Alright, I just lost my mood to post about nicer stuffs. I realise a lot of cool and funny stuffs happened during the Yunnan trip. Lucky there's still photos so it's fine. I think aiya, shall not post about it already. Or else I won't update about the other stuffs. LOL.

But yes, I lost my mood 'cause seriously argh. I feel like just stop planning. No one seems to bother. Like freaking hell. You asked, we planned, don't complain it's ex, don't suddenly back out 'cause it's ex. I mean ok fine, it's really quite ex this time. I was shocked when I calculated. But what to do? It's peak season. It's the holidays. Chalets are ex during this time. I don't want you all to pay so much too but I don't think I can pay the full sum.

I don't mind being the only one who go for the chalet if not for the price. Seriously man. Throw me alone in the chalet, I will be fine. Ok, it's quite scary but yes, you get my point.

And freaking hell, reply message. I always hate this 'cause it's like the freaking annoying part. All you have to do is type "I'm coming" or "I'm not coming". IT'S NOT THAT HARD. It can be done within a few seconds. I don't think I'm wasting a lot of your time just for you to type your reply. It's simple, it's easy, you don't need to be taught.

I'm tired. Yes, I've said this a lot of time. It really sucks when pple don't reply. But fine, I'm just going to heck and if I see you there means you are going. If you aren't there, means you aren't. I'm not going to persuade you pple anymore, I'm not going to send individual text asking if you are coming, I'm not going to call you just to ask if you are coming. It's really hell of an annoyance when pple don't reply messages that require you to reply. I said there, REPLY.

Arghaghjfasdhfklasdfdshioq Freaking hell. This is the last time I'm planning a freaking chalet for this class. I love this class but I think, you know what, I believe I've done my best. Even if I haven't, I'm sorry but yes, I tried but I guess things are just like that. I miss this class, I miss all the crazy fun times we had. Maybe I'm the only one missing them. So yes, I bothered planning all these. But apparently, I think I'm really the only one who really miss this class and wants to meet up with everyone else? Seriously no one seems to bother.

I'm done. I don't know why I'm so angry now. I think it's not just them. Maybe it's mood swings. I don't know. It just sucks lar. Freaking hell.

I miss 6h. I don't know why but yea, at least, 6h pple bothered. Yes, they don't reply smses too but I don't know. It's just different. At least they will reply when they feel that the person sending is getting annoyed? I don't know. And we can make small groups work. Chalet with 7 pple. It was awesome. Maybe 'cause the chalet wasn't that expensive too. And ok, stupid Kenneth paid the whole thing for chalet. But we all didn't mind paying at all. We really just go to spend time with each other and have fun. If you think about it, chalet with 7 pple is kinda insane. But we made it work, and it was sure hell fun like crazy. Maybe it was the mad cycling, but I think we would still have a lot of fun even without it. We can make things work because everyone will be willing to do anything since we are there already. I think we are really cool pple. And those who wanted to come for the chalet but couldn't. You can tell that they really wanted to come. Kenneth said it wasn't. Maybe I was too naive and thought that they really actually wanted to come but somehow, I'm quite sure they really meant it when they said that they wanted to come but couldn't. You can sense who is true and who's not. I know who are true. And hmm.. it's really not about the number anymore. It's abt the quality. Those who are still coming, they are the ones who still feel attached to the class. Pple who want to meet up with these crazy old friends.

I guess, I didn't expect them to turn away from the class so quickly? But I guess it just happens, and it will still happen even if it's not now. Yes, I understand it's expensive and you really cannot pay for it. I'm not unreasonable. But hmm.. if you really want to come, you will make it work. Like some of them told me they are just coming for the day but not staying overnight. You can tell that they still want to come, it's just that they don't have the money to pay. I'm fine with that. It makes me happy actually, 'cause at least they really wanted to come and meet up with everyone else. I don't really know how to say but yea.

