to the people who are worth all the time and effort

Lol! This sudden thought just came to my head. And I think it's secretly true? HAHA! Even though yes, I really do plan things for people and text people wishes and stuffs from the bottom of my heart, like I really do it because I want to. But I think part of me secretly likes to do it because I want people to see the effort I put in? Ok I don't know. It sounds quite bad since I'm doing it for the recognition. But hmm.. Ok, maybe not? HAHA! There were days when I just suddenly feel like I'm living my life for others because no one else bother to take the initiative to plan for meet ups. They want to see everyone but no one bothers to do anything. So they will tell me to plan.

But I guess the difference is that I still want to plan because I too want to meet everyone. And that I know that if I don't plan, no one else will. And at the end of the day, all these planning nonsense may be very tiring but on the day when you meet up with everyone, you will realise that all that planning is worth it somehow? Yes, it may not be a perfect outing, we may not always have fun and stuffs. But it's still nice to meet up and see everyone and just enjoy each others' company. And that alone, makes all the planning so much worthwhile.

I guess, it's also the people who I plan stuffs for? They bother to make the effort to come and stuffs. Of course not everyone but yes, those who truly matters. And once in awhile, someone will thank you for all the planning and it just makes you happy. Heh. And I guess yes, the happiness is actually not 'cause someone recognise your efforts in planning but just how people do appreciate it and wants you to know that all the planning is really worth it at the end of the day.

Yes, it can get tiring and annoying and everything. But I know it's worth it because they are all worth it. But of course, I won't mind if people offer to help in the planning. Heh. Which ok, I usually get at least someone to help me if not it will really be too much. And of course the people who I rant to like mad when things aren't exactly smooth in the planning. Heh.

And ok, I guess I should just admit that I secretly like people recognising my effort. Lol! But ok lar, as humans, it's only natural for us to want that right? All my justifications. Haha! And ok, the people who I plan stuffs for, they do thank me once in awhile for planning things and yes, that's when I realise that people really do appreciate that effort you put in to plan all these and it just makes you feel that all the time spent on planning is actually very worth it. SO YES!!! I will continue to plan for gatherings and meet ups, send long texts to people on birthdays and yep! Because at the end of the day, I know that everything that I do will be worth it.

Of course, to the people who I plan stuffs for, it will be greatly appreciated to reply when the message says so. And that alone will make me happy already. =D

Because you fight for your soul mates.

- Crazy, Stupid, Love

I have so many things I want to say but I don't really know where to start. Lol! Had been meeting up with many people for the past few days and it really felt nice. =) I shall post about those when I feel like it. Haha! I don't feel like posting about those meet ups now.

But yes, I guess, I'm really lucky? Lol! Ok maybe not lucky but I make good choices? Haha! In almost everything? And ok, I'm really contented with my life now. Except the future I guess. Lol. As in yea, what lies before me. 2012 is really ending pretty soon. I know it is ending in a good note. But I really wonder what 2013 will bring to me? It's the unsure feeling I guess. But I think it happens when you graduate from a school. Especially when you just finished your 12 years of formal schooling. I guess the lost feeling is inevitable.

It's really going to be a whole new journey, a whole new path. I am not sure where my path will lead me to. But I really hope that I will enjoy this route. Yes, I may fall along the way but I must learn to get back up and continue on this route. And if there are other routes that may be better, I guess I must really be brave enough to take on new routes and not sticking on the old and save one which may lead me to no where.

I'm not sure if I'm making sense in my previous paragraph but I guess I'm just scared and worried about my future? I know I shouldn't be and I should live life on a daily basis. But you really can't help wondering what the future will hold for you.

And yes, fight for your soul mates. How do you know if you have found your soul mate though? As in yea, it's something that I have been wondering quite recently. Haha! Ok maybe ever since I watched the movie, Crazy, Stupid, Love. In the great sea of people, how do you know who are your soul mates? It's not something that can be taught, right? So you are just supposed to know whether a person is your soul mate? Hmmm.. I guess sometimes, you will really just know it. Deep down inside your heart, you know it. As of now, I shall just wait for the day when I'm sure whether someone is my soul mate. HAHA! I'm still young so yep, I have time. Haha!

Relationships in all forms can be fragile. It's something that I realise this year. Ok, something that I guess I knew all along but really realise it only this year. I'm pretty much still glad that I manage to hold on to the ones who are important. I'm not sure if I'm doing a good job at it though. I realise, I am really a greedy person. I kinda want to much of everyone? But there is limited time I have and it's not exactly possible to make time for every single person. But I still want to. Hence, I think I'm too greedy. Sigh.

AND GAHHHH I think I'm having PMS or something. It's like all these weird emotions from I don't know where. The smallest thing can just make me feel annoyed. I pity my parents but really, I can't help feeling annoyed. Ok, maybe I should really just sleep.

people

Sometimes, you really wonder if you have made an impact on the people around you. And it's always nice when you realise, you really do matter to them. That somehow, even though you thought you were insignificant in their lives, you are actually important to them.  That you do make a difference in their lives in some ways, even if it may not be a very huge difference but it's still something. That you do make an impact in their lives.

I realise people are really important. Lol! Ok, I'm saying an obvious thing but yea. I realise I'm someone who kinda needs people around me? I can stand being alone for awhile but not for long. Ok actually, I don't really know. Haha! I like to be alone sometimes. But there are times when I really like being around people. As in people who I care about. Just hearing them talk and laugh and I don't know, there's just this comfort? Like even if you don't talk much but just seeing them talk makes you feel happy? Haha! Ok, this sounds funny but it's really true ma. It's fun to not talk and see your friends talking all. =D

And it's really nice to observe people. Lol! During this trip to China, I was strolling along this river place in Hangzhou known as Xi Hu. It's super pretty and I was strolling alone 'cause my parents had stuffs on and I would rather stroll alone there instead of accompany them. Heh. Yes, I was quite sad that my sister didn't go on the trip with me 'cause I don't have my trusted companion. Haha! But actually, strolling along the river alone is really quite nice 'cause you really get to think and just enjoy time with yourself and look at the people around you.

So there was this group of elderly dancing at this area along the river. I decided to sit down and watch them dance and it felt so nice. How they look so carefree and really enjoying themselves. And how some elderly slowly joined in in the dancing. And you can tell that they are really having fun. Just dancing and having fun. And I think they do this daily? Or maybe it's different groups of people. Haha! But it's really nice to watch them dance. And how happy they look. Simple life.

I realise that when we are young, we are really almost always in a rush, wanting to do everything fast, wanting to do many things and rushing everything, running on an adrenaline. I felt that after As ended. Heck it, I felt it during As. Lol! Just that after As ended, it was the adrenaline to do many fun things I wanted to do. And I knew that I was slowly burning out so luckily for the trip to China to slow down my pace. But I can feel the adrenaline again. It kinda feels good sometimes? Lol! Like you are completing a lot of things in a day. Just that I think we must be careful not to burn out and make ourselves very very tired. Because we can't really enjoy as much if we are tired. And you may fall sick also.

