evidence that I am aware of the fact that I can't dance since sec 2 or maybe even earlier

The 7 Quiz!
I did this in sec 2 apparently I think and I think it's cool to do it again now after 3 years. HAHA! What I wrote then and now is just amusing.

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. alone in a extreme dark place
2. weird scary horror movies
3. a sudden loud noise
4. alone in a extreme dark place
5. cats
6. stupid fake dinosaur at the zoo
7. (Can't think of much stuffs. I think I'm not scared of quite a lot of stuffs. Heh. Proud of myself. =D)

SEVEN PEOPLE/THINGS THAT I LOVE THE MOST
1. Family ♥
2. 6H '06!! =D
3. 4E1 '10! =D
4. Damily! =)
5. My camera and Holga =D
6. Laughing!
7. Songs that make me happy

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM
1. my bed
2. the things that I hug to sleep
3. my soft toys
4. my pillow
5. letters from friends and family =)
6. photographs
7. everything that let me feel happy when I see them

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT MYSELF
1. YES, I am stiff like nobody's business. I don't know why but I really am.
2. LOVE taking photos of others
3. Have a hundred gazillion nicknames due some annoying friends of mine
4. I cannot sing for nuts but I still continue to sing and annoy the hell out of my friends.
5. Travelling around the world is what I want to do most.
6. My hair is the "best hair in the world". Dry, slightly curly, frizzy, thick and yep, just plain messy. But I don't care. =D
7. I am a crazy person once you get to know me better, though I don't seem like those crazy pple. HAHA! Looks are deceiving. =D

SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Travel to every country at least once
2. Do as many meaningful things as much as I can
3. Bag-packing in Europe or some other nice countries
4. Try out bungee jumping/parachuting
5. Let my parents live a good life
6. Get married and have kids
7. Live life to the fullest =)

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO
1. taking photos but not quality photos, it's more like I will always have a camera with me wherever I go kinda thing.
2. good sense of direction =D
3. laugh for a long time without making a single sound
4. organise outings. LOL!
5. sit in front of the TV for hours
6. continue talking nonsensical stuffs when I'm tired
7. cycle from East Coast Park to Aloha! Changi. =D

(I realise I can't do a lot of stuffs. LOL! Took me a long time to come up with 7 stuffs I can do. I suck man. =D)

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T DO
1. dance (Yes, I actually wrote this same exact thing in sec 2)
2. pass sit and reach with ease
3. jump far
4. singing properly HAHA!
5. eat alone outside
6. study for a long time
7. skipping rope (This one is really epic fail but oh well, heck it. =D)

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT ME TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
1. personality
2. sincerity
3. good sense of humour
4. comfortable to be around with
5. gentleman
6. height and appearance
7. smartness

SEVEN THINGS I LOVE TO SAY THE MOST
1. You got no life
2. annoying
3. Loser
4. You suck
5. Shut up
6. crap
7. damn

(Lol. I realise they are all not nice words. I'm quite a mean person. Haha! But ok, I only say them to my close friends. =D Yep, I so pity them. Maybe I should start saying more kind words now. HAHA! I bet they will puke when I actually say nice stuffs to them.)

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES
(Ok, more of favourites not crushes 'cause yea, I'm a realistic girl that know that it's impossible. Haha!)
1. Lee Hyuk Jae (Eunhyuk)!!! =D
2. Lee Seung Gi!! =D
3. Song Joong Ki!! =D
4. Kris Allen!
5. George Clooney!
6. Josh Duhamel!
7. Ryan Reynolds!

*Ok I like 5 other Super Junior members as well, Wooyoung, T.O.P., Onew, Yoseob, Hyun Bin (Ok fine, a lot of other Korean singers and actors. And there are some other US and HK actors that I like also!! But I can't think of them right now. LOL. Funny how there used to be no celeb crushes the last time I did this. Haha!)

HAHA! It's so fun to do these kind of quizzes. =D Though some parts got stuck but it's still fun. Haha! =D

Alright! I'll post more later when I have some photos! =D

increase beat, slow down, full speed ahead

I want to go to somewhere that has such a long road. Changi Airport! I really feel like going to a lot of places to take photos! There are cool places in Singapore too. Just that we really have to explore. Ah, I really wish that I can learn driving soon and hopefully get the car to drive when my parents aren't in Singapore. Haha! Then I'll go to all these cool random places.