Actually, I just hate non-repliers. It's like you don't bother at all. There is a lot of ways and means to tell me that you are coming or not. Technology made it so. You can use Facebook or whatever if your phone is down. If you are overseas then fine, I'll forgive you. But argh, you get the point lar. I don't know why but yes, to me, replying is important. You won't keep the perosn wondering. It's freaking annoying. And the thing is, it's not the first time they don't reply. I'm sick and tired of this. I really am. I really don't know why I care so much? Why I bothered when no else seems to care?

Hmm.. Whatever already. Whoever comes, I'll see you there. I give up.

Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You) - Kelly Clarkson

[What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone]

Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You) - Kelly Clarkson

That's why she's still the best American Idol ever. =D No one can be better man! Seriously still love her songs. Cannot get sick of them.

Being alone doesn't meet you are lonely. I think sometimes it's nice to be alone. You can think about a lot stuffs and you can observe and see the things around you. You don't always need company. Being with yourself, it's really quite nice sometimes. You can see how you are and all. It's a nice feeling. It doesn't mean you are a lonely person just because you are alone. You can choose to be alone. Spending time with yourself is a good thing. Everyone should spend time with themselves sometimes. It can get tiring to hang around pple everyday. Time alone allows you to stop and think and just sort out your thoughts so that you can make the right decisions. I really need to settle down and think through. So many thoughts going on my mind that I have yet to pen down.

But yes, I like being around pple of course. LOL! I'm not like some emo person who likes to be alone all the time. Sometimes I can't stand being alone. Like one thing I really cannot do is eat alone. I'll feel weird, I don't know why. I like walking home from plaza alone though, feels nice. Especially at night. Haha! It feels safe and the weather is cooling all. But yes, I like walking home with a bunch of mad idiots as well. Haha! Ah.. Quite miss all of them. Gosh, we really need to meet up soon lar!!! Holidays is coming to an end already. =\



A dear friend of mine posted this. =D And yes!! It's so true. Haha! But I love how my friends really understand how I love photography and all. How they are supportive but will get annoyed when I photograph them. Ironic right? Haha! Too bad they just so happen to be the people I want to photograph of the most. I seriously love taking candid shots of them. It's so natural and nice and they really make me feel happy when I take photos of them. They will be annoyed sure, but they will still let me go on. Haha! Ok lar, they will get pissed at some point but then they won't really go all out angry. They will try to hide from the camera but give up at some point of time. They won't be surprised when I'm not holding a camera, but instead they will be "thank god she doesn't have a camera for once". They are annoying pple but yes, they are the people who are important to me.

"We always insult, never praise. It's a rule we live by."

HAHA! It's true. We only praise when we are forced to by the other person or when we know that the other person is really feeling down and needs to be encouraged. Strange friendship, but it's the purest, truest, most innocent and honest friendship.

And talking about them can really make you feel happier. Haha! People who cheer you up just thinking about them. Hope we can meet up real soon. Sucks that they are all busy and lazy pple! Alright, I shall update my life for the month of December so far. I think I mention most of the stuffs about the Yunnan trip already. LOL! Okok, one more post and then I shall move on~ Haha!

30 wacky nice people!

Our nicest group photo! =D

I was looking for the photos to post and I realise I've got a lot of photos I want to post on the blog. Gah. Ok, maybe post later.

Anyway so yep! This school trip is really my best school trip ever. =D Don't count Malacca Trip 'cause I was with my classmates so it usually would be fun one. This one is with pple that I don't really know well before (don't count Jordan, Lingli and Joyce lar) but I still had a fun time with them!!! I really enjoyed the 11 days with them and they are really fun and nice pple to be around with. They are super crazy pple who did really funny stuffs and didn't care if they lose their imagine. LOL! It's like they are really those pple who just be themselves and go crazy. Haha! They are quite real, so it's really nice to be around them for those few days.

