I know that moving out is really a sooner or later thing but it really sucks. Like now that I realise I'm really not gonna have anything here to shift over soon, it just sucks. So I'm trying my best to not shift some stuffs so that there is a reason to come back. HAHA! Though me and my sister are still staying here 'cause of wifi. Which isn't a complete excuse 'cause we really do need wifi to do work.
But anyway, though I've really accepted that we are going to shift, there is still this strong reluctance. 15 years here leh. No joke really. I mean yea, some people stay longer but to me, these 15 years were really like the moments? And not to me too. HAHA! It's honestly quite funny how my friends felt sad too when I sent them the photo of my big empty living room. I mean yea, they have been very much part of this house too since they came here very often too. But yes, change isn't a completely bad thing. Though it's less than 1km away. HAHA! Yes, I went to Google map it and I realise it's less than 1km. I thought there was at least 1km but apparently not.
And I don't know, it's just this really strong reluctance suddenly. I guess it's really when you know you are really going to shift permanently and have no reason to come back to the old house. Though there are still some stuffs here and there but not so much. After the wifi stops working on 3rd Feb, my sis and I have no more excuses already. =\ And yes, means we will return back to our new house instead of coming here at the end of everyday. It's gonna be so weird.
I already miss my bed omg. I really have strong attachment issues. And I think partly 'cause it's so near to each other that you really don't feel like you are movin.g And it feels so easy to just come back here to sleep instead. It's a 5-10mins walking distance. So it's really nothing. But still really very different feeling. I guess maybe after shifting my important things over (which are still here with me in the old house because I'm still at the old house), I will feel more at home in the new house? Maybe ah. My green walls though. =(
And it really sucks 'cause I wanna decorate my room and stuffs too but really no time now. I guess it's really kinda a wrong time to shift that's why I'm feeling like that. And too damn sudden. Less than one month since I know we were shifting house sia. And with school and everything, it's crazy.
And yes speaking of school, I really am quite scared. Because people are very smart. And it's really scary. I used to not think so much about competition and stuffs but I come to realise it really matters. But yes, I will still work hard and just try my best and see how it goes. Ok lar, that is honestly the only thing I can do so oh well, we'll see how!!
But ok lar, change isn't a completely bad thing. The view there isn't that bad too. And yes, good reflection place where you can see all the trees and blue sky and I think if you look really closely, you can see stars at night too. And sunrise apparent! According to my mama. So yes, ain't that bad.
And we still have a few more months until the old house will be confirmed sold so I guess I can still come back here sometimes if I want to. Sigh, I'm really just looking around my house and feeling this pang of sadness I don't even know why.
But anyway, though I've really accepted that we are going to shift, there is still this strong reluctance. 15 years here leh. No joke really. I mean yea, some people stay longer but to me, these 15 years were really like the moments? And not to me too. HAHA! It's honestly quite funny how my friends felt sad too when I sent them the photo of my big empty living room. I mean yea, they have been very much part of this house too since they came here very often too. But yes, change isn't a completely bad thing. Though it's less than 1km away. HAHA! Yes, I went to Google map it and I realise it's less than 1km. I thought there was at least 1km but apparently not.
And I don't know, it's just this really strong reluctance suddenly. I guess it's really when you know you are really going to shift permanently and have no reason to come back to the old house. Though there are still some stuffs here and there but not so much. After the wifi stops working on 3rd Feb, my sis and I have no more excuses already. =\ And yes, means we will return back to our new house instead of coming here at the end of everyday. It's gonna be so weird.
I already miss my bed omg. I really have strong attachment issues. And I think partly 'cause it's so near to each other that you really don't feel like you are movin.g And it feels so easy to just come back here to sleep instead. It's a 5-10mins walking distance. So it's really nothing. But still really very different feeling. I guess maybe after shifting my important things over (which are still here with me in the old house because I'm still at the old house), I will feel more at home in the new house? Maybe ah. My green walls though. =(
And it really sucks 'cause I wanna decorate my room and stuffs too but really no time now. I guess it's really kinda a wrong time to shift that's why I'm feeling like that. And too damn sudden. Less than one month since I know we were shifting house sia. And with school and everything, it's crazy.
And yes speaking of school, I really am quite scared. Because people are very smart. And it's really scary. I used to not think so much about competition and stuffs but I come to realise it really matters. But yes, I will still work hard and just try my best and see how it goes. Ok lar, that is honestly the only thing I can do so oh well, we'll see how!!
But ok lar, change isn't a completely bad thing. The view there isn't that bad too. And yes, good reflection place where you can see all the trees and blue sky and I think if you look really closely, you can see stars at night too. And sunrise apparent! According to my mama. So yes, ain't that bad.
And we still have a few more months until the old house will be confirmed sold so I guess I can still come back here sometimes if I want to. Sigh, I'm really just looking around my house and feeling this pang of sadness I don't even know why.
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