Funny how your heart reacts to all sorts of things. You can really feel the changes to it when it increases speed. Like woah, it just beats faster all of a sudden. And you don't know why too. The heart, is scary. But it's awesome 'cause it lets us love. Yet, it confuses you too. Especially when your mind and you heart don't collide. Your mind thinks a way, yet your heart tells you something else. It's quite tiring. But at least you know that your heart isn't dead. That it is still capable of feeling.

Haha! I'm so lacking the inspiration to blog about nice stuffs. Life has been pretty much the same. But yep, school is really not as bad sometimes with those pple that I hang out with in school. They are quite joke pple. So glad to have them in my class! They are really pple that can still make me laugh like crazy. They bully me like crap lar. Tsk.

OH OH! I'm looking forward to my sister's return from Korea! Haha! She said she brought a lot of stuffs for me. Hehe. =D I love my sister! Haha! Ok but yep, I really do miss her. 6 freaking weeks without her around you know. It's like freaking long. Suddenly, I really wonder how will life be like in the future without my sister, or my parents. Like when you move out of house and all. Lol. It will be really weird. It will be really weird when my sister moves out and I have the room to myself. Like really to myself. OK, actually I don't mind since I'll have a ton of space. =D But yep, it will be super strange. You are really alone in the room. But, if my sister moves out, it means most likely that she's married. =D Haha! It's seriously funny how this little annoying sister is more paranoid about my sister's future than she is. I'm a nice little sister that wants my sister to be happy and find someone to share her happiness with. She seriously deserves someone good to take care of her. Annoying independent woman. Lol. I bet if she reads all these, she will totally kill me man.

Just stalked her on Facebook! Ah, I'm really jealous of her being able to go all these places. It's seriously freaking cool. Her photos kinda suck though. =D Okok, she really has the eye for things but she's just lazy to do it. Tsk. Like seriously man, you should hear her critic my photos. When I need to choose photos for some photog stuffs, I'll always ask her. And her comments are really scary. LOL. Critic to the max man. But ok, it's for my own good. =D Ah, miss her. She's coming back in few more days! Then my parents are going Alaska. =( Freaking hell jealous lar! My family seriously. How annoying.

I want to spam my Holga! See how the colour film roll looks like. I hope it will be nice though. Quite disappointed with the B&W film but I think it's ok since the film was $2 so yep! Haha! Not wasted. Just that yep, a bit sian lar but oh well. I hope the colour one will be nice! I want June holidays again! Then can take with the colour film roll. =D

Ohya! Went to Jurong Safara for LAN yesterday with a bunch of guys and Feli! Lol. We were the only 2 girls playing in the whole place. Plus Feli came late. But oh well, it was still fun! =D Super long never play L4D already! But L4D2 is really more fun than L4D. I die freaking easily at L4D. Being zombie is still seriously more fun. I managed to kill Haziq and annoy Sweden. =D Haha! Ah, feel like going there to play again. Haha! Somehow, we just managed to spend 2 hours plus there. Time passed by really fast. And yes! Miss how we used to go over there after school, especially like after exams all since our school is pretty near there. Ah! I want to go Sakae suddenly. =\ Seriously don't like how we got not much free time now. I want to go Sakae, Kbox, L4D and badminton! Badminton is good since we get to exercise too. But yes, freaking time. I will go spam Kbox during the Dec holidays if I can since I've got the Kalah card!

Alright, I have spend a good amount of time on the com. Got a lot of nice new songs again! Haha! Time to study mad for the next few hours! I hope I can though.

I'm not really supposed to be posting now but got this urge. Hmm.. I love my house. Haha! The view from the kitchen is really awesome at times. When you look up to the sky at night or during evening time, there is just this calmness that makes you feel that everything's going to be alright. And you can see a lot of different clouds shape. It's really a wonder.

A lot of thoughts are running through my head so it's quite hard to type them all out. I really hate time? Time really flies when you are happy and enjoying your time. It's really fast and you really hope for it to stop but it just doesn't.

Songs are really awesome way to cheer you up too. It just makes you happy somehow. Haha! Makes you calm down. Whenever I'm about to freak out and panic, I'll listen to songs to calm me down and it really works.

I really miss the times when I get to do a lot more stuffs. Hmm.. I think I've really slack too much this year already. That's why I keep feeling that I'm running out of time. I won't start whining and scolding myself again 'cause yep no use seriously.

