What am I doing with my life?

Nothing. I'm screwing up every bit and part of my life slowly. I just can't seem to handle anything. Or rather, I can, I could, but I'm not doing it. Why? I don't know. There is just nothing to motivate me. This is freaking hell shit.

that one person

Since I can't really post properly, I shall share this thing I read on some tumblr that I think it's really quite sweet and quite true. =) It's really cool to be able to find that one person for you. And I really do believe that in life, there will always be this one person for you, whether you meet that person already or not. =D

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

— Bob Marley

Sometimes, you wish that your life can be fast-forwarded so that you can see who you actually end up with in the future. But then again, you won't get to enjoy the process. Haha! I don't want anything now, but I'm a normal girl who wants to have a family of my own in the future too! But yes, I'll wait for that one guy. LOL! I think I sound funny. Ah, it will be awesome if there is a guy who is the combination of Eunhyuk, Lee Seunggi and Song Joongki~ Hehe! Okok, I know myself, I am a realistic girl. =D So I might as well just fly to Korea to find them, instead of people similar to them. HAHA!

Okok, I think I better switch off the com. Not supposed to spend so much time on it but I ended up spending a lot of time again. =\

And yes, I love how you can always talk abt the same old memories and stuffs with your friends again and again, but it never gets old. =) Haha! We really love to talk about the same old memories we had together and every time we talk about them, it still feels awesome and we won't get sick of talking about it again and again, even if we mention them almost every time we met up. It's still awesome somehow. =) Friends just make you day so much better, even if it's the smallest things they do.

I HAVE AWESOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE! =D

stepping on puddles

Ages since I last updated. I've got so much things I want to post about, not just events. Many things happened recently I guess? Some are worth mentioning and other aren't. And GP Tuition made me think a lot more now. Haha! It's good! 'Cause it really made me realise that there's so much things happening all over the world. Some stuffs can make you feel quite depressed but it's still quite enlightening to know. I think I'll do proper posts after promos.

For now, I've to conquer this heck of a promos. It sucks. I swear it does. But what to do. I really really must do better this time. And yes, I'm running out of time. I really don't know how the heck I'll cramp so much things in this 1 week and a half left. Scary rite?

And I miss stepping on puddles. Just jumping onto them. I remember how I used to love stepping on puddles just so as to annoy the pple around me. And ok of course, I ended up getting wet myself. But I don't know, it's still fun? Maybe I just like to see the annoyed expression on their faces. Haha! I'm mad but it's really funny. I'm a weird girl who likes to annoy others even if I myself get what I annoyed other about as well. Haha! But yes, it just feels like childhood, how little kids love to step on puddles purposely just to see the water splash around everywhere. There's this innocence in them. Ah, I really want photos of children! They are the best people to photograph and the look on their face when they see the camera will just make you feel really happy and warm. I miss being a little kid, where everything was simple, everything was happy, no worries, no sadness, just joy and happiness. The things you worried and were sad about aren't what you worry about now. Things were really simple then. Just being happy and enjoy everyday. Wish we could all still live so simply like them.

Alright! I think the next time I'll be posting will be aft promos. Mad chiong for the next few days! I'm scared but I know I'll get through it and I will do well for promos! =)

stapling sweets -_-

This closet bimbo girl who took a whole bunch of sweet packets and went to staple them all into a long chain. I have seriously no idea why she did that. Haha! Damn smart lar. And she went to cut out the packaging. Closet bimbo of a grandma. My grandma somemore. Tsk tsk. So childish. Haha!

Went to Nisa's condo's clubhouse to study last Thursday! I was rather productive. Haha! We managed to get some work done and we talked also. Haha! Of course we played with iPhone games when we got real bored. Heh. But it was way way more productive than the previous time we studies with Jordan. He kinda suck. Addicted to iPhone games. Tsk tsk. But oh well, Nisa influenced him too. Haha! Losers. =D I realise I'm really quite discipline when I study in groups. Ok but though I'll actually be the one that starts to talk. Just that I'll do work while I talk. The rest can't. =D

