sighhhhhh I miss people. Yes again. But really ba, I realise I haven't really see my friends in a long while. =\ why can't everyone I like be in the same sch as me. =\ like really just everyone. then everywhere I go, I see people I like and be happy. HAHA! Sigh. Me and my greediness. Maybe it's 'cause I'm out of touch with people for the past 2 days.
Yep, my phone. This phone, dropped into a toilet bowl. BLOODY HELL. I honestly don't even know how it actually happened. It slipped out of my freaking hands sia. Not even like from my pocket or anything. And I wasn't playing with my phone while I was peeing. =( damn sian. But ok, I think it will still be working fine. Seems quite alright to me. I hope it is though if not I'll be very very sad. And yes, it's clean 'cause I flushed the toilet already when the phone dropped in.
Anyway, I really fear for the grades for 2 modules. Though it's over, it's not good over. Yesterday, after my math paper, I really felt like crying. Yes, crying over a paper is such a primary sch thing or O levels or A levels thing but yes it really suck. Like I really ah don't know lar. It's just too screwed up. I guess the thing about maths is that once you don't know how to do, you don't know how to do. No fluff can help you because you can't fluff maths. That's why I really miss content stuffs. At least there will always be something to write. Even if it's nonsense. Maths, you can't write nonsense. Well, ok you can but you know it's confirm wrong so what's the point of it? Ok method marks. But wahhhh it really was a shitting feeling. And I didn't have my phone with me so I can't just rant out to people straightaway. Sucks sia.
But ok, food and watching one episode of Friends lifted my mood. HAHA! Probably was hungry also. And then bloody had to study for STATS right after MFE. I realise I should have just hecked MFE and put in more effort with STATS in the first place. Like at least for STATS, studying helps. But yep, too late already 'cause it's all over~~~~~ I can't even feel happy about it being over. WHY
Seriously can't wait for 2nd December. When I can totally and completely let go. And go out with people I like. Even if it's just going to someone's house to chill. And seriously, I need to see them people. Too long never see them already. =( Even talking to them feels so nice. LOL! Like deprived like that. But wahhhhhh, why is there army and university. Why can't life just stop at aft A levels and before army and university. Where everyone is available and free and happy and happy. Yea happy. Just happy. With no care in the world but to enjoy and take a good deserving break after studying our ass off for 2 years. 8 months is really not enough somehow. I don't know how but it's just not enough.
And freaking hell I really want to go overseas. Like anywhere is fine. Just away from Singapore. Or chalet. GAHHH I miss chalet. =( I want chalet. Why can't we have chalet? Sigh. But I really want to travel overseas. Just buy some random plane ticket and just go.
I really hope that one day, I'll be able to just carry a bag with a passport, a camera, some money and credit card. And just go to the airport. And buy a random plane ticket to somewhere and just go. To do that, I first have to be rich. But that's really the life. Just going overseas on random just because you feel like.
I really really hope sem 2 will be better because yea, this is quite depressing at times. And then you think about GPA and wah, you really just feel like quitting school. HAHA! Ok lar not really. I know this spot for me is really a rare one and I should really treasure it. I really hope that I am cut out for it though. Really feels like I'm of no match to it. It kinda sucks when you know that you are really the one tanking the left side of the bell curve.
I used to be on the right side of the bell curve. =\ Then again, I was competing with lesser people then. Sigh. University is really a whole different league of people. People who are really smarter and all.
Need some shopping therapy. And food therapy. Everything lar. Everything fun and nice and good and awesome. I WANT.
And ok, I think I'm feeling slightly sian 'cause I really really want a relationship like Monica and Chandler. HAHA!! I know, it's a freaking lame reason to be feeling sian about but they are really too awesome lar. And yes, it's fictional and all but they are really just so meant for each other. They are so lucky. Lol! And seeing them just makes you really want to have a relationship like theirs as well. But ok, cannot be perfectionist and stuffs. HAHA! But they are honestly really very cute. Haha! Ah well. But yes yes, it's just a thought. When the day someone comes along somewhere, somehow. I will be patient. Haha! Ok honestly, I'm really quite happy being single and stuffs. But then again, I don't know how's it like to be attached so I can't really compare. But I guess yea, when it comes, it comes. Even if it doesn't come for a long time, it will come someday ultimately? That's what I'm believing and yes, I believe that there is always a person meant for another person. That there is always a pair. And one thing good about being attached is that when you are sad and stuffs, you know that there will always be this one person who will listen to all your rants and tell you that everything is going to be alright. I mean yea, I have my family and friends to tell me that now but somehow it's kinda different I think? To know that someone is really there for you. Someone who will look after you no matter what.
But ok yes, I think my family and friends deserve great credit for cheering me up though. Lol! As in yea, I really cannot survive without them. HAHA! That's of course but yea, they are really important. So as of now, having them is actually really more than enough for me. And yes, I am happy. Just you know, sometimes you wonder and think a bit too much. Haha! Maybe age is catching up on me. HAHA!
But it really is you know. I'm going to be 20 in about 2 months time. OMG EXACTLY 2 MONTHS TIME. =( I don't even feel it anymore. Lol! Or rather, I don't even realise how fast time is passing by anymore. Soon, I'm going to graduate from SMU and start working. And woah. Too fast really.
20 huh. It sounds really old. With the 2 in front. =\ I don't want!!!! I can go back to 18. Sound sounds like a nice age. Or rather 17. Ok lar, anything below 19. 19 sounds horrible 'cause it's like not here not there.
AND OMG I CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH CATCHING FIRE!! THE OST IS SUPER GOOD. And and everyone who watched it says it's good. So yes I want to watch. =(
Alright, end of my rant. Haha! Music is really awesome. And shows. Sitcoms. Haha! Ok today shall be my slack and have fun day and I will start studying again from tmr onwards.
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