heart of a 70 year old

I'm worried abt my dad, my mum, my sister, my paternal grandma, my maternal grandparents, my aunt, my uncle, my whole family. If anything happens to them now, I really don't know what I'll do. I've already lost someone of extreme importance in my life, and I only realise how greatly important he was aft he left. He was important to me all along of course, but I didn't know I would react so badly when I lost him. That was last year. And I still feel the pain. I still miss him a lot but I know he is always here for me.

And I nearly lost someone again this year. If anything happens to her now, I really don't know how I will get through. But I guess in a way, it's sort of a blessing in disguise 'cause we get to spend more time with her now and she can finally finally take a good break. And she is a strong woman so I know she will be fine.

My dad. All I want to say is that he's just one heck of an awesome and wonderful father. World's No. 1 Daddy! =) he's a super cute dad who is super protective over his two daughters but never admit it directly to us. Haha! He always went through my mum to tell us stuffs such as not to go home late and all. Haha! and I know he'll continue to be annoying and pull me out from my sleep just to dry my hair. =D

My mum? She's just this strong woman that I really think she's a wonder woman. She can handle many things at once and she's just freaking awesome. I cannot CANNOT imagine how life will be without her. She is really my mummy. The one person that will always be there to catch me when I fall. And she'll always make me drink somehing every morning just before I leave house when I'm already late. Tsk. Haha! But yes, she's the best mummy ever! =)

LOL! I realise both my parents are annoying. Hehe. Just like me. See where my traits come from. =D

My dear old sister is someone I can really tell things to. We can talk about so many things and I really love and appreciate her for being there to listen to my complains and my happiness. And she'll always give the best advices. I know I can trust her with everything. Things that we can't tell our parents, we'll tell each other and I'm really glad that she does trust me, this annoying little sister of hers. =) 'I'm smiling because you're my sister. I'm laughing because you can't do anything about it.' hehe! Gave this to her when I was in sec 2 and she still hangs it at her table. She's the best. =)

This special aunt of mine, gugu! She's really special to me. She's like my 2nd mother. Haha! Maybe because she took care of me when I was in primary school. Somehow yea, I felt the closest to her among all my aunts and uncles. She's really understanding and she'll teach you what to do. And she knows how I feel. Like always. I don't have to say anything; she just knows. I don't know how but yea. And I know she will be fine too. I'm worried for her but she has stayed strong throughout all these years and I know she will continue to be.

My 2 maternal grandparents. They are really people that I feel really happy whenever I see them. They will tell me funny stories abt their daily happenings and they are super fit. That's what I love about them. Coo grandparents that are healthy and I really want to learn cooking from my grandmother. She cooks the best food in the world. =D better than my mum. Haha! It's her mum anyway. And I miss going to parks with my grandfather. He used to bring us to the park every Saturday to exercise. He's going to retire soon so maybe it's our turn to bring him to the park. =)

I still have my dearest cousins and aunts and uncles that I really love but yea, if I go on, I will end up not revising for my tests tmr. Though I already am not. Using my phone to post this. Consequnces of having an iPhone. =( But oh well, it's nice to type abt these important people in my life that I rarely mention abt. Yet they hold the most important part of my life. In my heart, they are rank tops. =)

And on a side note, I've decided it's time to move on. I won't force myself to do it 'cause I know it's not easy at all but I know I shd do so gradually. And I believe I can do it. Though it makes me sad 'cause I'm taking one step back from getting married. Haha! Ok joking lar. Just that I really do want my whole family to be there when I do get married. Haha! First, I need to find a groom. Or a potential groom in the first place. But of course I'll wait and it's not going to be anytime soon 'cause getting good grades and being a good daughter, granddaughter, sister, niece and cousin to my family members shall be my top priorities now. And also being a good friend to my friends. Sometimes, I do think that I'm quite bad to some of my friends. So yep! I will change and try to be a better friend to them, listening to them and really be there for them as much as I can. =)

Somewhere deep inside me, I know that I won't give up. It's not me to give up easily unless I know for sure that it's not worth it. Just that I think I shd stand firm to it now. Unless something happens. Haha! Life just surprises sometimes and you really don't know what to expect. But oh well, I think my life is alright thus far, except for tmr. It's going to be a HORRIBLE day.

But alright, I love my mama 'cause she's going to fetch me to school tmr. =D but ah, she's really tired and busy these days. Quite worried for her. Lol! I swear, I'm like some worrywart over my family and friends. See see, all these important pple making me worried for them. Haha! But yes, they are worth it. =D