walking down memory lane

As I was walking home from grandma's house today, I decided to walk through the market inside of around it and many thoughts just came flowing in my head.

It's just sad how we take so many things around us for granted. That we always think that it will always be there. Until when we know that it's about to be gone, then we realise that we have to start caring about it more. Sometimes, we wait 'til they are gone before we start to care about them. It's like how everyone starts listen to Michael Jackson, Whitney Huston, Fong Fei Fei and many other deceased artists' songs only after they passed one. We learn to appreciate people and things only after they aren't around anymore. Why? I'll never know. I guess we just that them for granted, thinking that there is always time.

As I walked through the market, so many shops just remind me of how they have always been there and if one day they are gone, it will be a really weird market. The shoe shop with the old uncle always sitting outside the store, the shop selling all sorts of random stuffs, the shop selling all sorts of food, the funny handphone shop. There are just so many different things and you just wonder sometimes how in this globalising world, people may stop buying from these shops. How are they going to continue a living when more and more people stop patronizing them? It's just sad somehow. I'm guilty for it too. I don't buy stuffs from those places anymore. I used to when I was young but not anymore. As you grow older, there are just some things you stop doing and it's sad, don't you think?

How the past culture is slowly fading away. Culture evolves overtime yet it's still sad when a heritage gets lost. When I went to Chinatown the other day, I felt sad when I see how some places become so modernise and the authenticity is lost. How some things just stop existing after sometime.

Sandy playground. I used to love and still love those playgrounds with sand. It's my childhood place I guess. But I don't see any such playgrounds around anymore. Most of them changed to those modern kinds where somehow, it's not as fun anymore. The swing, everything. Childhood. I really miss being a child, having nothing to worry and just leading a happy carefree life. Bits of my childhood is slowly gone as time pass by. Children nowadays play with iPhone games instead of at the playground. I would say that they have no childhood but if you think about it, maybe that's their childhood --- playing iPhone games. As strange as it seems to us. It's like how our parents think that childhood is running around in kampung area. Strange how times really changes.

But in this digital world, it still sucks how children now are really missing out the real fun. I mean seriously, iPhone games aren't the right childhood, at least not to me. Playground, moving around, running around. That's childhood. Not sitting in front of your mum's phone and playing some games. It's just sad somehow. But yes, maybe that's their childhood.

The good food that we enjoy from hawker centres. It's mostly tend by elderly. What happens after they passed on? I highly doubt we'll be able to enjoy such good food anymore. It's sad. It's really sad but that's just how life is kinda thing. I mean yea, everyone wants their child to accomplish great things and not take over jobs that don't earn much.

Changes is inevitable yet sometimes, you just wish that time will stand still. And the environment around you won't change. But sadly, in this advance world, life isn't like that. There is no stopping. Everything keeps moving forward until at times, you feel out of breath.

I'll find a day and capture them on photos. The wonderful place I grew up in. I seriously love Bukit Panjang. It's homely and nice. Haha! All these thoughts. So many things are dear to me. Yet it's not possible to care about every single one always.

I want to get either a wide angle lens or a 17-50mm lens. But gosh, it's all damn expensive. Seriously, why did I pick up such an expensive interest? Maybe I should stick with compact camera. But no!!! My DSLR is like gah, once you used it, you just want to continue to use it. Just that yes, I really want to get a lighter lens. My current one is annoying me. Yes I shouldn't complain but still, it's annoying.

I think I'm blogging a lot recently. But that's just because it's the holidays! I seriously am dreading school. This blog post sounds quite weird 'cause I stop posting for awhile and I came back, so the deep thoughts mood was gone. Haha! I'll see when I get the mood again.