I'll just off my com now and get what I need to get done (OCIP Personal Statement) before I sleep today! Ah, still have to read my awesomely thick history notes.

But, I'm happy that I got to meet Faeqa yesterday and Sijia today!! Haha! Sijia!! Miss this crazy blur girl. She never fails to make me laugh lar! And the thing is she really does it without knowing. Haha! Blur girl. =D Super don't like how we all have different schedules! Cannot meet up often and all. Quite irritating.

Crap, I'm feeling hungry now.

If we are in the same sch, we'll totally drive each other mad everyday.

I really like this photo 'cause we all smiled with teeth. HAHA! I don't know why but yep, I really like it when our teeth are seen in the smile. It looks nicer somehow. =D

So yes!! Went to watch Harry Potter with these pple in the photo here! Except that Faeqa and Enming didn't watch the movie.

We are the best I swear. I sms-ed them to meet at 10.30am at Phoenix LRT. By 11.20am we then board the bus to travel to Plaza Singapura. We rock totally. And the best thing is that the movie starts at 11.45am! LOL. We are awesome. But ok, the best part is that when we entered the theater, the movie was just starting!! So we didn't miss anything at all. =D Except Kenneth who came later. But yep! Didn't miss much! And Swap, Feli and I managed to finish a large popcorn by ourselves! HAHA! Awesome. =D

The movie was nice!! I think it was good ba! I kinda like it. =D It's not like the best but it's seriously quite nice! The part that was the most sad is when Fred died and Tonks and Lupin died!! That part's really super sad. Got some funny parts too. HAHA! Voldemort's face is the best man. Like seriously. =D And the 19 years later part is just plain hilarious. Haha!

It was a nice ending! 8 movies of Harry Potter! Can't believe it just ended. And the cool thing is that we are really the ones that grew up with Harry Potter! Cool shit. =D

So yep, after movie, we went to find a place for lunch. And of course, as the normal us, we took ages to decide on a place and to actually find a place since we are rather big group of pple. Had the stand-at-a-corner-to-decide-on-a-place-to-eat-but-ended-up-talking-crap as well. =D We are the best at that. And then we went into Talisman. Haha! And went to see nice necklaces! Feli and I brought necklaces! =D I haven't really take photo of it yet but there will be opportunities 'cause I'll wear it! =D Wanted a camera one but I figured I'll look like an idiot wearing a camera necklace, with a real camera slinging around my neck so yep, decided to buy the one that Feli said was nice. =D And ah of course, Guodong and Kenneth totally wanted to kill us.

Managed to find seats at KFC after super long! 'Cause of me man! I saw the seats from outside then I put my bag. There was this group of pple that wanted to sit there but 'cause I put my bag there so yep. Opps but oh well, I sound quite kiasu but whatever, it's for the benefit of everyone. =D

Faeqa came and joined us! Had lunch then we decided to go to the railway tracks! Ok, they were rather lazy to go. Tsk. But managed to just get them to go. Haha! When we reached the bus stop, Swap realised that she lost her wallet. Always one lar she. Like must really remind her every time we leave a place. So Swap, Feli and I went back to KFC to get her wallet. She is super lucky lar!! Found it quite quickly. =D

OHYA!! On the way back, at this traffic light place I decided to take photo of the MacDonald House since well, I had a camera in my hands. Then there's this weird creepy man standing from a far pointing towards me and asking me to go over. I think he was pointing to me? But yes omg, I got so freaked out lar. It's really scary you know. Like that man looks really woah. Freakish. We quickly crossed the road then I just never turned back at all. Scary shit. Camera is a scary thing sometimes.

Anyway so yep, went to get cake for Weiying and Enming! Hid them inside Swap's mighty bag. Haha! Went back to the bus stop to meet up with the rest. We boarded the bus and yep! Got cool seats that fitted all of us! =D Plus a HC girl. LOL. And the best part is that Kenneth was sitting beside her. Haha! Freaking hilarious I tell you.

So yep, as usual, made hell lot of a noise on the bus. I swear we are really public nuisances wherever we go. Somehow, we can just make a lot of noise. I think it's Faeqa's and Feli's voices that made it like super duper loud and noisy. I mean seriously. Their voices are like woah individually, so imagine it combined.

