every single one of us is important to the team and without anyone of us, we couldn't have completed our term as the Photog Exco 2011/2012 well.

And of course, our awesome J2s as well. =)

We may be a small CCA. We may be a rather individualistic CCA. Yet we will come together and work together when we need to.

Yes, I know that I'm not very close with them but I know that I will want to keep in contact with them strongly. Maybe it's because our common passion; photography, where this passion of ours just binds us together somehow. 

One thing that I really learned from my term as the Treasurer in Photog Exco 2011/2012 is the importance of teamwork. How working together can make so much difference and make things so much easier and better. Teamwork is something that seems simple but it's actually not as simple as it seems. But we managed to understand it and carry it out.

 Thank you guys for making photog an enjoyable, fulfilling and meaningful experience for me. I'll really miss photog! Though I do complain about having my Fridays gone to photog, somehow without it feels kinda weird now. But yep! I just hope that the J1s will continue on this awesome journey and learn how to work together like how we did. =)

We get closer to a good time

[Don’t give up saying it’s heavy, it’s heavy
Mu geop da go, mu seop da go po gi ha ji neun ma

It’s the real thing from now on na na na na na na
i je bu teo ga jin jja na na na na na na

It’s just something everyone would experience once
Nu gu na han beon jjeum da ggyeo ggeo bo neun geot bbun

We fail, We lose, To win. Don’t be afraid
We fail, We lose, To win du ryeo wo ha ji ma ra ]

Sexy, Free & Single - Super Junior

Heh.Their songs just have a way to make me get hooked to them. =D Something to brighten up my 2nd week of sch!

Celebrated Daddy's birthday on 5th July! His birthday was on 6th but 'cause I had to celebrate another birthday. Heh. But yep! This is his 49th birthday~ Going to hit 50th next year already! My parents are really getting older. =\ Had dinner at Holland V's Sushi Tei with my grandma, daddy, mummy and sis! My dad met an old friend whom he lost contact with there. Lol!And we had that awesome desert above on complementary! =D And the dinner was sis's treat! HAHA! Her paycheck~ =D

So yep! Had Photog Farewell and celebrated Jiesi's birthday on 6th July! =D  I'll post more later~

Went to Weiying's house to study on 7th July after going to tuition at Nisa's house! She was supposed to come plaza but got lazy. Tsk. But studying at her house is fine too so it's ok! Haha! I don't mind going her to study again. Got food there. Heh. =D

So yep, the week go by. LOL! School is fine ba! As in nothing exactly super special happens but I don't exactly hate it. It's just like that. Haha! But yea lar, I'm really glad that I have those weird friends with me during classes and lessons. =D They make school more enjoyable.

Had Photog Exco dinner on Friday! It was actually our first time going out for dinner and all. Post more later too. =D

School all, it's just alright I guess. Just that I'm tired everyday after school to the point where I'm just tired. Lol! As in it's really just work and sleep and eat kinda thing. Of course, there are some nice stuffs in between and all. But it's ok! Few more months!! I'm sure I can get through all these! =)

have a good time

Heh. I have super lot of stuffs I want to post about but I'm going to save it for tmr or when I'm free. I really think I waste time a lot. In doing stupid stuffs and everything. Must maximize my time usage!!!

Anyway, so SuJu came out with Sexy, Free & Single~!! May post more about it next time. Haha! I realize when I like something, I'll really like whatever they do. HAHA! Okok, limited to some stuffs. But yes, I realize I'm very much biased when it comes to some songs, tv shows and movies. Like I know that SuJu isn't as good as compared to some other bands but I'll still support them 'cause I like them. HAHA! Ok, I'm just biased. =D

So of course, I must post a photo! Haha! =D feel happier whenever I use my phone~

silver bullet

Everything happens for some reasons. Have you ever thought of what would have happened if something didn't happen and find yourself unable to picture it?

I guess yea, everything happens for reasons, be it good or bad. But one thing we do know for sure is that we can't change what has already happen. What we could do is adapt to it or do something to correct it if it's something that isn't right. And live up to it.

Many things in life is a mystery. So don't make things more complicated than it already is. Sometimes, if you have doubts, if you have questions, ask and seek clarification. Everything will seem so much clearer after that. And you will feel better because it's clear now. It's like how if you are short sighted, wear spectacles. It will make things clearer and you will feel better. If you are wondering, do something to KNOW and don't sit around thinking that the answer will come falling to you because yes, life is never so easy.

And I guess all these, every single events that happened in our lives are part of growing up. How we learned and mature and how we become a better or worse person depending on the choices we made.

Don't stop believing, don't ever give up. Because anything is possible until we decided to give up.

Don't take this life you have lightly because from what I know, this life isn't easy, it isn't simple, but it's one heck of a life worth living for. If you need to be reminded of how lucky you are, check your pulse.

And one thing I realized abt friends, true friends, is that no matter how many times they hurt you, no matter how many shit they did to you, they are still important to you, and somehow, you will forgive them as long as they seek forgiveness from you. I don't know if it's just me being soft hearted but I think it's because some friends are really just important that you'll rather forgive than waste time staying angry with them or not talking to them. Just that of course, no one shd take this forgiveness for granted 'cause being taken for granted is never something that was good to feel.

I swear, so much stuffs happened within these 2 years in JC that I really feel like I'm aging. Lol! With so many thoughts all the time. But yes, I'm grateful for them, for shaping how I am now. Friendships are fragile like hell but as long as pple want to put in just a little effort and suck up their pride, everything will work.

And to my dear friend, if I really did give up, I won't even spend time thinking and talking about it at all. If I really didn't care, I won't bother doing anything at all. Even saying that I am giving up is actually bothering in doing something. Haha! Wrong judgements. Tsk tsk. Or maybe I should just say explicitly what the heck I'm thinking right? Haha! But yep, don't let me be disappointed in you again 'cause I don't know what my limit of forgiveness and I don't wish to find out. So yes, I haven't g-word you hor! But don't let me want to g-word you again.