Ever since I came back from China, I had been on a rush. Ok today is just the 3rd day back in SG but I haven't had a proper rest until today. Lol! 21st and 22nd I went out. Luckily, I stayed home today. Haha! And it feels so nice to stay home sometimes. Doing all the random stuffs. =D

OHYA!! Hahahaha I shall post them on another post next time! I made my own shoes yesterday with Weiying, Swap and Faeqa~ Just that they kinda helped me with my shoes a lot. Heh. I'll post the photos next time. =D

So yes, people. Haha! I'm glad that I have people around me who matter a lot to me and I know that I do matter to them too. Heh. Hence, I like birthdays 'cause it's only during birthdays that people will tell you that you are important to them. HAHA! And only during birthdays you will tell them that they are important to you too. Haha! Ok lar, I try my best to show my appreciation to people around me sometimes. Lol! But I think it's more fun to insult each other than to praise each other and it's more fun to laugh at each other than show love to each other. =D It's weird but that's how I was taught since young and I think it works well for me. =D

I mean yea lar, my friends know that I love them even though I don't tell them often. They know that when I laugh at them, I'm not mocking them but it's 'cause I know that they won't take it to the heart. =D They aren't petty~ Even if they are, they get back at me anyway so it's all fair and square. Haha!

I was saving photos from Facebook this aftnoon and wahh the photos are really funny. Heh. That's why I love photos. They make you smile crazy and laugh like mad when you look at them. I still have a lot more photos to save but ok, I have time I guess. Haha!

2012 is ending soon. And I think that it will end on a good note even though it started off in a rough note. For me at least. So much things happened this year. I went through tough times but I managed to get through them all. Learning to handle situations better. And knowing the people who are just simply great.

And yea, sometimes, you really wonder if you mattered to people. Whether your presence makes a difference. And then you realise that it does in some ways or another. Because we are all born to make a difference in others' life. As long as we are people, we affect each other. Even people who you may not know personally. That's one of the coolest thing I think. How everyone do affect the world in some ways, be it small or big. Everyone matters in this world. As long as you are alive, you matter. Even those people who passed on do matter to the people who are still alive.

People around you are your strength so draw energy from them when you feel tired. Because they will be there for you when you need them to. And be there for them too, because they need you to be there for them as well.

wonders

[ This is a state of grace  
This is a worth while fight  
Love is a ruthless game  
Unless you play it good and right ]

State of Grace - Taylor Swift

I was thinking abut what today felt like and I realise for me, today feels like a dream. Everything that happened today seems somewhat surreal? Like I'm not sure I'm actually dreaming or it's real. Maybe I have yet to have a proper rest after my 10 days trip to China. Lol! I just got back at around 12midnight today and slept at 3plus but managed to somehow wake up at 9plus in the morning. Yep, I think my body clock is kinda weird. Haha! But ok lar, I did slept on the plane back.

Anyway, today I met up with 2 very important friends in my life. One I knew all along how important the person is, the other was kinda a new revelation. Haha! Or rather, I knew the importance of the person but I didn't really knew that I was important to the person too. So yep, today was a surreal day. Haha! It feels very light and not real? Lol! Maybe I really haven't wake up yet. Haha!

And it's really funny how something I have been pondering about for so many times came out to be something so simple and easy that I really wonder why did I put in so much energy in pondering. Haha! Life is really a wonder I guess. You really don't know what to expect and sometimes, you just have to go with your gut feeling and just do it. Because really, things may surprise you so much.

I have been saying this for awhile. About taking chances and how people really just surprise you. So yep, for once, I finally listened to myself and took a chance. And I'm really really glad I did. Haha! Kinda wished that I had taken the chance earlier but I guess there's a reason why I waited until now to take the chance.

Wahh I really feel so relieved. I'm really glad that I really finally concluded things. I finally got an answer after so long. Lol! And this year, year 2012, so much has happened. I think I'm going to read through my archives for this year later. Lol! Too many things happened. I'm glad for every single one of them because each taught me a lot of things. Everything that happened let me know something more about myself and the people around me, about the people who truly matters. People who simply leave a huge impact on your life and you know it.

And haha! So the world is supposed to end today. Lol! I think today really enlarges the future instead of ending it. Rebirth in a way. Haha! Like what people said. I'm just glad and thankful for today. Haha! It really feels like a dream but I pinched myself to check and it was pain. Maybe I just need to rest more. Lol!

Anyway, I'll post about my trip more next time! Haha! Which I think I'll end up not posting again. Heh. Maybe photos. But China really is full of scenery lar. Lol! Not that I'm complaining. =D

As the year comes to a close, you tend to look back at the year and what happened in the year. Year 2012. It's a year full of stuffs. Lol! Really many things happened. Good, bad, whatever. I'm glad that this is the year that I really realise who are the friends who mattered. I mean yea, I knew who they are all along. It's just how all the many events this year made me realise the importance of them.

Lol. I went to read my archives and I realise I always talk about this when the year comes to an end. HAHA! You tend to me more sentimental towards the end of the year. It's like one freaking year just passed by.

Seven accomplishments you want to achieve soon
1. Run a marathon
2. Learn how to drive
3. Do well for 'A' Levels
4. Reverse Bungee!
5. Learn to cook from my grandmother
6. Travel with friends
7. Go USS!!!!

This was from some 10 days thing that I did last year.  So far, I can cross out 2,4,6 and 7. Ok I didn't do reverse bungee but the GMAX Extreme Swing thing is close enough. =D I really really hope that I can cross out the other 3 too. Run a marathon. Maybe next year, when I'm more fit. HAHA! Please run with me pple. I think I really need to exercise if not I'll be damn unhealthy. Can join the guys who need to train for army. HAHA! And of course, I really really want to do well for 'A' Levels. Now that it's over, I know that I'm not going to think about the results now but yes, I really want to do well for it. Learn to cook from my grandmother is also something I want to do. But gah, really hope I'll have time!

Really looking forward to travelling with friends and go USS~ Planning is in the midst so yea!! Haha! And learn driving. Technically, I haven't learn driving yet. Now it's all just theory and stuffs. But I really can't wait to get my license and drive. I really want to be behind the wheels for once. =D

I realise, I really love my blog. HAHA! It's always damn nice to read back what I wrote. Ok, whatever I wrote aft O levels I think. Years of 2006 to 2008 are pretty childish I think. HAHA! It's cool to see how much I grow and mature in my thoughts as the years go by. Little Yi Fang growing up. HAHAHAHAAH.

Okok. But yep, it's still nice to read. And yea, I told myself to make firm decisions, be on time and protect your heart this year. I guess, I pretty much did all 3. Friends should know that my lateness improve by a lot ok. I think it only works when I want to be on time for myself and not for others. LOL! Like last time I will promise others that I will be on time but this year it's really something I want to change about myself 'cause I realise I was really damn late last time lar. Don't know why also. Firm decisions, I think it's better too? LOL! Ok, it's only natural for me to ponder over again and again but I think it improved too? Protecting my heart, I guess I did. At least I'm not as easily bullied I think? Lol! And yea, I know my heart is now strong enough for anything that may come my way.