I suddenly thought of taking videos 'cause I realise taking videos are so fun. LOL! That day I was looking at all the videos in my phone and I really laughed mad. =D So yep, started to take videos! Haven't look at them yet but I bet I'll laugh like crazy. We were really mad. Ya! It's here that we realise how we will really drive each other mad if we were all in the same school. Haha! But oh man, school will really be freaking awesome if we were all actually in the same school. We can go school together! Haha! And ya, we will really drive each other mad. Haha! But oh well, we are still as awesome as ever whenever we meet up. =D

Got down the bus! Nearly missed it 'cause I also don't know how. But yep, the bus drive let us off. I got a feeling he was just dying to get rid of us noisy pple. I think we were really making hell lot of noise on the bus man. Win. =D

Walked to the railway tracks! =D There were like freaking lot of pple there. Quite sian 'cause we wanted to take like a lot of photos but since there were so many pple, it wasn't easy. Lol. But yep! We spammed a lot nonetheless. =D


I like this photo! It's actually quite cool. Haha! Ok, if they were more willing to like pose for me. Haha! I wanted to post a lot of photos but I don't have the patience so oh well, just see from Facebook! =) But yep! We took photos but not artistic ones 'cause I think we just don't give the artistic feel. Haha! And ok fine, I am a lousy photographer that couldn't think of cool nice angle. I think it's 'cause there was a lot of pple there too. So yea, cannot spam as much crazy stuffs. Plus, I should have been crazy and just bring along a tripod 'cause it's so much easier to take like group photo or something. But oh well, the photos aren't that bad! =D

And ya! Kenneth began his story telling thing and all. LOL. Don't know what happened to his brain that day. I think he wanted to study too much so he started thinking of all those math stuffs and more. Swapna was the only one that actually entertained him. HAHA!

We waited for Enming for a while 'cause Guodong gave him the wrong directions. Awesome rite? Tsk. So yep, walked to the other side of the bridge and took more photos! We sang birthday song for Weiying and Enming! =D Crap, we didn't take photos of the cakes. Oh well, I hope they are nice to eat too. =D

This is a super nice photo! The angle is ok, Kenneth's idea. Yes I know I suck. There was one angle that was quite cool too, just that cannot see everyone. Tripod!! Should have really brought it. But yes! This photo is nice but Feli spoilt the photo! Dunno why she close her eyes also. Tsk.


Yay! I like this too! I took one with the Holga as well! Hope it will turn out awesome on the Holga too! Ohya!! I'm getting my B&W film roll photos tmr too! Hope they are good! =D Quite excited for them. Haha! That's the nice thing about film I guess. You will feel excited when you are abt to see the photos you have taken 'cause you really cannot see them again until after they are developed! I'm really loving film cameras now. =D Just that for Holga, it needs to be taken outdoor so quite sian but oh well! I might invest of flash after I use more of it! I want to see the colour effect of the Holga! Ah! Feel like going out and spam it someday. =D

HAHA! I love this! They look so cute sitting there. Haha! But yea, they were all pissed. You can actually tell from the photo. But they really look cute sitting there like that. HAHA! =D

I'm getting better at cam-whoring! Haha! It fits 5 pple now. Can actually fit more if we try. =D Though I don't have super duper long arm. But yep, proud of myself! =D

Hard to believe, but I actually kinda miss them a bit already. LOL. Like Weiying said before, meeting these pple is addictive. Haha! You really won't get sick of them. But the sad thing is that we are all horribly busy pple in different schools all around Singapore. At least we all live around the same area except Jiamin! She's really far from us. I want to go to her new house though she live there for awhile already. Haha! Hope we can go there maybe in December? =D

We have to start mugging too! Haha! I can ask these smart geniuses out and bug them for Econs and Math though ok, we all sucked at Econs. I realise I have really smart friends. LOL. All from crazy schools. HAHA! We are all from RJ! =D

Haha! I shall go look at the 2 videos! I think I'll really laugh until I cry or something. When you are in a crazy mood, take out your handphone, and record a video. It will be totally worth it. =D

I hope some of the railway tracks will still be there! I still want to take more photos. =\ Seriously man, I only thought of ideas of artistic photos after we went there. Ah, I'm the best.