They love to sing also. LOL! And the thing is, they can sing. Haha! Ok except one guy. LOL! He's erm really cannot sing one. But okok, it's funny to hear him sing. He brought laughter to our OCIP team man! Haha! But yep! They can all sing really well! So it's quite nice to hear. Haha! And that's why like as much as I like travelling with them, I realise I really want to travel with my close friends too. LOL! I can really go mad with those pple. I'm not those that will go crazy with pple who I don't really know well yet. After I know you better, then I will go crazy with you all. Haha! That's why I don't care! Next year, after As, we MUST travel together ok!!!! I think it will be damn fun. =D

Anyway, so yep! You can also tell how these pple really want to serve. Their eagerness in teaching and all. How they really want to help the students there. You can see how dedicated everyone is during the 5 days in the school. They didn't signed up for this trip just to have fun. We all much rather extend the days of CIP instead of going sightseeing. I mean yea, the sightseeing was really cool and all. But yep, it's the CIP part that makes this whole trip more worthwhile.

Our 3 teachers who went to the trip with us! Ms Lye, Mr Choi and Mr Chng! I think they are really nice teachers. They have this service spirit in them and they really want to do their best to help the students as well. Mr Chng was in charge of my class and he really did his very best to help the students and on the last day, he also felt how we felt on leaving the school. You can really see their passion in teaching them.

During the mass group meeting daily, Mr Choi would share with us a lot of insights. And you can really hear how he wanted to impart this service thing to us to. LOL! Sounds funny but yea. He's just really dedicated. He would tell us how we should learn to be more appreciative and even though we could not do a lot for the students in just that short 5 days, we should still give it our best and do whatever we can. And OMG! He tells the lamest jokes ever. LOL! Seriously man. And he really LOL-ed at his own jokes. It's damn comic. But it's funny lar. Just that it's really lame lar!

Ms Lye!! Haha! My dear form teacher. She is really nice ba! Though can be crazy at times. LOL! She would really take care of us and when Lingli was sick and couldn't go the mountains all, she stayed behind with her. I mean yea, it was her responsibility but yep, she had to forgo all that for her and I think she really didn't mind. She's really a responsible teacher? And yea lar, she's quite lame. LOL! She was super funny when we entered the Stone Forest. Since she is a Geog teacher, she got real excited there. LOL! And started explaining the geog stuffs to whoever that bothered to listen. Haha! She is super hilarious man!!

Ohya! Mr Chng has a funny laughter. LOL! Super joke lar his laughter. It is really distinct and loud. Everyone from the trip can recognise his laughter already. Haha! Actually all 3 of them had funny laughter. LOL! Eating meals with them can be quite fun sometimes 'cause they would talk about very lame stuffs. And how they would tease each other. It's just funny lar. LOL!

The 3 of them are really nice teachers, understanding, fun yet still held their position as teachers well. They can play with us and be serious also. Glad that they went on the trip with us!!

The new friends I made during the trip are awesome too. Haha! The whole team is really nice and comfortable to be around with. I shall introduce them later. LOL! I don't know for what but yep! Ok, introduce some of them only since there really is a lot of them. Haha!

Anyway, ah, it's really going to take my ages before I finish posting abt the trip. -_- With all the photos and stuffs. But once I post photos, there will be lesser words so it's fine. I think I'll just post day by day since it's easier. Heh. But ok, I won't post every single photo since that's crazy.

Maybe I should post abt the stuffs I did after the trip already. It's super long lar! 17th dec already. GAHH. And my work is not done. I'm going to die I think. Chalet is coming up soon too. Luckily I don't have OGL! Have more time I guess! Quite looking forward to chalet? Ok, I'm looking forward to night cycle. Heh. But yes! I'm sure chalet will be fun. Even if it doesn't, I've done my best I guess? At least I still bothered? Ah we will have fun lar! It's 4E1~ =)

Taken from inside the airplane~ I love my DSLR. =D

Anyway, ahhh. I feel sad that I'm not blogging. LOL! As in I've really got no time to blog but I have hundred of stuffs to blog about. I haven't finish talking about Yunnan too. Gah. And it has been 13 days since I came back. So many stuffs happened. LOL! I met up with people, I made decisions, I changed my decisions, I'm still pondering about decisions once again, I am still confused, I am happy, I am pissed off, I am tired, I am lazy.