Year 2012, I think it's pretty good? I learned a lot and I think I grew up too? 18 years old. Haha! Soon to be 19~ But yea, I learn to that sometimes some people are just not meant to be in your life? No matter how much you want them too. And if they are really meant to be part of your life, they will. You just have to believe I guess? Faith. Haha! Weiying's going to complain about me being holy and all again.

But yes, I guess Faith is really something I learned strongly about this year. And faith is something I learned from AC too. How strong faith in God, in yourself, in the people around you can really keep you strong and let you continue on your journey and not give up. This faith that let you believe that things can happen and will happen. You just have to believe and have faith.

Of course, action speaks louder than words so yes, doing is more important than thinking. Sometimes we just need a little bit of push, a little bit of impulsiveness to get us going. And yes, just believing that what you did is right and you have no regrets.

Goodbye pple who actually still read my blog. HAHA! It's quite sweet to find out that some people still read this blog and will tell me stuffs abt what I type when they talk to me. Haha! But not that sweet when they used the info against me. Tsk. But ok, I actually quite miss you Eun! See lar, go NZ and never go prom with us. You better be there for Korea Trip hor.

Off to China from 10th to 20th Dec~ It's going to be quite cold according to my dad. =\ My skin is going to die after getting burnt and then getting freeze and dry up in another country. Yay.

We Are Young - fun.

[ Now I know that I'm not
All that you got
I guess that I
I just thought
Maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
But our friends are back
So let's raise the cup
'Cause I found someone to carry me home]

We Are Young - fun. 

These humans. =)) Seriously am super thankful and lucky to have them in my life. Outings with them are always awesome even though there isn't many of us. And even though we just met up, you'll miss them and still want to meet up with them. It's like you won't get sick of meeting up with them. =D

So we decided to meet at 9am at pending lrt so take bus to ECP~ ok, I was late but by 10mins only!! And I was the 4th to reach. =D then we all reached already but jinghan hadn't. Lol! And we met so early just for him lar!! Haha! Tsk tsk. So yep, 'cause he had sch so he couldn't go with us but just see us in the morning for awhile. HAHA!

Bus to ECP! It's funny 'cause we were talking abt some rather serious stuffs on bus and lol, it's like public and all but we don't care. LOL! And we were the only ones talking on the bus. I think we are really always nuisance when we are together on public transport. Heh. We just talk a lot lar somehow. When we are not tired that is. Haha! So yep, laughed like mad. Shaohao sudden revelation for a lot of things. HAHA! I realise Feli, Faeqa and I really know a lot of stuffs somehow. HAHA! =D

So reached parkway parade there and had late breakfast at Mac. Walked to ecp after that. I think we reached ecp at abt 11plus? Haha! Super early 'cause of jinghan. But yes!! So we started out early. =D and somehow, we decided to cycle to changi village for lunch then cycle back. HAHA! Yes, the long ass pain journey. Our butt was pain since quite early through the ride already. I dunno why. And ya!!! Feli and I had prom the night before so our legs are already hurting from the heels. But we still cycle. Haha!

Usual stuffs of talking and singing while cycling. Made them stop to take photos. Haha! But yes, reluctant bunch. But ok lar, the photos turned out quite funny. =D though got no decent photo. Yes, we suck. And lol! Funny thing is we all were fully prepared for it to rain yesterday. Haha! So we brought extra set of clothes. Yep, stupid weather 'cause it didn't rain one tiny bit yesterday.

So yep cycle cycle. Faeqa was dying 'cause it's her first time cycling so far. HAHA! We all went that far a ride before so it was nothing to us. =D aha, Faeqa weakling~

Then funny thing happened~ feli is best lar. HAHA! She turned back when she was cycling again so she accidentally scratch an old man cycling. Lol! Now it all seems funny. But at that point it was quite annoying and a bit scary. 'Cause that old man is a bit crazy? He just wants money from us lar. Unreasonable person. And he cursed all of us and our family. But lol, I love how we are all not affected by it. Ok except feli. Heh. She was guilty like mad lar!! But aft we left, she got angry at the uncle. Lol! Anyway, the whole conclusion is that the uncle just cursed us more and cycled off after awhile. Yep. And the scratch wasn't even that bad. He really just wanted to take advantage of us being young and blur. And he actually wanted to go one on one with Shaohao. HAHA! Shaohao best lar, he just cycled off and didn't care abt him. That old man is hilarious lar.

So yep! We continued cycling and went to Changi village for lunch! =D we were all quite reluctant to go back 'cause it's really a long journey. Did all sorts of nonsense or rather talked all sort of nonsense. HAHA! It's just funny sitting there and hearing them talk. But ok can be super annoying something. LOL! They really fully of rubbish. =D

Made our journey back! We didn't really have much time left so we just cycled and didn't stop. But it's quite nice 'cause we cycle quite near each other. So we were talking and all as we cycle. Haha! I think that's the nice thing abt small groups. We can just cycle together. =D

When we got down, I really cannot feel my legs lar. There were dying. And the butt hurts like mad. We cycled from 11.20am to 4.30pm. Haha! We best lar! Feel quite accomplish again actually, HAHA! 'Cause we cycled there and back in one go. It's good too 'cause we didn't need to chiong as much. Like not the mad chiong kind. =D
 
Walked back to parkway parade! We were all gone lar. And Kenneth, guodong, feli and I got sun burnt like mad. Ok feli one not as bad. But the 3 of us one is really daebak. Red like mad. We didn't realise that we were burned so bad until we made our journey back. So it's kinda too late already. LOL!

Went to popular 'cause of Kenneth who just need to find one nice paper. Lol! And he ended up not getting any. Annoying human.

Bus back to ECP! Luckily the bus came quick so we didn't have to wait very long. And I was trying to sleep but they all weren't helping. Asses. Somehow we were all really really tired but cannot sleep. Ok, I wanted to sleep but they suck. And Kenneth is a bitch lar! He started to do the tapping thing and pretending that it wasn't you who tap. How old already!! Tsk. Ok I was really like wahhh with him 'cause that tapping thing is so many million years ago thing. Lol! It's his way of hitting on girls. Wah good job. Lol!

We reached pending! And went to get dinner before heading to my hse for dinner. I didn't want to go plaza and hobo so they came to my hse instead. Supposed to be Feli's hse but her sis at home. And I'm glad it was my house 'cause we were all damn tired like mad. Ok, more of feli, guodong and me. Somehow, shaohao just go plenty of energy.

Anyway, Swap, Jinghan, Yiinlih and Rizheng joined us for dinner while Faeqa and Kenneth went home. Talked abt the funny past stuffs again. Haha! Somehow, all those memories just never gets old. You'll still laughed abt it even though we always talk abt them every time we meet. HAHA! Some things just never gets old. =D
 
Laughed until like some mad person with them. Haha! The stuffs they say and do is just the best lar. And my sunburn. LOL! My hands really look like a freaking strawberry poky. And Shaohao took my phone to upload on Facebook for memory sake. Lol! What an ass.

Yep that's my sunburn. It's really super horrible. Didn't know it was that bad until I got home. 