Oh well, there are still other places in Singapore for us to discover. As long as the people you go wherever places are awesome, it's all that matters. =)

Ohya, and lol. Jiamin is the tallest amongst us all that day. =D Ok, I don't think Enming is taller. But I know that I am rank 3rd, tied with Swap and Guodong in terms of height ranking. HAHA! Ah, I'm such an awesome friend. =D

when stuck;

You can't deny that we used to be super duper cute! Haha! Can't believe my sis and I actually listened to my dad and did something so ridiculous at US. Haha! I think we were at Disney World, Florida! I guess I'm a pretty lucky kid. =D Get to go US at such young age. I want to go again!! Take awesome photos. Haha!

I miss my sister! She called back just now and we talked for quite a while. I guess it was a good thing that she didn't go overseas study 'cause I think I'll really miss her like crap. Haha! But yep, I really hope she's alright there! Want her back soon! She said she got quite a lot of stuffs to say abt the trip. LOL. Plus I want the things that she brought. Haha! But yea! Really hope she's alright there! She's an awesome sister. =)

If you’re stuck between two options, flip a coin. It works, not because it solves your problem but while the coin is in the air, you’ll know what your heart is really hoping for.

You know then what you actually wanted have been deep down inside your heart all along. Deliberating on decisions are just excuses you give yourself so that you can be sure that you are making the right decision, even though you actually decided what you wanted inside your heart. Why do people like to do such things and make themselves all confused? I'll never figure it out. I guess it's just the affirmation that you are actually making the right decision?

Whatever it is, making decisions are hard but life is simply too short for you not to just quickly decide on something. Be more decisive! And just believe that your choice is right because it is, even though it may not seem like it for awhile.

Iridescent - Linkin Park

[ Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go, let it go ]

Iridescent - Linkin Park

Went to watch Transformers today! It was a rather rushed out movie outing but yep! At least I finally watched Transformers! =D I think it was quite nice!! A bit long but it wasn't draggy. =D And yea, Josh Duhamel! Haha! Okok, the show really was not bad I think. =D The Autobots are really cool and the cars they transformed from are super cool! Haha! But yep! Transformers was good!

I like the OST! I thought it was super awesome at first but then I realise it's just a few songs. Haha! Linkin Park is really good. =D Love the lyrics. Went on downloading songs spree just now. =D Quite shuang 'cause yep! Got a lot of new songs now! LOL. I realise I really got a lot of new songs now. Haha! But yep, music really calms the soul and some songs can really cheer you up! =D

Alright, don't have much to post now. Haha! Ohya! Yesterday was Photog Farewell for the J2 Seniors! I guess it was some what not bad? Attendance for the J2 were awesome. The J1s attendance is super sad though. Gah. I really hope that more J1s will turn up for photog more often! It's really quite sad seeing so little attendance and all. But yep! I hope the J2s had fun! Took photog at the CPA after that. Haha! It was quite funny!

Went to meet up with pple for dinner! Actually travelled to Lakeside to meet Nisa then travelled back to Clementi to have dinner with Jiesi, Junyuan, Felicia, Yingkiat and Darren! Though they all ate already. LOL. Slacked awhile and yep, had a nice time catching up with them. They are really the pple that are just awesome to hang out with. OK, all the 4E1 AC pple! Haha! The awesome pple that make me want to go school. If they aren't around in AC, I really won't feel like going school. Super nice to meet them sometimes during breaks or change over of classes, then just talk crap and all. Seriously the pple that I can just talk random stuffs. And yep, Swapna and Jiawan! Haha! Ok, Got a strong feeling I mention all these before but whatever, they are all really awesome pple. =D

Sweden came over after that. Junyuan and I were saying how we didn't know he was coming, we didn't bother asking, but then we know that he would appear eventually. HAHA! We were expecting him to come though we didn't knew that he was coming. Freaking funny lar. Ah, really miss talking and hanging out with all of them. I can really talk whatever nonsense that was in my brain at that moment. LOL. Like no need to filter that it's nonsense and I shouldn't say it out that kinda thing. I just say what I want, do what I want. Get scolded all but I don't care. =D

I want go back for HOPE also!! Vivian and Ceksin! And SIJIA!! Wanted to meet her yesterday one but she couldn't go for dinner! Super sian. I want to eat ice cream with them soon too! Lol. In the missing pple mood again. Haha! But yep, the cool thing is that I know that once I meet up with them, everything will still feel super nice. =D

Haha! I shall go read the letters from last year graduation! =D Let go of all the frustrations with JC life and studies! Let it go. =) LINKIN PARK'S SONGS! =D

smallest things that make you happy without you realising

I WANT TO GO ALL THESE PLACES. And more. Seriously, I have the urge to just leave with my camera, my passport and of course money or credit card (which I don't have, so I'll most likely get my mum's =D) and just go travelling around the world. I really want to do that. There are so many things I want to see, so many places I want to visit, so many stuffs I want to do, experiences I want to experience. And take awesome awesome photos of. It will really be the life if I get to do that.