Someday before I went Yunnan, I told Jiesi that I wasn't going to organise any more outings, meet ups or what so ever. I told her that I would just come back from Yunnan, and stay at home, only go out when pple asked me out. But then, ever since I came back, I went out almost everyday. And most of the time, I asked the people out. LOL. Ah, I totally suck. I don't mind meeting up with a small group of pple or a few pple. But organising big stuffs like class outings, it gets tiring sometimes. But somehow, I'll still do it. I don't know why. Even though I told myself that I'm not going to do it anymore, I'll still end up planning stuffs. But yes, sometimes, it's really easier when you plan them. Waiting for other pple to plan, it will kinda take forever. Then you will be thinking, then just heck and wait until someone planned right? That I should just heck and wait and not plan right? But I can't, even though I want to. Maybe 'cause I really do want to meet up with everyone. So I'll just end up planning. I'm not complaining. It's just tiring to plan stuffs sometimes. Ok fine, maybe I'm complaining. But I think I'm just purely ranting. Hahahahahaha. Having a headache now so please bear with me.

But yep, luckily some stuffs I don't have to plan so it's fine. It's just annoying how the pple who I always want to meet up the most are lazy and won't plan outings and wait for pple like me to plan. TSKKKK. I have pretty annoying friends. But I still love them. HAHA! Apparently, I like annoying pple. LOL! But then again, I am annoying too so oh well, that's why we are all friends.

GAHHHH I MISS PPLE LAR! Was looking at photos that day and gosh, I really miss pple. All the stupid retarded stuffs that we did. There are too many. AND OMG, I LOVE VIDEOS. LOL! Watching the videos taken can crack me up real mad. I so wish to share with everyone else but some videos cannot be shared or else the pple will kinda kill me 'cause it's freaking embarrassing. But seriously, it's freaking hilarious. I know what to do when I feel like laughing mad now. HAHA! Some videos I really forgot I even had them. I shall share some videos next time. And ya!! All the unglam photos~ I have so many stuffs that I can blackmail pple with. HAHA! A whole big collection. I'm so sure I can make a full Facebook album for quite a few of my friends. Individual albums somemore. They have that much unglam photos. =D

Anyway, yes! I shall blog more next time! Abt the trip and abt the past few days aft I came back from Yunnan!

Forever and Always - Parachute

She sits at the table, the hours get later
He was supposed to be here
She's sure he would have called
She waits a little longer, there's no one in the driveway
No one's said they've seen him
Why is something wrong?
She looks back to the window, and suddenly the phone rings
A voice says something's happened
That she should come right now
Her mind goes to December, she thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knee first, and he said
"I want you forever. Forever and always.
Through the good and the bad and the ugly.
We'll grow old together, forever and always."

She pulls up to the entrance, she walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls, a maze that's never ending
They talk about what happened, but she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room
She sits by his bedside, held his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life
The house on the hillside, where they would stay
Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor, or for better.
We'll still love each other.
Forever and always.

Then she gets an idea, and calls in the nurses, brings up the Chaplin
And he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings from the couple next door
Everybody's laughing, as the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes, and she says
"I want you forever. Forever and always.
Through the good and the bad and the ugly.
We'll grow old together, and always remember,
whether happy or sad or whatever.
We'll still love each other, forever and always.
Forever and always. Forever and always."

She finishes the vows, but the beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low.

As he says "I will love you forever. Forever and always.
Please just remember even if I'm not there.
I'll always love you, forever and always."

This song made me feel like crying! The lyrics is so sweet and sad. It's a story type of lyrics. But yes, super nice song! Ok, it's super heartbreaking song. Parachute sings all types of songs lar. Happy and sad all. LOL! But they are good.

fulfilling trip

JUMP SHOT! Haha! I love the backdrop. It's super pretty. And guess what, this photo was taken at the school field of the school we went to teach at! How nice to go school to such a beautiful view everyday. =D

Anyway, yep, I realise I really should start posting more about the trip! Or else, I will never update my blog. Haha! I shall not go day by day since it's freaking 11 days so it will take me forever before I finish typing out everything. I'm just going to type whatever comes to my mind.