Ahhh they are seriously awesome. =)) meeting up with them just makes you happier and takes your mind off everything else. And makes you laughed like mad. We really went crazy. Haha! Seriously love their company. =)

We can make something bad into something funny. And we really got each others back. Like the whole Feli and old man accident. HAHA! It's really a hilarious incident now that we think back. And all of us find that the incident was actually quite cool 'cause first time we met these kind of old man. HAHA! They are really the best.

And I realise pple just hate us when we are together or something. Haha! It's not the first time we got scolded by some random pple. =D I think we just really don't care when we are with each other 'cause we know that we have each other and we will really stand up for each other. =))

Even though I'm currently having very bad sunburns, muscle ache at the leg area, mosquitoes bites from dunno when, I'm still feeling super happy. =D they really make everything alright somehow. Can't wait for chalet and go overseas with them. =)) we have to wait a few more years for overseas trip but I don't mind 'cause it's them~ HAHA! So grateful to have them in my life. =)

Ending with my favourite photo from yesterday. =D

AC Prom~

My 2nd Prom! Haha! Ok, I think prom is really a time where you just take photos like mad and never really enjoy the food. Haha! But yep, I'm quite glad that I actually still went for prom. I won't complain. It was actually quite nice. And the ballroom is actually really nice. As in at Concord. The outside really looks super horrible but the inside is really pretty nice. So yep! The money is worth it!

Went to Lingli's house to prep for prom together~ Sharon and YL our make up artists and hairstylist. =D Ok lar, it's really fun to prep prom together. Haha! It's like rare times you doll yourself up prettily and just enjoy. Haha! Ok, actually I think the prep for prom is actually more fun than the actual prom sometimes. Haha! 'Cause preparing is quite tiring and you just feel a bit tired after all the preparation. =D

 

Took a photo together before we left for prom! YA!! Eunice Lim was enjoying in New Zealand!! She should have gone lor. I was quite looking forward to her dressing up. =D And how we can doll her up without her complaining. Haha! Dang it man, we missed our chance. =D

Abhilash and Sim Xin Yi! =D 

From little kids in ZHPS to almost adults in ACJC. Really really glad to have these 2 pple with me in AC to make things better. =D

 

 Feli Sim! Short woman who is still short. Haha!

 

 Annoying tall woman who used to be shorter than me by a lot. Haha! But yes, pretty lar she. =D 

 

Whiny, needy, troublesome woman. =D But yes, she's pretty at prom too~ Haha! I think everyone looks better at prom 'cause everyone look more alive. In school, everyone is like in a zombie mode. =D

Agents!! But no Sweden. But it's ok! We can always still meet up with all 5 of us~ =) But ya!! The theme for this time's prom is so app for Agents. All the mystery stuffs. Haha! It's like a theme for Agents. =D

Brendan got dragged up on stage when his girlfriend was performing. =D Feli and I were laughing like mad. But ok lar, he really super sweet to her 'cause he got her a corsage for prom. Proud of you Brendan! =D

Annoying old man who seems to be able to annoy me a lot but I cannot stay annoyed with him forever. Haha! He is still an old man though. =D

LUNGGGGGG!! HAHA! Funny name to call anyone. Forever out of the world girl who is just funny lar. Heh. And she cannot make it in heels. Worse than me~ =D Haha! Ok lar, we both cannot make it. But she was really funny when prom ended 'cause she was really dying.

Joyce! She really dress up until super nice~ Crazy woman who screams everywhere she go. =D

Horribly tall human who just seems to keep growing taller. Haha! But ok, with heels, he doesn't seem as tall. =D

Funny grandpa who I had to bend down to take photo with 'cause I was taller than him by a lot because of heels. =D Love the hair of his that stands up. Haha!

Annoying person who says hi to you only when he is in the mood to say hi. Tsk. And this photo is blur 'cause Jiesi dunno how to take photo~ =D

FUHUA PROM KING! HAHA! But I was taller than him during prom this year too. =D

And this is AC's Prom King this year~ So proud that he is my classmate! Haha! But he really is the pretty boy who can be the prom queen too. =D

Carissa!! She wore this super high heels that really made her taller by a lot. I have no idea how she walks in them. Haha!

Isabel~ Fellow ELF! =D Haha! We always seem to be doing this pose too but oh well, it's still nice! =D

Jiayu! Funny girl who is super thoughtful and wrote really nice stuffs to everyone for grad letter! =)

Jon! He is totally a kid in the mind and heart. Haha! And my first impression of him wasn't a very nice one. Which is quite funny 'cause he is really opposite of what I thought he was like initially. =D

2AA3!! Everyone who went for prom! =)

The girl I like to disturb! =D

Talkative girl who talks about everything and anything. =D

Pretty Yunnan Roomie~ =)

Shall end up with a nice photo of 4 of us black dress ladies~ Haha! It's quite cool how we all wore black. =D

So that's about it for prom! But yep, it was still a good night. And I really enjoyed my time! =)

Who Knew - P!nk

[ When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong ]

Who Knew - P!nk

SHE IS DAMN GOOD.  Go listen to her sing "Who Knew" live on Ellen. Swap showed me the other time and I was really blown away by her. Sometimes you really forget that P!nk can really sing very well.

When you pour out everything to people, it's only natural to have some sort of reply isn't it? I really hope that I wasn't wrong about the friendship. I really hope that you are better than that. I don't want to be wrong. Please show me that you are better than that.

But yes, whatever happens, I really have no regrets. I have many other people to be thankful and grateful for. Yes, I count my blessings daily and realise how very lucky I actually am. Thankyou people in my life. You guys really make my life so much more worthwhile. Knowing that you guys will always be there for me just makes me feel like a really lucky girl. =)

people who make you laugh and smile just by thinking of them

Haha! I was looking through Facebook just now and gosh, it's so funny. Lol! All the memories and many random shit. That, I'm glad that there is Facebook. Haha! Ok actually, I think my blog is more awesome but I write too many things so it's hard to read through all of them quickly. Heh.

In a strangely nostalgia mood again. Haha! End of year always comes a time when you start to feel nostalgic and just miss everyone in the world. But yes, it's always time to meet up with pple~ Haha! Really looking forward to all the things I can do with my dear friends. =D Pretty awesome. =))

And yes, I really really really want to go to a theme park soon. =( USS PLEASE PEOPLE!! =D

The Best Is Yet To Be

Anglo Chinese Junior College. Yep, that's the school that I spent my last 2 years in. These 2 years had been a mixture of many things I guess. Haha! Really too many things happen and I realise today is really the first time I properly sit down and reflect about these 2 years in AC. So all the thoughts are really just flowing in.

So yes, I came into this school without wanting to actually. Haha! I mean yea, my close friends know that AC wasn't an option I had in mine at all until the day I got my results for O levels. NJ was the place I wanted to go. Haha! Yes, I don't know why but I think my sister being there before is one of the contributing factor? I really like to follow in my sister's footsteps sometimes but I realise I never once succeed. Haha! Which I guess, everything still turned out fine. I am still me. Haha!

Orientation week, I grew to like the school. Because really, during Orientation, AC spirit is like super strong. Haha! It's just really nice and everything seems nice. I have my friends with me. I mean yea, 1/4 of 4E1 came to AC. Swap was here too. So yes, life was nice and all. Haha!

