I think I really need to lower my expectations on people. I always end up feeling disappointed and stuffs. And anticipations. Seriously why think and plan so much when it may all just stop and fails and you just end up sad and disappointed. Why make yourself feel like that? But time and again, I do. I always have expectations from people and from myself. And I always get the disappointment. Ok maybe not always. But sometimes you just thought better of people. I know yes, sometimes it's not their fault to disappoint you. But it just sucks. Especially when you realise that no matter what, your fate with them just stop already. It's really a simple "no fate".
Honestly, the thing about fate is that you really cannot force it even if you try your best to do so. Once it's over, it's over. And it's something that you have to come to terms with. It sucks. It freaking sucks but what to do? Suck it up. The fate with the person just ends there and then. We don't have the control over it and yea, that's it really.
It hurts, it sucks, it takes awhile to get used to. But when you get used to it, you will be alright. Bitch seriously. Lol. I keep using Bitch for everything and anything. Even if it's not appropriate. And I realise my mood swings often comes after my period instead of before. It's damn weird. But it's so true. Somehow my mood always become off after my period. Like I just hate everything. Ok maybe not. GAHHHH I don't know. I just know that right now, I really just want to rant it all out.
Why, why, why is it that at the end of the day, you are still the one who can make me feel so sian? Why are you still the one who annoys me the most? And why are you still the one that I have high expectations for? Like seriously why. I really don't get it. I really just argh. Like go away. Just go away. But I know I'm not the one letting you go away. So what the hell is my problem also right? Argh. Bitch.
And to be true, there are really so many others who are more worth it. I guess yea, at least they seem to bother more. Somehow. I know I shouldn't compare but I am. And I know that I'm partly at fault but you know whatever lar. I don't even know what I'm typing anymore. I just know that I'm done. Yep, I'm done.
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