First, of course will be the CIP part. I'll type out something that I wrote down after the last day at school.

These 5 days with the children were really amazing. I learned so much from them. Their enthusiasm, their eagerness to learn. Their gratitude towards us really touched my heart. I didn't really expect myself to really not want to leave them. I know I will feel sad but I am really feeling the kind of feeling where I really just want to stay with them longer. Continue teaching them! Seeing them in class for the past 5 days really made a great difference to my life. Changed my view and gave me a lot of perceptions on everything. They really enlighten me greatly. I am really going to miss them. I didn't really get to talk much to them but ah.. I just love them. They really love us a lot. It made me feel really happy when they wanted me to sign their book. I mean yea, it's a simple gesture yet it still made me feel happy. And when they wanted to take photos with me willingly! Like they came up to me and say they want to take photo with Yifang Jiejie! Ah! I felt so touched. LOL! it may sound stupid but really, I felt this really happy feeling. To know that you really made a great impact on their lives. How they will remember your name forever, even though you don't remember most of their names. Feeling quite sad how I didn't get a lot of their names. Ah. Sucks that they don't have Facebook too! I want them to see their photos as well! They are really cute kids. Didn't expect sec 2 kids to be so cute and eager to learn. They really made my heart feel so warm in this cold place.

Our class of 54 students! =)

They are really sweet children who touched our hearts and really made us want to stay longer for them. On the last day, they kept telling us to stay awhile longer. They really didn't want us to go and we really didn't feel like leaving. Those 5 days with them really left a great impact on them and on us as well. As much as they learned from us greatly, the things we learned from them were worth way more than the English that they got from us. Of course, I do hope that whatever we taught them would be with them forever. And I think it would. I told a student that she must always remember the things we taught them, and her reply was "Of course I will!". I felt so happy hearing that you know. It shows just how much those short 5 days will be forever etched in their minds. How this experience that we gave them will always be remembered by them. AHHHHHH. I miss them so much suddenly. It really really really sucks how we can't truly keep in contact with them since it's China where Facebook is blocked. They have this QQ thing yet we don't. I gave my email to my buddy but I'm really not sure if they know how to use email and all.

I gave my buddy a long letter in English too. Haha! I mean yea, I want her to find the meaning on her own and ok, partly I was lazy to write the whole thing is Chinese but yes! I'm helping her improve her English! But yes!! She told me she would go check out the meaning if she doesn't understand. I hope that letter would be of great inspiration to her. HAHA! Ok, so full of myself but yes, I really hope that she will really study hard and do really well. She's a really smart girl and I know she can do a lot of great things. And she would really ask me when she doesn't get it.

The eager to learn spirit that I saw in all of them really makes me feel the strong urge to want to teach them, to help them in whatever ways we can during that period of time. Some of their English were really bad. And I really feel like staying longer to help them. They all have the potential to do well. They are really enthusiastic in learning. Whenever we asked a question, they will all respond as a class loudly and clearly. It's so nice to hear such great response. Makes you feel really happy. Haha!

And their class spirit is really strong even though the class is huge. We were playing Charades with them and one of the word is Singer. So we asked them who can sing the best. They pointed out 2 guys and they came forward. And they started to sing. Then, the whole class started singing along as well!!! At that moment, I felt this warm chill kinda thing. LOL! This touched feeling. It was so sweet seeing the whole class sing together. I always like it when like the whole class sing together. HAHA! 4E1's singing to Ms Tan. I felt how Ms Tan might have been feeling. This really warm feeling. Though the students weren't really singing for us, it still felt really nice seeing the whole class sing together. You can see the class spirit there somehow. It just felt warm and sweet.

This photo was taken when they were all singing. Should have video it down!!

We sang for them on the last day as well! We sang Peng You and another English song. And ah, I really miss them. I hope that I can still see them again someday. I don't want that to be our last meeting. I feel so happy taking photos of them. LOL! Like I won't really spam photos of them. They are nice to take photos of. =D I love their expressions. And their smiles are really sweet. It makes me feel happy seeing them smile. There's this innocence in their smiles.