OK, so yes anyway, yep! I was quite proud of myself that day 'cause I really focused! =D Friday ended up pretty wasted away 'cause well, I can't even remember what I did that day. Supposed to meet Puiling, Qiaofen and Jiesi for dinner!! But then I don't know why I suddenly wasn't feeling well. But yep! After promos! Oh! I need pass Puiling my notes too. Haha! So maybe can meet her for awhile. =D Actually can go study together lor. I think she studies outside a little bit better than study at home 'cause there's us to peer pressure her. =D

Saturday was Canon PhotoMarathon! I'll talk more about that in another post. =D

So yep, it's 1.09am now. Hmm.. Going to be sleeping late for the next few weeks 'cause yep, there is freaking lot of stuffs to do now. Promos. Ah. During exams, I'll really be mugging crap 'cause of my subjects. Too late for regrets now. But yep! I must do well this time!!! Or at least improve from the previous one. Really must.

LOL. Ok, I ran out of stamina. I'm going sleep already! Shall post about studying at Nisa's house, Photomarathon and other stuffs tmr! If I can.

Ah.. Feel so tired. Plus had GP tuition today. Yep, finally needed tuition. Hmm.. I think I should really save up too. It's quite costly and of course I think I must really study super hard for the next few weeks. Like no joke already. Promos hmm.. OK, I'll update more next time. This is like just a brief thing. Reminder to me this forgetful old person. Okok, if I'm old, my parents are like elders and my grandparents are like ancients. So nope. I'm still young. =D

OK, now you can see all sorts of rubbish coming out. This indicates that I need to sleep already so good night people! 'Til next time~

a friend whom I have always treasure

Ahahahaaha! I love this photo. =D We took super constipated. Haha! We are both people who like to smile with our teeth shown! We look more normal with teeth. =D

Anyway, met up with her on 29th August! Camped at JP library for awhile to do homework though we ended up talking for super long. Haha! We can just talk for ages over a lot of stuffs. Many things are going on in each of our lives and though we message each other often, it's hard to tell each other what's happening clearly. So when we meet up, we'll just keep talking and talking and I don't know why but I'll really just want to tell her abt everything every time I see her. Haha! Sometimes I get lazy to type down my life happenings to tell her so when I see her, I'll talk super lot. Haha! But yes, it feels really nice talking to her. =))

After promos, we need to sit at somewhere in JP and eat our Yami Yogurt again. Haha! Ah, I miss her suddenly. LOL. I realise by spamming posts, I'll end up missing a whole bunch of people. Sometimes, I kinda don't like how we have to move on with life. Haha! It sounds quite ridiculous but yea, why can't we just stay how we are and not change? Change, why must it always occur? Change can be good but sometimes, I really don't feel like wanting to accept the change. It's quite tiring. I miss my old friends. I miss being able to see them in school everyday.

I love the feeling of finding Kamin or she coming to find me during recess just to talk. I suddenly miss hugging Kamin. Haha! Though we don't hug often, it's nice when we do. 'cause when we hug each other, it's when we know that the other person needs the hug real bad. And we'll feel better aft hugging each other. Haha! I think I sound quite funny here but yep! Hugs in general are nice. Haha! Kamin! We should hug next time we meet. =D LOL! Though it will be super lisiao man. Haha! 2 mad women there suddenly hug each other. =D

She's a real special friend to me. One friend that I can don't meet her for a long time but when we meet, we can just go on talking forever. Haha! I'm really certain that we'll keep in touch for a long long time. =D

And yes Kamin!! We will both get through this JC life and go into NTU or NUS! Though you kinda choosen NTU already. =D haha! If I go NTU, I shall go your house for dinner every once in awhile. Hehe. =D Stay over at your house since it's just opposite. Haha! =D

Whatever it is, wherever we end up in 2 years time, we'll be awesome friends for a long long time. =))

journey to the east~

I'm going to start spamming posts from this one onwards. =D Think it's time to update my blog properly even if it means I'll lose sleep. Sleeping, hmm.. I don't know why I don't feel like sleeping early. LOL. Just got the feel like staying up late feeling. It's bad but just this urge? I should be doing other stuffs too. Ah sigh, I'll complain later.

Haha! I so love this photo. All 4 of them look so pretty. =D

On 28th August, Agents went out to celebrate Junyuan's birthday! Haha! I know it's super long ago but oh well, I suddenly remembered that I didn't update abt it.

