last week

My last week of bumming around and not doing anything school related. =( I really don't want sch to start. As in I kinda want but I don't wan also. And the don't want more huge part I think. =/ which ah, quite sian ah. But I guess it's because I really don't know what to expect so it's quite scary. It's this whole other system that I'm still quite very confused about but I guess I will understand and get it eventually. Ok, I have to get it eventually if not I will just die.

Anyway, last week before school officially starts for me. And I still have many million things to do. It's so scary how there is still not enough time even though I had almost 9 months. Time is an ass. But ok I know that these 9 months were really quite well spent. I think I should do some monthly thingy post for these 9 months. Like look back at what I've done because I realise I really haven't been posting much about these 9 months. Lazy is one thing. Ok lazy is the only thing. Lol! And yea lar, it kinda makes more sense to just live and not sit in front of the computer to blog about what you have live. Because if it's an event worth remembering, you will remember it even without having to record or write down somewhere. 

But yes, me being me, who likes to write stuffs here and there. And type stuffs and all, I will still want to record them down somewhere. Haha! I really am a sucker for writing stuffs and all. I guess it's really my way of remembering things. 

Quite scared of what's going to come and I know I shouldn't but I know I am. Gah. Ok I really shouldn't think so much before going into something. And really just go and experience and have fun and enjoy. And just yea, live. Don't let the mind thinks so much and just do it. It takes a huge step to come out from this comfort shell that you are so used to since forever but you know that you have to and yea, you will survive.

Ahh I realise the night really makes you think a lot and reflect a lot. Lol! How HTHT usually happens at night. Haha! Ok lar, depends actually. But HTHTs honestly feel nice. And ok ba, just talking to people who you are crazy comfortable with. And remembering that you can still talk. LOL! Sigh. I think maybe I'm being paranoid. Ok I am being paranoid. But it does feel weird though. But I know I'm like that. It's just that I forgot how introverted I was for these 8 months because during these 8 months, I only met up with people who I'm too damn comfortable with that it's impossible for me to be quiet. There's work I guess, but work is different somehow. Haha! 

Oh well. I just need to stop being so paranoid lar. And just remember that I am still myself no matter what. Haha! I know I will be fine lar. Quiet-nature. HAHA! This common word in most of my report cards. But slowly it will change so yes!!! I should stop being so annoyed with myself for being quiet.

Okok. It's 3am already omg. Blogging with phone is scary.