Teaching them was really a good experience. Being there with them, this was really what I signed up for. Ok, not totally but yes, I wanted to do something for the kids. I'm not sure to what extent we had helped them but I know that they will remember this experience forever and I really hope that it will change their lives sort of thing. Haha! I mean yea, I know we are no superheroes but I really hope that this experience that we gave them will help them somehow.

I really do hope to see them again. I think it might be possible 'cause almost all of us want to go back again. And yes, next up is about the people who went on this trip with me. I love my OCIP team mates!! Haha! They are really awesome? Everyone is nice to talk to and friendly. They are fun people yet you can tell that they didn't sign up for OCIP just to have fun. They really want to help the students there as well. You can see the passion in them.

Ok, I think I shall talk more about that in the next post. Heh. I'm feeling tired. Easy to feel tired lately. I've got so much more stuffs to share!!!! This trip is really worth it. I'm really glad that I ended up in this trip out of the 3 OCIP trips. I think our trip is the best. =D Haha! We had fun, we serve, we bonded, we are just the best lar huh. =D

And yes!! Yunnan is a beautiful place. Haha! Really must go there at least once in your lifetime. It's really worth going. Ah.. I've really too much stuffs to say already. LOL! Thankfully there's photos. Haha! Refresh my memory.

OK! Time to sleep! I'm actually going to start studying tmr. LOL! Hopefully, I do study in the end. Feel so lazy lar!

There are 2714 photos taken using my camera during the 11 days in Yunnan. LOL! I'm so amused by the number. I took some more too, but the memory card is with my friend. I actually max out TWO 8GB memory cards. I am awesome~ Haha! I bet I could have max out more but I controlled myself. LOL! The places we went are really beautiful and I so wish I can just take photos of everything and share it with everyone but then I realise, I need to bring people there to experience it for themselves! Even though I know photographs allow you to go to the place without being there, sometimes, you really just got to go there for yourself.

I told my parents I'll bring them there next time. Haha! 'Cause seriously, I can see my mum loving that place a lot. And my dad will just go take photos. Haha! Though seriously, his photos aren't great. Heh. I'm not saying mine is awesome. Just that my dad will always praise his own skills and all. LOL. Sounds so familiar. I think the self-praise thing runs in our family. =D

Anyway, I'm posting the photos on FB soon~ Have to filter the photos first. TOO MANY!!!

I am back! =D

Haha! I was back yesterday early morning, 2am! I've got so many stuffs to post about, so many photos to share, so many experiences I want to remember forever. This trip was really the best school trip I ever went to. OK, not as if I went for a lot but yes, the best trip I had with school and with people who aren't those that I had knew for a longer period of time.

I learnt a lot and the experience was really amazing. I'm so glad that I ended up in Yunnan for OCIP. LOL! I think this group of people are really awesome. Everyone is nice and good to work with. They are very ready and enthu and I'm really glad that I got to meet such cool people on this trip. They are fun yet they are also efficient.

And yes!! The students in the school we went to. I really love them though I only spend time with them for five days. Hmm.. There is just too much to say. I can go on forever but I need to sleep soon. I will post more next time. I mean yea, I will confirm post more next time. This trip is really awesome. =D

I feel that I've grown and yes, I really got a lot of things from this trip. And this trip also made me realise a lot of stuffs. I don't really know how to say but yea, this trip was really enlightening in many ways. I'm really glad that I went for this trip!! =))

I really hope I'll have the time to properly sit down and post of the trip. It's 11 days worth of stuffs to talk about!!! =\\ Longest school trip ever yet it went passed real quick too. But of course, I do miss Singapore. Just that I knew that once I'm back, there is really no time. Like the days will passed very very very quickly until I feel that I'm out of breath.

But okok, we'll leave it to that. I'll live life like it is! And waste no time. =) Will upload the photos on Facebook soon. You know, there's 2000++ photos waiting for me to upload. That will be erm, 11albums of photos. Cheers.