So yes, Junyuan chose where he wanted to go and he said he wanted to go Tanjong Katong. LOL. Of all places, he wants to go there. Awesome right? But yes yes, since it was his birthday, we all were nice and followed him there. But ok, I admit, I kinda like that place and lucky Junyuan brought us there. =D Might want to go back there to take photos! Haha! I think it's a nice place for taking photos. Yep, I went mad with my camera but they didn't allowed me to. =( Ok feli did but those 3 other girlfriends of mine didn't. They complain and all. Next time when I want to take photos, I'm not going to bring those 3 whiny kids already. Sheesh. And they don't like to take photos also. Sigh. Why all my friends are like that? Ok, maybe it's my fault that they became like that. LOL.

Anyway, so yes, we went to Tanjong Katong! And ate awesome food there. We went to this restaurant that Junyuan found on iWeekly. I would have post the photos here but I'm kinda lazy so yep. Heh. But yes!!! The food was awesome. =D And the ambiance all is super nice. I kinda like the setting of the place. It's quite pretty and it's quiet. I like the place! Haha! Talked and all. Then we head out on the streets. Haha!

So yep, I went made taking photos. They wanted to kill me 'cause I really kept spamming but aiya, it's me lar. Ok they understand that but they just cannot wait for me. Impatient pple. Tsk. Ok, all these comments are targeted at all of them except Feli. Maybe it's a girl's thing. LOL. They are guys after all I guess. Haha!

Went to this ice cream place where the ice cream was really awesome. =D I didn't buy anything though but I tried the food that they bought. NICE!! Haha! That whole area is just awesome? Like super nice to walk along the street and it just gives a very different feeling. Haha!

Walked and walked and we took bus back to Paya Lebar MRT. Ohya, a random side note, I think I really need to start being on time. Quite annoyed with myself for being late all the time. It's like gah. Why am I always late. Makes me feel quite sian too. And I do feel bad, just that I don't really show it. LOL OK to some pple, I won't feel that bad. But yes!! I still feel annoyed with myself no matter what. Being late isn't a nice feeling. So yes, I'll really strive to be on time. Just keep bugging me and rushing me out. It works seriously. I need pple to push me and rush me then I'll get out of the house fast.

So yep, Brendan wanted to go flea market to buy clothes. Haha! So we took train to Promenade and went to the Singapore Flyer there! Okok they are nice to let me go take some photos but they just don't want to be inside the photos. We weren't actually in the mood for taking photos. Haha! If you think abt it, we were never really in the mood before. Haha! Only like special events then we just take some. Haha! And we take the nicest photos with self-timer. Apparently, we can't smile nicely when some stranger helps us take photos. Seriously man. The photos taken by some stranger as compared to self-timer, self-timer looks so much nicer.

Went to Marina Square and slacked at Carl's Junior for awhile before Feli and I went back. We let the 3 of them have their own personal time with each other. =D

But yes, that day was awesome. Haha! I still love going out with Agents. It's just nice? Like we'll all just be ourselves. LOL. I don't really know how to say. We'll talked about a lot of stuffs and the whole comfortable feeling? They can be pain in the ass sometimes though. Haha! But yes, I still kinda miss them though I just went out with them 2 weeks back. Time pass really fast huh.

I miss our silly English group discussion. Where we just sit there and talk crap. Laugh like no tmr. They were kinda like my happy pills in school. Haha! We would just do really weird stuffs during English lessons. Ah, crap. Kinda miss them. LOL. Like I miss us being us. OK we never really stop being us, just that JC is making us all turn into weird pple. LOL!

But yes, we are still the same. Our friendship stays the same. I just miss them real bad suddenly. Like got the very long never talk to them feeling. I hate promos. Argh. It's making me want to meet up with pple but I know I can't. Or rather I should not.

