I was writing my report for Project Phoa and ah, I looked back at some of my reflections from the trip and think back on what I did and yes, I really miss the students there.
That day, during the donor's talk, our first slide was a photo of us and the children and we all just stared at the photo and looked at each and every single one of the children. And I think that in all our heads, we really hope that all these children are doing well and having a decent life in Cambodia. And yes, that one day, we can visit them again. Hopefully so. I really want to. If I can. If time permits.
But you see this thing about life and time, it doesn't wait for you. I can't guarantee that I will have the time to go back there again but I know that I will really want to. Someday at least. I don't want it to be just a one time thing. Such OCSP shouldn't be just a one time and never again thing. But I know it might not be all that easy to just go back like that but I will really want to if possible. Because yes, these children have got so much potential in them. And I want to know each of their stories. 2 weeks is freaking hard to get to know them entirely well. Each of these children has so much to stories in them and I really want to know them. And try my best to help them even though there will be many moments of helplessness. Puspa shared with us her many encounters of feeling completely helpless. And it was a terrible feeling. Even for someone like her who is super strong-willed.
Here I am living such a good life in Singapore and complaining about many freaking things that are like not even worthy for complains as compared to the children there. It really sucks 'cause they are honestly just in a pretty stuck situation. And just because they happen to be born in Cambodia and into their family. It just feels very unfair. But I guess yes, I believe that they have their fair share of joy and happiness. They do. And I guess I just really miss them. 2 weeks is short and somehow, it really just doesn't feel enough. It's like there are so much more things I want to teach them and help them and talk to them about.
But yes yes, I shouldn't be sad and all. Just be happy that I have this experience with them and hopefully they will remember me like how I will remember them. Teaching is honestly one of the most rewarding job ever. There is this strong sense of accomplishment in teaching. So yes, I guess I should just be glad that I was given this chance to know these children for those 2 weeks with them. And yes, hopefully one day, our paths will cross again.
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