Hmm.. I was feeling rather normal when I wanted to post, as in yep, like some what happy but not really also. OK, just the neutral feeling. But then I suddenly thought of my terms and I felt like crap. Okok, let's not talk about terms. Screw it seriously.

I realise yea, it's really a wonder how the smallest and little things can actually make you feel happy. Your whole mood just changes when they happened. It's weird but yea, it really just changes your mood. How something so small and rather insignificant can make you happy. And how other stuffs that are also small and rather insignificant can change your mood for the worse as well. How people around you can really affect you in ways that you are somewhat out of control of. It's not as if you want to be in a bad mood; it just happens without you knowing. But of course, good mood is good, so I totally welcome that. =D

I feel that my mood is scary lately. Like I get all sorts of feelings at the same time and I don't know, it's just woah. Like overload kinda thing. And last year, I only got this kind of feelings during certain "peak" periods like exams or cca or class stuffs. Now, it's quite often. Ok, maybe 'cause there studies, cca and all happening. But yep, it's really this mixture of feelings that I really don't like. You'll feel happy for awhile then suddenly feel like crap after that. Like mood swings but not that bad. LOL. Ok fine, it's mood swings but it doesn't affect other pple, it just affects internally, which sucks.

But yep! Things that make you happy really are nice stuffs. It changes your whole mood and make you feel really happy even though you have no idea why such small things can make you so happy, but it's a super nice feeling. =D I'm one person that need happiness in my life often. Haha!

Anyway, met up with Weiying today 'cause she wanted to pass me a roll of film!! =D Yea! Love her! Got that roll for $5. I realise film rolls are really expensive. I really should have brought more last time! And ah!! I really want to see my black and white film shots now!! Sucks that it has to be so long. =( But yep! Hope it's nice! I want to try my coloured film soon! I've got 2 rolls now. Haha! Weiying lar! Making me love film cameras more! It's really fun to take photos using film. You really don't know how the photo will turn out until after the whole roll finishes. Looking forward to the photos! =D

Saw Swap queuing up for Gong Cha! Haha! It's so funny 'cause both of us started laughing when we saw her. It's just comic I don't know why. =D Ohya! Met up with Faeqa yesterday too! Super last minute decision but yep. =D And I went to get cake for my dad and Jiesi! Dropped by Jiesi's house to give her. I am so nice. =D

Tuesday after school went to Bugis to get Jiesi's present with Agents minus Junyuan 'cause he forgot. Tsk. Supposed to get Jiesi's present but they are all just awesome Agents lar. Tsk. Wasted my time but oh well, got to catch up with them I guess though I see Felicia freaking freaking too much often. And Sweden pretty much too since yea, it's just like that. Haha! So it's just Brendan. The loser that slept on his injured finger and had to restitch it. Ok, it's really pain and all but yep, still. Junyuan is like the best lar. Totally forgot. But he had to do some other stuffs too so fine. Ah, I really miss all 5 of us going out. June holidays we never really went out. We just had like dinner at Jurong. LOL. All our schedules suck.

I feel like going back Fuhua for fun!! Ah, damn sian that both photog and HOPE had to be on Friday. If they were on different days, I can go for both! I really feel like going back Fuhua someday. Missed that place. And I kinda want to see AVA too. Really really hope that things aren't screwed up.

Hmm alright! I'm just posting 'cause I have the urge to and since I'm kinda free though yes, I should be practicing maths. I really must do well for it! I want my A back for math, and yea, I really want better grades for other subjects too. Terms was just horrible but I'll promise myself to do better for Promos. No, MUST DO BETTER FOR PROMOS!

suck it up

Crap. Feeling this same old shit feeling every time the day before school reopens and I end up not completing hell lot of stuffs. How how tell me how. Ah.. Seriously, I hate time. I really really don't get how I'll always run out of time when I thought I had a lot of time. It just sucks. I really don't like this feeling but I always feel it every time the day before I had school after a break. And it just sucks.