Then we were split into classes and Feli and I happened to be in the same class again. HAHA! Something that is freaky but I'm seriously damn thankful of. But really, I realise no matter where I go, there will always be someone I know sort of thing? I mean, it's a very good thing, I'm not complaining. It's just that I'm quite scared that I will get used to having pple I know that if I am really thrown somewhere where I know no one, will I actually survived? To be true, I was really prepared to be alone and start making friends when they sort out the classes 'cause my subject combi was really weird. Oh yes, speaking of that. Haha! Let's talk about my subject combi first. Haha!

H2 Geog, H2 Econs, H2 Math and H1 History. Yes, Geog and History. What was I thinking right? I really wondered too. Haha! But now that it all ended, I really have no regrets on the subjects I choose. I really learned a lot from History lessons. Stuffs that you really don't get to learn anywhere else. And I gained a lot of knowledge of the world. Knowing about all the things that are happening now. Yes, History may be about the past but the past shapes the present and the future. So yes, I really gained a lot of knowledge from History so I have no regrets. It's just that of course, it's really tiring. Lol! The pile of History notes I have. It's comparable to Geog notes and Geog is my H2 subject after all. I guess History as a H1 is actually really tiring? 'Cause you really have to put in a lot of effort for it too. Even if it is a H1. I just really hope that it all pays off well. And yes, my teacher!! Mr Kumu! He is really hell of a dedicated and I really want to do well in History for him. Though his FML stuffs were damn tiring and mind blowing and truly FML, the fact that he bothers to do all these shows a lot of a teacher. He is really dedicated in what he is doing and really wants us to do well. So yes!! I really hope that I will do him proud.

Geog! Haha! I realise, yes, I really love Geog. Ok, I love History too. Actually, I really love all my subjects. Serious. I kinda enjoy studying sometimes 'cause it's really interesting. Physical Geog with all the formation and stuffs. Plate Tec, Volcanoes and Earthquakes~ My favourites. Haha! It's just really interesting ba! And I guess since I learned them in sec sch too, it makes it all very familiar and just nice lar. Haha! Human Geog really is a bit more dry. Lol! But I love Urban. Haha! All the buildings and stuffs. I dunno lar. I just like them. HAHA! I think I sound like some nerd but really, I gained a lot of knowledge from these subjects. True, I may not use them at all in the future. As in for Geog. But then I can act pro to people when we visit landscape areas and tell people that that is is formed from a Ruware to Bornhardt and then Kopie with differential jointing which results in differential weathering. HAHA! And yes, bore people with all these information. =D I remember how in sec sch we learned about breakwaters and stuffs and when our class went ECP to cycle, we all got excited when we know how to identify breakwaters and know what's it for and such. HAHA! Yes, it's nerdy but whatever lar. It's called applying what you learn outside of classroom. =D

And yes, the teachers!! KSL is really the best geog teacher! Ok, 2nd to Ms Chan. Haha! I still love Ms Chan more. But yes, KSL really teaches super well and he really damn dedicated. He did a lot of things for us to help us study easier when it was near A levels. He really wah, damn nice. Lol! So yes, another teacher who I want to do well for as well. Really hope that I can do well for Geog. Ms Lye also! Haha! Though ok, she is more awesome a form teacher and PW teacher than a Geog teacher. Heh. 

Econs used to be my most hated subject but I grew to like it after Mr Hashim took our class this year. Haha! The stuffs you really learn can be applied to life 'cause yes, our life revolves around money sadly. So yep! Econs is the most useful subject out of all I think. Haha! And yes, awesome teacher too! I'm really glad and thankful for all the teachers I have this year. They are really dedicated and try their best to help us. A lot of JC teachers won't do so much for their students but the teachers whom I met are really dedicated and just great. Like I really learned and gained a lot from them.

Math!!! It's sad 'cause I realise how I could have done well in Math throughout thes 2 years if I never neglect it. Like I really could have done a lot better if I was more hardworking. I still hope that I did well for the papers!! Really a subject that I want to do well. But yes, I realise yea, these 2 years, Math was really the subject that I neglect the most. Hopefully, the last minute spur helped? Haha! Sigh, I kinda miss Math too. LOL! As in doing Math can really be fun sometimes. That is when you know how to do the questions. Haha! But yes, it's really the last time I'll see Math I think. I mean like not considering simple calculations and stuffs.

Oh man, I'm feeling tired. Lol! There is really too many things to say and too many things I want to type out but my thoughts are kinda all over the place now. These 2 years, too many things happened already and it's hard to just type them all out now. What I do know is that these 2 years really showed me a lot. I don't think I changed a lot in these 2 years but I know that some parts of me isn't there anymore after these 2 years.

These 2 years were draining and tiring and I think I really thought and reflect a lot during these 2 years. Of course, there were times when I really had fun and enjoyed my time in AC. Times when I laughed like mad and stuffs. But almost everyday was tiring. Though you have your friends around and all, it's still tiring. I guess that's JC life? Haha!

I realise after Os ended, I never properly reflect about it. HAHA! I think this reflection thing comes with age too. But then again, Os was really much easier? As is really just tiring and stuffs. But it's not my worst exam 'cause that will be bad actually. Haha! Prelims for As was really still my worse exam. Haha!

Anyway, ok, maybe I shouldn't talk about Academics stuffs. It's tiring. HAHA! For the past 2 weeks since As ended, I really stop thinking about studies and stuffs. Haha! Of course, I can't forgot all the things I learned immediately. Some are like really ingrained in my head. Lol!

But yes, these 2 years in AC were really worthy. Yes, there were times when I regret coming to AC. There were times when I wondered would things be better if I went to another school instead. If I had studied at another JC or actually had the guts to go poly. Yep poly. I ran away from thinking about going poly at all because I got a feeling I may really liked it there. The NP's Film, Media thing. Lol! Ok, I forgot what's the name of the course but yes, the place where everyone thinks that it suits me quite well. That day I was suddenly thinking about it and I realise I may have liked it there and I may be on a clearer path and having a clearer sight of what I want to do and where I want to go to in the future.

Currently, the future is really a blur. I know what I want. And I think I still want it. It's really where my interest lies in and something that I have been wanting since I was in primary 5. Yes, it's that long. I think one thing about after going AC which was quite sad is that I lost the path. I mean, yea I can still see it, but it's really a blur now. I don't know how I am going to get there even though I know I want to get there. Maybe it's not AC but it's just how growing up becomes? How you just stop dreaming as much and think more realistically. But I am a person who really has ideals. I think I am quite an idealist. Somehow believing that everything will work out, that I will be fine and stuffs. I know I will ultimately be fine. But sometimes it may be harmful to me? Chasing after dreams that may be out of reach. Dreamer. I am a dreamer and I think it's because I'm really brought up that way? My parents allowed me to dream. Which I'm really glad and thankful. Just that sometimes, life really doesn't allow you to dream. Which is sad but it's true. Life isn't a bed of roses. You can't get what you want if you don't work hard for them. And sometimes, somethings are just beyond your reach. And something else is actually what you should be looking out for but you are too stubborn to change your path and look around at other things.

