do something

"You will be shocked when you discover how easy it is in life to part ways with people forever. That's why when you find someone you wanna keep around, you do something about it." 

- Ted, HIMYM

Making the effort to keep in touch and to meet up. I realise over the years, I've gotten lazier in doing so. Probably because usually I'm the one taking the initiative to meet up and stuffs. Somewhere along, you just stop. And also, 'cause life gets busier and you don't even have time for yourself. I realise I'm a person who needs my alone time very much. I think I haven't have that one day alone at home since I don't know when. It feels like life has been just going on and on for a very long time. But I guess it's not entirely a bad thing. I just need to learn how to maximise my time well so that I will have enough of everything.

But really thankful for the people who are taking the initiative to meet up. For taking over my job. Heh but yea, it's always nice to be asked out instead of always the one asking. HAHA I swear I sound so deprived. But okay lar, honestly, I don't really care. What I care is really just meeting people I want to meet. So even if I have to be the one who keeps taking the initiative to meet up, it's okay.

It's also very interesting how this fate thing works though. Something I honestly still do not have any idea about. Fate always, always plays tricks on me and it's very very frustrating at times. Like dude, stop. Don't confuse me. Give me a clearer sign. But then again, life is never easy and since when is there a clear sign for you to follow? So I guess, yes, just live ah. HAHA as in don't think too much and just carry on life as usual. Somehow if you are supposed to do something, you will do it no matter what. That somehow there is just something pushing you to do something about it. I hope there is though. 'Cause yes, missed chances are the most annoying shit ever.

So yes, I guess somehow, you just need to know. Haha! I have no idea how but it will come to you eventually. That gut feeling. I'll follow that I guess. Though yes, it's really hell of a confusing but if you never try, you'll never know. No idea what I'm saying anymore actually. I'm just like borrowing lyrics. LOL

Okay time for work and study. This sem, I'm gonna be a mugger. Then I'll get to enjoy like mad next sem. CAN'T FREAKING WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE. It's not that I hate Singapore. I love Singapore actually. It's my home and yes, still my favourite place on Earth but sometimes, you just need a bit of fresh air to appreciate this favourite place more. Haha! And also, okay ah, I just really wanna talk lots of nice photos and utilise this sad camera that is lying in my dry cabinet on most days. =\

So yes, study. 

HAHAHAHA this gif completely made my day when I first saw it. And I still love it. HAHA too cute I swear.

I realise time truly doesn't wait. Somehow, it's going to be the end of August. Somehow, I'm already in my third year of university. Somehow, I'm still working at the company I did summer internship at. HAHA Ok I'm not regretting my choice of continuing the internship as part-time because yes, I really like the company and my boss and my colleagues. Just that, I'm also quite scared that I can't manage my time well and just crumble and die. Because yes, this sem it's my first time doing 5 mods. Though most mods are quite alright so that's good. Then there is exchange to plan for. Which I think might be a bit crazy. BUT I'm freaking excited for it as well. Just the money part is a bit worrying hence, working. Haha! But yes, honestly love my boss for letting me stay on and stuffs. She is truly a person I want to keep in contact with if possible. Yes, I'll try to talk more about internship soon. Haha! It had truly been a great experience and I'm freaking thankful for it.

And yes, also need to keep a lookout for internship for next summer. Though I think I might do part-time next year instead of doing a summer internship 'cause I think by the time I'm back, I won't have time for a full 3 months internship.

Busy life ah. But yes, I think busy suits me better. I think that somehow I can manage my schedule better with this limited time. Hopefully ah. If not, I will really just crumble and die. But nope, I believe I'm really stronger than that. Gonna be crazy but I guess it will all be worth it.

And age is also catching up on me. Which is something I really shouldn't be saying 'cause yes, I'm really still very young. But I guess sometimes you really can't help comparing the things you haven't experience yet to the things you did. So I really just need to remember all the things that I had accomplished so far. Not a lot, but they are still something. And yes, good things are worth the wait. So just be patient and don't rush things because it's just stupid. Peer pressure ah. Don't succumb to it. Doesn't mean that everyone around you are doing it so you must do it as well. Just live the life the way you want to and see how it goes. Somehow, things will fall into place. Slowly but surely.

So laugh like this kid in the gif. Hehe seriously made my day so much.  =D

for this is where I know it's home

[ When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore ]

Home - Kit Chan

Still everyone's favourite 'cause the lyrics are really just great. And Kit Chan's voice is just omg.

So yes, HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Thank you for being the best place to come home to. I truly am proud to be a Singaporean and there is truly no place I'd rather be at. I will want to type more but I think it's honestly quite clear how much I love Singapore. Haha! As in really. Singaporean through and through here.

Right now, my mind is in a whirl 'cause I have quite a few deadline to catch up. That's for slacking over the weekends. =( Supposed to have ended my internship but I extended 'cause okay, I couldn't finish some stuffs. And also, I didn't mind staying 'cause yea, I really like my company. My boss and all the colleagues. They are all really very nice and friendly people. Just that I'm the only intern staying back so that's not as fun 'cause yea sia, the rest all gone already. But okay ah, I still have my boss and many others around!

Internship has been pretty fun. I'm learning a lot. And I guess, I really need to find sometime next week to really just reflect properly and think through stuffs. I realise, I really need to just stay at home for one whole day to just gather my thoughts and prepare for school. School. Freaking hell not ready to go back to school.

These 3 months had been pretty great. Though the resting part wasn't much but I guess from now on, life's gonna be like that. Unless you are unemployed or a housewife. If not, it's really just busy non-stop. That's why I'm truly amazed by women with children and career. Like how do you manage it? It's seriously amazing.

Been quite awhile since I've updated here so getting a bit rusty. Okay lar, not really. It's just really thoughts all over the place. The past few months had really been a whirl. Many things just came at me without any warning and heads up. But I guess that's what makes life interesting.

And oh yes! I'm going for exchange as well!! Next year form January to June/July. Hence, life is honestly gonna be one crazy hell of a ride from here on. I'm quite scared as to what to expect but I'm pretty excited as well. But yes, truly need to learn how to manage time properly. And be more freaking organised. That's one of the few things I learnt from internship. I really need to be more organised and work fast. Think fast and really just force myself to step out of my comfort zone.

And I'm truly thankful for the people I've met along the way. I swear my boss is really the best. Like I really enjoy my work because of her. Though yes, there are times I feel that I fall short from her expectations but I sincerely do hope that I've managed to meet her expectations somehow. And yes, since this is the last week, or rather kinda last week, I really want to find out why she decided to choose me for the internship amongst all the other candidates. I think it's really quite interesting to find out why. Though yea, you really just hope that you delivered and met the expectations.

Okay yes, now back to work. But wah really need to up my game like mad. Procastination is really killing me sometimes. But I honestly am freaking thankful that I work freaking well under pressure. Like I won't break down. Okay, at least there are people who will support me even if I do break down so yes, I'm really thankful and blessed.