I really waste my time too freaking easily. Why is there so many freaking hell stuffs around to distract me? And my concentration level is so freaking low. Hmm.. I think I need deadlines in my life. Then I'll really work towards them and not slack so much. But personal deadlines don't work on me. I got no self-discipline. Nothing at all man. Freaking horrible.

But ok, I think I really need to get hold of myself and really force myself to start doing stuffs and not just slack away, enjoying life. I'm not privileged enough to be enjoying life and not care a thing of the world. Even if I'm privileged, that's not how we should live life too. Wasting time of freaking useless stuffs. If I'm privileged, I'll travel, and take photos and really focus on photography. But then again, I'm not. So I freaking hell shouldn't waste more time on useless stuffs. Ah. Typing this post is kinda wasting time too. But I really need to vent out somewhere.

OK, THIS SEMESTER WILL BE HELL, I CAN FEEL IT COMING ALREADY. But yep, I must continue on and I know I will be able to. Just that I really got to stop procastinating, and stop looking at useless stuffs as if you have a whole lot of time on your hands, 'cause you freaking hell don't. Time will flash by and you will be taking your A levels freaking soon. And by then, if you regret, it's really too freaking late. So yep, get you head in check and stop wasting time. And just focus. I really need to focus and get my freaking tutorials done and read up before lectures. It's going to be hell but I've got to endure through it.

Alright, I think I'm going to sleep first. Screw EoM, I'll get it done tomorrow. My mind isn't right for that now. And yes, please get it done tomorrow 'cause you owe this thing for freaking long already and if you continue to delay, it's your own freaking fault if you don't get the A that you want.

Ah, I really need to take some chill pill. LOL. I really feel more angst this year. It's not nice being so freaking angst. It just ruins your own mood. I want to go insane laughing. Like seriously man. Last year, everyday when I went to school, something would just make me happy. Or at least make me laugh or I don't know. Like everyday, I would look forward to school. Genuinely like going to school. Maybe not days where there are tests and all but somehow, I would still have this drive to go to school 'cause I knew I would be seeing pple that I like and these pple would make me happy in the smallest of ways, make me laugh crazy and mad. And just make me enjoy school. Sucks how these pple are no longer around. True, Feli is still in the same class but it's not as if we have all our classes together. We only had Geog, GP, PE and PW together. Not even math. The friends I hang out with are really awesome, but somehow yea, they don't make me want to go to school. LOL. They are really nice pple, but hmm.. ok they are just not 4E1. Haha! Ah, miss the class. I know I shouldn't keep missing them all but yep, can't help it when they are really such freaking hell awesome pple and together as a class, we are just the best.

Hmm.. Guess this is just life? You can't always have something forever. Life's like that so suck it up! I still have a great family, friends that might not always be there physically but they will always be there when you need them. Ah, ok, let's just think all happy thoughts to cheer yourself up. Life really is good, not the best but who's to say whether it's the best? You are to say. So if you say it's the best, it will be the best. There are times you feel tired and freaking hell want to give up everything and just stop doing stuffs and just relax and whatever, but just strive on and you will get through them. Whatever shit and crap they are. Time is the most annoying thing ever but just hold on to whatever time you have and live a good live. Enjoy every minute as much as you can, even though you don't feel yourself enjoying. Lol. Just yea, I think this whole blog post is contradictory but whatever, my brain works like that. Confusing the shit out of me but it's my brain so I'll live with it.

Being an Ice-Cream in the previous life seems like a better option now. Though I'll melt all but ok whatever. I'm getting tired 'cause all the nonsense crap and talking too much is starting to come out already. I can feel it. Still have quite a lot of stuffs to do so yep, my life is awesome. And I kinda don't feel like stopping this post 'cause I know I'll have to start doing other stuffs once I stop posting.

OK. STOP RUNNING AWAY ALREADY, YAP YI FANG. Get your butt off the seat and get going on doing all the stuffs and sleep soon so that you'll have the energy for freaking school tmr!

(This is a pure ranting post so if it doesn't make sense, don't try to make sense out of it 'cause you won't. Like seriously won't. And since I'm tired now, it just really won't. OK, gosh, I really got to STOP TYPING!)