I think, I really need to start looking around and not just looking straight. I tend to be unaware of my surroundings at times and maybe that's why suddenly everything seems quite scary. Ok, not everything. Lol! Like the future and all. I used to think that everything will turn out fine. That I will get what I want ultimately. That somehow, everything will just fall into place. But I come to realise that life really isn't so easy. I guess yes, that's another thing good about going AC. It's really a whole different environment from Fuhua and I really had to leave my safe shell in Fuhua and come out and face everything else. The people you meet, the people you have to work with. They are really different from the people you used to work with and are comfortable with. In AC, the environment is really different from Fuhua. So I guess it really forces us to learn to adapt and adjust to this new environment. Some did well, some didn't. I'm not sure if I did but I think I'm still pretty much the same person as I was 2 years ago, just more angsty, less happy and more tired? Haha! Ok lar, maybe not less happy. Just less energy? I'm thinking it comes with age. HAHA!

But yes, I had have happy times in AC too. Times when I'm really grateful to have been in this school. The close friends whom I have made in AC. They are really great. I'm glad I manage to meet them out of so many people in the school. Haha! It's not easy but I'm really thankful for them. And my class. Haha! It isn't perfect. We aren't bonded, but I'm really glad that at least we are not divided. There are cliques and stuffs. But we don't dislike each other. We can all talk to each other and stuffs. Like even though it's quite clearer that there are cliques and stuffs, but at least there is not backstabbing or whatever scary shit. Haha! A lot of Art classes are quite scary so yes, I'm glad that I was in this Art class and not others. And of course met those awesome friends of me. Heh.

And CCA. Joining Photog was really helping for me in many ways I guess. I'm glad that I did decided to sign up for exco 'cause I learned so much from these whole experience. Learning from the seniors and peers. And from people outisde. And it made me realise things about myself that I didn't know. So I think it was really quite insightful. This passion of mine in photography. I really really hope that it's still there. It has really been way too long since I touched my camera that it really feels foreign. Someone said before that my hands really look bare without a camera. Haha! Or maybe because that photo of me without a camera just looks retarded and stiff.

GAHH I suddenly miss the friends who gave me all my many nicknames. I said this before and I'll say it again. Haha! I kinda do miss people calling me those names. I mean yea, they are still calling me them when they are in the mood. Which I'm glad. Haha! But yes, I really miss them. I realise nicknames really are special? Like it shows some degree of closeness. Of course, even if pple don't call me by my nickname they are also awesome lar. Haha! I just miss everyone. Lol. I'm suddenly thinking of all the nicknames that they came up with. Idiotic people. Some doesn't even make sense. Lol! Okok, I sound like I'm complaining but I strangely miss the nicknames. Haha!

And yes, something I realise about growing up, you really stop being childish. Lol! As in ok, it's a given. But somehow, it's just sad 'cause being childish sometimes make things more fun? Haha! It makes life more interesting somehow. That's why children are interesting. Haha! They dare to do things that adults don't. And as adults, somehow you just have to act the way you are and not do crazy things. If you do crazy things, people will judge you and stuffs. LOL! Like if little kids play with water at the fountain, you will be, "Awwww so cute". But if adults play with water at the fountain, you will go "What are those people doing? Crazy people". It's really like that right? Haha! So yes, it's really sad to grow up sometimes. I want to be able to do childish things like playing block catching and water bomb. Haha! So fun lar!!! Adults games aren't as fun. LOL! Ok technically, adults don't play game. I realise, shit, it's going to be a sad life once we graduate from uni. When we enter the workforce. Playing is no longer the same anymore. 'Cause you are supposingly too mature to play. Ok, this sucks. Lol! I think I'm very much still a kid a heart. As in ok, I don't really know. Haha! Oh well, I guess I should really just play my heart out from now until I enter university. Yes, these 8 months!! =DDD
 
Alright, all in all, I'm glad I came to AC. Because it really made me think deeper and wider. It truly broaden my knowledge abt well the world. Abt relationship with pple. Abt so many things.I guess, I don't need to do a super proper reflection 'cause these 2 years, I have been reflecting a lot through blogging because life in these 2 years doesn't allow you time to really sit somewhere and just think often. So when you blog you'll really think. When you walk home too. Haha! It's like taking advantage of every minute of time we have. These 2 years were really hectic I guess. So many activities and stuffs going on. But I think I really spent these 2 years well? Though ok, I should have put in more effort in my studies but I guess for everything else, I did spent my time well on them I hope.

And yes, tmr's prom I'm going to really end this all well. Haha! Prom is really like the final final full stop to these 2 years. As much as I have been complaining, and I kinda am still complaining, part of me is some sort of glad I am going for prom? Haha! Oh well, it's fun to play dress up once in awhile. Haha! And really just doll yourself up since I don't really do that often. =D And yes!!! Meeting awesome people on Friday after that~ Haha! Ok yes!! I don't owe anymore blog post! Except for what I did after As ended. Like these past 2 weeks. Haha! Shall post when I'm free then. =D

YES I'M GOING TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST NOW. =)

Baccalaureate Service

Alright! I think it's time to post about this. HAHA! Since Prom is tmr~

The very last official day of school. That day was really nice. There's just something about AC. The AC spirit, when felt, feels really strong. During Orientation, Open House, Funorama and Baccalaureate Service, you can really feel the AC spirit. How everyone come together and really just enjoy and have fun. The service was really nice. Like before that day, I wondered if I would feel something on that day and I'm glad I did? It really marked a nice closure to this 2 years in AC.

So yep, all the speeches. Haha! By now, I kinda forgot a lot of stuffs already. =\ I mean yea, not completely forget but it's not as clear I guess. I just know that the speeches were really inspiring. Haha! What I really love about AC is that it really doesn't focus on the academics. Of course, they want us to do well at the end of the day but our welfare is the priority of the school. Like how we have all the free dinner and stuffs from the Parents Action Team. They really are super thoughtful. The teachers, the parents, the principals, everyone. And I guess that's why it does feel nice something. Knowing that people are caring about you even though they may not necessarily know you personally.

And the Valedictorian!! Haha! He's from Arts Faculty~ Haha! Quite proud of it of course. Haha! But he really deserve it 'cause he is really very smart and super pro. Debater. Lol! And he is a nice person too I think. I mean yea, I don't know him personally but from what I hear about him, it's all quite positive. And he knows what to say. His speech was just great lar. He really said things that everyone was thinking too. About how it's really the journey that matters ultimately. I know that these two years, many things happened, not all pleasant but I guess I really did grew a lot from all these things that happen. And I know that if I didn't come to AC, I wouldn't have these experiences, I wouldn't be able to grow so much. I may continue to be sheltered and not knowing anything much.

