beating fast

Butterflies. I kinda miss that feeling. It's honestly a pretty exciting and nice feeling to feel. How when you see someone or when you are around someone, you feel this strange exceptional happiness that is different from how you feel when you are with your family and friends. 

But as much as I miss that, I'm scared to feel it again too. Because yea, even though such feelings are exciting, they are crazy confusing too. 

But really, when will it be my turn to feel this strange feeling? It's all very confusing. I feel like something is holding me back or I'm holding myself back. But for what? I also don't know. I guess yea, probably just scared to feel all confused again because I don't really want that confusion right now. It ain't fun. Ah well, such things take time. Come set me up with an amazing guy HAHAHA ok I kid. I will kill you if you try.