But yep, Agents still rocks. =D But we need to take more group photos lar. And nicer ones. Not like the one we took at the restaurant where we look so weird. LOL. I think we really take nicer photos with Self-Timer. Haha!

stuffing ourselves with all the junk food~

Haha! This photo is simply awesome. We totally spent on all these junk food to keep us company while we mug though to be true, I haven't been mugging a lot actually. Haha! Weiying, Faeqa and I got carried away at NTUC. It's a killer place I tell you. There are offers all over the place that makes you want to buy a lot of food, thinking it's cheap but you actually end up spending more since the amount of food increases. =D

Faeqa suck with offers especially. She really see offer then buy. LOL. Horrible. And she ended up buying the most food. Haha! Pig! =D

Went to study with the both of them on Monday! Though it was a short while with Weiying then with Faeqa I just did this geog table. LOL. But ok, at least I did something. =D But yes, crapping with them is mad awesome. Heh. I just love how we can just slam each other like crap without being scared or worried that we'll offend each other. Haha! Stupid Starbucks cup. -_-

Tuesday had Geog lecture for 2 hours. Surprisingly, I didn't sleep. Haha! I was drowning myself with Choco Mini. =D Almost finish the whole pack after the end of lecture. Haha! But Choco Mini is really awesome. =D

Went JP for lunch with Feli and Sharon! Had Pepper lunch and I seriously love Student meals. =D Haha! It makes lunching so much more worth it. LOL. Walked around JP and we got stuck at Toy Outpost. Or rather I got stuck there. =D I saw 2 super nice iPhone covers!!!! And ok, they are actually quite pricy but one of it was cheaper than the usual price then the other most likely can find cheaper ones at flea markets so I shall wait and see. =D But yes, first, I need to have the money to actually buy them. LOL. But hehe, hopefully I'll have nice friends that will be NICE and buy it for me~ =D OK actually, I've requested it from 2 pple but being my so awesomely nice friends, they didn't agree to buying, YET. So hopefully they will buy it for me eventually. =D Eh, I did buy presents for you guys hor.

Anyway, Toy Outpost made me late for Photog meeting. Haha! Didn't realise time passed so quickly so I had to chiong-ing to sch for meeting.

And yep, we played with the Photobooth of course. =D The Macbook was calling out to us to take. Haha! I think the 7 of us make a cool team. LOL. It sounds super random but yep, I really love Photog Soc no matter how sad the attendance is. Haha! I enjoy going for CCAs and meetings. I really don't mind planning stuffs for Photog. I want to plan stuffs for Photog. I guess yea, I really like photography. Haha!

Borrowed at 50mm prime lens from Photog room!! Played with it for awhile today. Haha! It's really a cool lens lar! I kinda feel like getting it, but it's a little bit waste money since it's a prime lens, means you can't zoom in or out. Maybe I should save money for a Wide-Angle lens instead. First, yes first, I need to save money. Crap, I think my posts are sounding like I'm some greedy person that wants a lot of money. Lol. But gah, I really want too much things already. This is not good. =(

I spent today studying at home! Though ok, frankly and honestly speaking, I really didn't do much. So that's quite sad. I dunno what I did actually. Like I really did work. I think I wasn't efficient enough. Plus I watched an episode of Running Man. =D Heh. But it's really damn hilarious lar!! Laughed like mad. And of course there's Song Joong Ki. =DD

Ok, this Friday I must MUST watch 2 Days 1 Night!!!!! Freaking long never watch already! And they are going to stop the series in about 6 more months. =( Freaking sad lar! It's really a super funny yet nice variety show. Really love these 2 shows! They are really damn good.

On a plus side, as long as I am home by 7, I get to watch Lee Seung Gi every night on TV~ =D Haha! I sound so mad. OHYA!!!

I want Super Junior to win Daesang!! They really deserve it and they work really hard. And they are a group that I really admire. For one, look at the number of people in the group. Like seriously, they can last so long and still remain so good. Return of the Superior~ =D Watched Strong Heart yesterday and they are really a team of genuine people. Somehow, you can really tell if they are real or they are faking it. I don't know but that's just how I feel.

Super Junior, Lee Seung Gi, Song Joong Ki! Haha! My favourite people that I don't know them personally. =D But they are really damn nice lar. I mean yea, though I don't know them personally but can tell that they are humble and nice people. =D I think I'm just biased but whatever. It's just my opinion. =D

Oh man, it's 1.23am already. Gah. OK I think I'll better sleep. I realise I haven't post abt some stuffs yet. LOL. OK I'll post next time! =D Going Nisa's house to study later!