hellooo it has been so so long since I type here that it honestly feel a bit weird but also very comforting and familiar feeling at the same time as I start typing more. 2020 has been one heck of a year and I feel like if I don't post at all and have some reflection at the end of the year, it is not doing the year a justice.
This year has been all sorts of strange but personally, it has truly been a year that I think I've grown the most in terms of the way I view the world and everything around me. I mean, I believe I had grown over the years, especially so when I read back at my old blog posts or insta posts and cringe so bad. But those growth are usually gradual and unrealised? It's just suddenly one day, you slowly just became different. But I think for this year, the growth had been accelerated and especially so when I had more time with myself to reflect and think. Though one thing I regret is not documenting my thoughts more frequently and better. It's really kinda just all over the place, as usual. But I mean okay, at least I did share them with people around me on some things so I guess that helps a bit? You somehow remember things better when you say it out.
ANYWAY, so okay, I think I will do another post to properly reflect cause I'm technically supposed to sleep now. But I guess one important takeaway from this year is that I should always be constantly learning and growing and changing my mindset to be a better person in this world. I mean, humans are never perfect and we are almost always learning new things and making mistakes here and there. But change is always the only constant in this life right? To be comfortable with things changing constantly and learning to let go. To be honest, the learning to let go back is still something that I'm trying hard to but it really takes time. I think there are indeed some parts of me that has been like that since forever but yknow, at least acknowledging it and actively trying to change it is a step forward.
And overthinking also. Like wow, if you yourself is already thinking of so many things at one go, what makes you think that your this one small thing is what's bugging other people. It is most likely not significant and it just got amplified in your head because well, you think better things to worry and think about.
Anyway, I think I might have digressed again. But I guess really just gotta have faith in yourself and trust the process. Trust that whatever decisions that you are making now, they are all part of God's plans for you. You may not understand now, you may never understand ever in your life, but you know that He is the truth and that He will never want the worse for you. This is all part of the process to whatever He has in stall for you. You just gotta be patient and remember that yea, He is here always.
But yes, this has been yet another incoherent post but I promise to come back and do a better reflection 'cause I think I really need to just consolidate all my thoughts properly. Thankyou my random stalkers who are causally come in to read for fun. And reading this rubbish LOL but okay okay, stay tune for next post.
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