So yep, the last day of school was nice. Haha! Like what Mrs Chan talked to us about, Ms Annie Yong and Mr Teo Boon Leon. Ok, I really kinda forgot what they say. Heh. But yes, I know that they were inspiring. Lol! And I really love my principal~ Mrs Chan!! Haha! She is really very nice and very true. From what I know lar. Haha! She has this motherly aura and whenever she speaks, you will listen? And she really cares about everyone of us. Of course, it's impossible to know everyone personally but she will always smile to us and asks us things randomly even if she doesn't know us personally. Like when she sees us and stuffs. Ok, maybe 'cause I came from Fuhua with some "cough" principal. Haha! So yes, Mrs Chan is really just awesome lar! =D

We all stood on the chairs and all towards the end. Haha! And lol! I think our batch really quite funny lar. Half way through the prayer, suddenly you hear a lot of sound 'cause almost everyone got down from the chair to sit down. HAHA! So it's damn embarrassing for those who didn't realise it and continued standing on the chairs until the prayer ended. Lol! But ok lar, it shows that they are really in deep thoughts.

And yes!! How can we not end the last day of school without BOLEI! Haha! The whole service really ended well ba! So it's really quite a nice last official day in my 12 years of formal schooling.

Then after that is just rapid mass spamming of photos. Haha! 

Fuhua 4E1 pple!~ Leshan had to rush off so she wasn't here. I made them all come to take photo together. =D So yes! These wonderful pple to see in school. Haha! I realise there is really a lot of us in AC. But I really don't see them often even though we are in the same school. But it's always nice to see them in school. People who I look forward to seeing in school. =)

 Photog Excos! Without Christine and Cara. People who I'm really glad that I met and we just really work well together somehow. We really complement each other which is I guess what our seniors wanted us to do. =)

Haha! 2 retarded girls I got to know from Yunnan Trip! They are really full of nonsense but I can always talk to them about a lot of stuffs. =) Glad that I got to know them during the trip! =))

OCIP Yunnan!! Not everyone but close enough. Haha! I think yea, this was really my best school trip in my 12 years of formal schooling! Haha! I think I said before but yea, this was really my best school trip I think. I really enjoyed myself and had fun. The company was really good too. And of course, the place that we went is simply beautiful. =D But yes! I'm really glad that I met these awesome pple in AC too. Like really glad that it was them that went on the trip with me. =) I think we have the best OCIP trip~ =D

Of course, this class. Haha! 2AA3! Had lunch together at Marche! I think I'll talk more about them in another post I think. Lol!

And these girls~ Plus Joyce! Really really thankful for them. They really truly made going to AC so much more worthy. Meeting these new friends and knowing that we will continue to meet up even after we graduate and I think we'll continue to meet up for quite awhile. Haha! We really been through super lot of things this year so somehow, you just know that this friendship will last. =)

Alright! So this was my last official day in school! =D

12 years of formal schooling

As I was packing my uniform just now, it suddenly dawned on me that I am really never going to wear school uniforms ever again. And I realise that I'm really growing up. Soon, I'll graduate from uni and enter the work life. And I know things will get harder. Relationships more complicated, more people you meet, less time for everyone. Having to balance it all, I think it will really be hard.

But as much as I'm really scared for what happens in the future, I'm feeling excited to what will become of my life too. What my job will be in the future, will I like my job, will it be fun. And all the new people I have yet to meet. Will they be nice, will they be true. And yea, will I find someone who can make my heart crazy and keep me steady always.

The future. It's scary, but it's exciting. I'm really excited to know what will become of my life in the future. But yes, I'm quite scared. 'Cause I realise I have really been pretty much sheltered these 18years. Of course, my parents don't spoil me and stuffs so it's quite alright but yea, like I kinda have it easy than a lot of pple out there.

Yes, I realise I really have to grow up soon. Making life changing decisions. And I am a person who is indecisive to the max yet I now have to learn to make decisions fast and right. Choosing the right path. The right direction. The right route. I'm not sure if I will make the right decisions but I guess whatever decisions that I do make, I will have to follow through them and live with it. And sometimes you just need a little bit of impulsiveness in your decisions which I think I lack. Lol! I really tend to think a lot before deciding. Good and bad I guess.

18 years old. 12 years of formal schooling. It really all just comes down to A levels. Haha! Sounds quite sad but yea. These 12 years have been quite a journey I guess? I'm glad that my life isn't drama and stuffs. But it's still fun and awesome. Heh. Ok lar. There were times when it's really dull and all. But there are really so many things to be thankful about in these 12 years of formal schooling.

Primary sch is no doubt life changing for me. HAHA! Funny 'cause we were still really young then. Immature bunch of kids. Haha! But the friendship made is in the purest form and yea, you are either friends or not. HAHA! There isn't much pretense and stuffs. Yes, I'm sure hell glad that I went into the best class in P3 and stuck through in the best class all the way until I graduated. I'm really thankful for being in the best class. It really changed my life greatly I think? Or rather, it really shape my personality and stuffs. Like it's the foundation to who I am now. Ok of course parents also lar. But other aspects like friends and stuffs. Being able to meet those crazy humans. Haha! Who I realise that we weren't actually close friends then but we became close friends after we graduate. Let's face it, it's funny for little kids to be super duper close friends. HAHA! Ok it's possible lar. But I think we really got way closer after we graduate. And I think that's the coolest thing. Most pple just lose contact after that graduate but we kept in contact and are actually in pretty close terms. Really rare friendship. And granted, we stay how near each other. HAHA! Makes meeting up a lot easier. But yes, I'm really thankful for them. Because they really truly influence me so much in a damn positive way. Ok, we influence each other. Our principals, values and stuffs. Haha! And of course, the teacher who brought us all together. Mr Phang really brought us together and made us so close up until now. If not for him, we may not even be meeting up so often. And he really influenced us with all his lectures. HAHA! Which we usually just sit there and stone through them. But of course some stuffs manage to go into our heads. Lol! He isn't the most perfect teacher but he really did his best. And we were his first graduating batch. Haha! So proud. =D All his challenging problems. Wah I realise at P3 and P4, we really went through a lot. HAHA! As in academic wise. We were in the time when best class is really differentiated greatly from the rest. For a neighborhood primary sch I guess. Haha! That's why yea, I think I'm really lucky to have been in 3S, 4S, 5H and 6H. =) my first six years of formal schooling in ZHPS. =D

Ok so PSLE I didn't do too well. Haha! For a best class student at least. You can actually trace back to my post in 2006 I think. HAHA! My blog has been around for that long. Anyway, so Fuhua was actually my 4th choice. Haha! Yes, it's damn far. And no one heard of Fuhua then. Lol! 'Cause it considered a new sch but doing well. But yes, Bukit Panjang pple never heard of Fuhua. Haha! Our own enclave. =D

But yes, all these was a blessing in disguise I guess. Haha! Getting that aggregate and going to Fuhua. Sec 1 and 2 weren't really pleasant years. Haha! Sec 1 was just me trying to adapt but a bit unwilling to, but ok that year actually ended well. Making friends that really mattered. Damily~ haha! Funny name but yes, I'm really thankful for them for those first 2 years in Fuhua. They really helped me to get thru those scary 2 years. Haha! Ok lar. Those 2 years weren't all that horrible. There were nice memories too. But yes, Damily is really one of the reasons why those 2 years were still bearable.

