Trust me when I say I'm alright. But just let me come to terms with it first 'cause it really hurts. Suddenly, you are a stranger to me. I really can't accept it that you are not able to tell me about it. It just hurts. I know you have your reasons but why? Why did all these reasons even came up? If it was me, I would have told you no matter what. Or at least show some kind of hints. Maybe I was slow but you should know how much I trusted you and that I thought that you will tell me about such things no matter what. I never asked about such stuffs 'cause I thought you will tell me straight without me hinting anything. And the thing is, I did hint a little. But you said nothing.

I'm sorry for feeling this way but I just can't accept it. I can accept that fact (in fact I'm actually happy that at least it's like that) but the other fact that you didn't tell me just hurts too much that I can't be as happy for you.

I'm disappointed. I'm angry. I'm pissed off. I'm sad. I feel like I had been taken for a fool. I feel like slapping myself for not realising anything. But you should know very well that I expect YOU to tell me, spell it to my face and not ME asking it from you. If you know me well, you know I'm like that. You didn't even tell me a single shit. I'm sorry but I just can't accept that you didn't tell me earlier. You had plenty of chances to break it to me but you didn't. If you think that telling me after O levels is the right thing, you are wrong. I will in fact be very very happy for you. And not feel this disappointment and anger I'm feeling now. I don't know about you but I will tell you the first minute if such things ever happen to me.

But I will be alright. Just let me be for awhile. I just didn't know that such things will actually happen to me. It just hurts.