inhale, exhale

Saw this from my friend's tumblr and yes its's very apt for life. Haha! I have a feeling is she typed it out herself so credits to youuu heh

I probably might have said this before but I actually am looking forward to go back to Singapore. I'm not exactly homesick but it's just the ready to go back to do serious shit with life and everything. I think I'm really not a person who can take mega long break. Like I will feel itchy to do something real. Not that doing exchange stuffs is unreal but yea, getting back into the motion of life I guess? 'Cause yea, exchange is really a break from everything. Hence, when you study for exams and stuffs, you really have zero mood to put in a lot of effort. I kept getting distracted by many things. Like now for example. I shouldn't be posting but here I am.

Anyway, so yea, I'm not say looking forward to the craziness of life but somehow, I need that crazy? Though yes, the current life now is pretty great. Like you can sleep late, wake up late without feeling any guilt. Travel as much as you want and all. Travel, see things, take photographs. Life is very relaxing and free. I'm not complaining. It's just I guess I really miss my family. HAHA like people to go home to. 'Cause as much as this place is pretty great and nice, it's still not home. And my friendsss. Yes, I'm very thankful to have some of them who are on exchange with me as well. But it's still different though. And there are those in Singapore. Though with technology and stuffs, you can speak to them anytime you want, it's still different from being physically around them. Like I want to talk to them in person.

But yes, I know that when sch starts next sem, I'll be complaining about missing exchange and stuffs. HAHA 'cause yes, humans can never be satisfied. So right now, I should really just make the most out of my remaining 3.5 months away from home. Though yes, I need my phone soon to feel a bit more normal. Heng I have my laptop and I can never be more thankful for Telegram, Facebook, Apple and FaceTime. Wonderful creations.

And also, I need to remind myself of the things I need to "complete" before I go back to Singapore. If not, it's the same as before. LOL but okay, so far, I've learnt quite a lot from exchange which I'm really very thankful for. The experiences that I've gained were amazing. I was looking at the book that BFC gave me and all their nonsense advices. HAHA okay lar, most advices are very real and legit and yea, so far I've been living that. And yea, reading those really made me realise how I'm really very fortunate to have really amazing friends in my life. Like not just BFC. Many of my close friends. Yall know who you are lar LOL but yeaaa, I'm really blessed with very good people. So yes, thank you God for all your blessings really. Some mishaps along the way but I'm sure you have your reasons for them and yes, taking them as lessons to learn. Everything happens for a reason and I'm sure everything will work out for the best.

gone but not completely

Still my favourite photo of the Northern Lights hehe. Legit no filter. HAHA

Anyway, things have been pretty crazy. Many things that I want to share and say but I guess one thing is that I've lost my phone. Or rather, it got stolen. I don't really know what happened to it exactly but I know it's not with me. I'm not one to lose my things easily so when I do lose something, I feel extremely frustrated and annoyed with myself. Even though it might have been theft but like I'm still damn annoyed with why I let something like that happen. But yes, it's part of growing up. At least I'm safe. Nothing bad happened. It's just my phone that is gone. Just that the photos and videos I took in Iceland and part of Amsterdam/The Hague are gone too 'cause I only back up before Iceland. =\ But it's okay!! I have nicer photos in my camera anyway and there were a lot of other cameras from Iceland trip so all is good.

Seeing the silver lining in everything. I think that's one of the traits that I'm really thankful for. It's just that yea, losing something so important to me always suck. I depend quite heavily on my phone and yes, it really never crossed my mind that I might lose it one day. Like if you know me well, you know how careful I am most of the time. But yes yes, it's gone already so must move on. I guess it's weird 'cause I didn't get to cry out properly. And I realise my coping mechanism is eating and sleeping. HAHA If I'm upset or angry, I will either eat or sleep. So okay that's not too bad.

Anyway, yesss I'm fine so it's all good. So far exchange had been really great. Though it's mainly 'cause of the travelling. Heh. Iceland had been AMAZING. Driving on the Icelandic roads had made my driving skills level up like crazy. Probably times 10 better. First, it's left hand drive. Next, it's a huge ass 9 seater vehicle (I'm quite sure I may not be allowed to drive that in Singapore with my license but Iceland they chill LOL) (But it's a Mercedes Benz so heheheh we were damn lucky to have free upgrade 'cause wah this car is durable like mad). Then, I drove in the dark, through super strong winds (heng the car damn huge and steady), through fog, through rain + dark + fog, through snow, through snow + fog, up mega steep slope while there is fog +snow that I was legit damn scared but must act like I am okay and in control. Ok, I really was in control but wah that steep slope I will never forget. 'Cause my front passengers were damn scared also but they just shut up and encourage me so thanks guys for your confidence in me. HAHA hmm what else did I drive in? Up mountains and down mountains. LOL I remember that drive was mega tiring 'cause it was a consecutive 2-3 hours drive? When I got out of the car I had a headache 'cause yes it was mega tiring. But really driving level up. So WEWWWW and omg didn't know how much I missed driving. Heh and Iceland really damn shiok to road trip. And I really love road trips. 'Cause somehow there is always something to do. LOL Idk how to say but ya. And you have your own time and all.

So I really wanna road trip again. HAHA but yes, need to save up like mad. All them grad trips. Plus random stuffs. My travel kakis. But yes, this group of people I travelled with were damn fun and wonderful and nice also. And I think one of the many plus points of this trip was that I got a lot closer to my cousin again. We really used to be damn close when we were younger but somehow sch and life got in the way. But yes, I think both of us being away on exchange together and at somewhat the same area makes it a lot nicer and yea, I think my coherence level drop again but in general, it's really a nice feeling to have my cousin with me on this trip. At first I thought it would be weird but I realise, I have very great friends and cousin who are all very nice and wonderful people hence it's a lot easier to make everyone gel together.

Sigh, so many things happened during this trip that I really want to spend time typing them out and remember them. I'll try ah. Point form time HAHA but yes, after my exams which I shd be studying now. Heh. So okay, goodbye. Thank you for reading this to all you stalkers. Okay, truly thank you for wanting to know more about my life hahahah though maybe you are bored but hopefully this has entertained you.