Then come sec 3! Haha! I'm really lucky too to be in 3S1. Like really man. The people there are just awesome. It's like all the nice people from each of the classes in sec 2 come together to form 3S1. Haha! But yea lar, we were hell of a quiet class. Lol! First half of sec 3 was funny 'cause we were really freaking quiet that teachers don't know if they shd be angry with us for not being responsive or happy with us for being quiet. We like angels lar. Haha! Then yep, somehow, the 2nd half of sec 3, we finally warmed up to each other and really went mad. Lol! Of course, we still angelic in front of teachers. HAHA! We are quite two-face I realise. Heh. Then it's like after sch and during breaks or when teachers aren't around, we just go mad completely. Haha! And I remember we had our own floor to ourselves 'cause we shared the same floor with the sec 4 'cause a sec 4 class had a student who had difficulty climbing up 4 floors. At first we all whine like mad and complain abt it 'cause we won't be on the same floor with the other sec 3 classes but yea, it turned out pretty fun when the sec 4s went on study leave for Os and we had the floor to ourselves. HAHA! All the noise we can make. =D

And yea, CCA wise. Haha! I think I kinda make a wrong choice in CCA actually. Lol! Like I shd have really join something more outdoorsy? But ok, ELDDS I a bit regret lar. Lol! Me and ELDDS is just funny. Haha! I really don't know why. But luckily I still had AVA! Which was a real blessing in disguise 'cause somehow, I just became the chairperson of AVA. Haha! Ok I really didn't do much for the CCA I think. It's a really pretty slack CCA but I did enjoy it. So it's good I guess! And yea, the leadership stuffs. HAHA! It's really responsibility got pushed away so I was the only choice kinda thing. Haha! But yea lar, blessing in disguise!

Sec 4 was just great lar. Haha! Like 4E1 really got closer and bonded. They are really awesome people who I'm really thankful to have met in these 2 years. And spending time with them those 2 years. Sec 3 and 4 really were my best school years. Not even primary school. Haha! Like the class times and stuffs. We really had fun, but we managed to still get the grades. That's why teachers start to love our class more 'cause we were more responsive and still as awesome as ever. Haha! We will play but we produce results. Mug together play together. Seriously lucky to have this class to go through Os with me. We really had fun yet still do well. All the many outings. Haha! So many photos spammed with them. All the unglam shots. HAHA! And doing mad childish stuffs that you won't think sec 3 and 4 students will be doing. =) really an awesome class lar! Haha! So yep, 4 years in Fuhua. Which I'm really thankful for too. The friends I made, the teachers I met, the memories and experiences. I'm really glad that I went Fuhua even though it's so far from my house. Haha! But yes, the friends I made there are really awesome. People who are real and true. So yes, going to Fuhua was really a blessing in disguise. =)

And I think I really grew a lot in sec 3 and 4. Haha! Like my personality and character-wise. The leadership part of me too. Like it's something I never really thought I had? Actually, I'm still not very sure if I did a good job in the leadership roles given to me but yea, I guess I really did my best and that's all the matters! Haha! But yea, I think I really grew and change in those 2 years. For the better. =)

So yep, now comes AC. Haha! Ok I think I shall post one on it's own. 'Cause there's too much to write abt AC. Haha! Since it's the most recent one.

But yes, 12 years of formal education. It has been a really long journey. But I think I really did enjoy most of it. I guess I'm really lucky? But of course, not everything was perfect and smooth sailing. But I think it was still alright. And really, all the things that happened, I have no regrets. Which is good I guess. Haha! Funny how during then, I would be saying I regret this and that but after a few years and you look back, you realise you are actually pretty lucky and have no regrets. I think this comes with age. HAHA! Okok, maturity. We can't say we are old 'cause seriously man, we are still so young. We just grow up more and mature more. =D

Ok! So I'm down with a post. LOL! Still many more to go. =( but actually, it's really quite nice to just sit here and reflect about all that. Reflection is alway nice. Keeps you thinking and makes you move forward.

Wise words from one of Korea's best MC. =)

Feel Again - OneRepublic

[ It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face
And I've never went back trying to replace everything that I broke till my feet went numb
Praying like a fool that just shot a gun
Heart still beating but it's not working
It's like a hundred thousand voices that just can't sing
I reach out trying to love but I feel nothing
Oh my heart is numb ]

Feel Again - OneRepublic

I really want to feel again. But part of me is reluctant to 'cause going through the process and stuffs is just tiring. And something is just holding me back? I don't really know what I'm truly feeling but I guess yea, someday I will feel again. Right now, my family and friends will be the ones to make me feel~ Haha! Seriously love my family and friends. They aren't perfect. There are times when I get annoyed and angry at them. But somehow you just know that they will always be there for you. So I'm really glad.

Going China with my mum and dad from 10th Dec to 20th Dec. Finally can take a break out of Singapore and just ignore everything else. I'm secretly glad that Wifi in China isn't that great. Heh. It's really nice to just escape from everything once in awhile. Then yes, having to deal with them after I'm back. Haha! But yes! 10 days is really long I realise. Haha! But ok lar, I think I really need a break. I think I've been living quite a busy life since As ended. Never really rest properly. Ok sort of did but not a lot. Like I want to do something instead of just sitting there and relax. Weird right? I think I'm too used to doing stuffs that I just want to do stuffs constantly. But heh, watching dramas is quite nice. =D Shall stall all the movies and dramas before I go China! Can watch on the flight! =D

HAHA! These weird humans. Plus a few more who are added after that. The initial group I created last year on 11/11/11 to discuss about chalet which never happened in the end. HAHA! And then we used it to talk nonsense like mad. And ignoring me when I asked when they are free for outings. TSKKK. I realise I'm ignored often that I don't even bother feeling sad. Haha! But yes they are really awesome pple. =D Really a crazy bunch of friends who I'm freaking comfortable around with always. We are so full of nonsense always but somehow we don't mind? HAHA! Our conversations can be freaking retarded sometimes. Even when we talk in real life. I think I really like to talk nonsense. Haha! Quite fun ma. But of course, there are times we actually can sit down and have nice conversations properly. They are really like my sisters and brothers. Haha! Freaking special friendship. Ahahaha! I'm looking forward to meeting them and hearing someone's grand announcement. =D Everyone is growing up! We really see each other grow up. Haha! Ok lar, they are really awesome pple. =) People who have influenced me greatly to become who I am right now.

Gah. I'm so lazy to post about those stuffs. Lol! But I will 'cause I think I should really think about those 2 years of JC. It's really a period of time where many things happened and I'm glad they happened in some ways or another. It learned a lot during those 2 years. They aren't awesome 2 years but not too bad. And I really gained a lot from those 2 years. Ok! When I'm in the mood. Heh.

Sigh, starting to feel lazy to do stuffs again. Lol! Ok so maybe I did relax but there seems to be so many things to be done. =\ Oh well. Shall see how. Haha!

Ohya! Went for the walk in interview at RWS! Signed up for USS Attractions. Hopefully I can get it! It will be damn fun to work at USS. But ok, I want to go USS first. =( I haven't been there yet at all lar!! Must really go during this break. As in go to play and enjoy. Haha!