As I was packing my uniform just now, it suddenly dawned on me that I am really never going to wear school uniforms ever again. And I realise that I'm really growing up. Soon, I'll graduate from uni and enter the work life. And I know things will get harder. Relationships more complicated, more people you meet, less time for everyone. Having to balance it all, I think it will really be hard.
But as much as I'm really scared for what happens in the future, I'm feeling excited to what will become of my life too. What my job will be in the future, will I like my job, will it be fun. And all the new people I have yet to meet. Will they be nice, will they be true. And yea, will I find someone who can make my heart crazy and keep me steady always.
The future. It's scary, but it's exciting. I'm really excited to know what will become of my life in the future. But yes, I'm quite scared. 'Cause I realise I have really been pretty much sheltered these 18years. Of course, my parents don't spoil me and stuffs so it's quite alright but yea, like I kinda have it easy than a lot of pple out there.
Yes, I realise I really have to grow up soon. Making life changing decisions. And I am a person who is indecisive to the max yet I now have to learn to make decisions fast and right. Choosing the right path. The right direction. The right route. I'm not sure if I will make the right decisions but I guess whatever decisions that I do make, I will have to follow through them and live with it. And sometimes you just need a little bit of impulsiveness in your decisions which I think I lack. Lol! I really tend to think a lot before deciding. Good and bad I guess.
18 years old. 12 years of formal schooling. It really all just comes down to A levels. Haha! Sounds quite sad but yea. These 12 years have been quite a journey I guess? I'm glad that my life isn't drama and stuffs. But it's still fun and awesome. Heh. Ok lar. There were times when it's really dull and all. But there are really so many things to be thankful about in these 12 years of formal schooling.
Primary sch is no doubt life changing for me. HAHA! Funny 'cause we were still really young then. Immature bunch of kids. Haha! But the friendship made is in the purest form and yea, you are either friends or not. HAHA! There isn't much pretense and stuffs. Yes, I'm sure hell glad that I went into the best class in P3 and stuck through in the best class all the way until I graduated. I'm really thankful for being in the best class. It really changed my life greatly I think? Or rather, it really shape my personality and stuffs. Like it's the foundation to who I am now. Ok of course parents also lar. But other aspects like friends and stuffs. Being able to meet those crazy humans. Haha! Who I realise that we weren't actually close friends then but we became close friends after we graduate. Let's face it, it's funny for little kids to be super duper close friends. HAHA! Ok it's possible lar. But I think we really got way closer after we graduate. And I think that's the coolest thing. Most pple just lose contact after that graduate but we kept in contact and are actually in pretty close terms. Really rare friendship. And granted, we stay how near each other. HAHA! Makes meeting up a lot easier. But yes, I'm really thankful for them. Because they really truly influence me so much in a damn positive way. Ok, we influence each other. Our principals, values and stuffs. Haha! And of course, the teacher who brought us all together. Mr Phang really brought us together and made us so close up until now. If not for him, we may not even be meeting up so often. And he really influenced us with all his lectures. HAHA! Which we usually just sit there and stone through them. But of course some stuffs manage to go into our heads. Lol! He isn't the most perfect teacher but he really did his best. And we were his first graduating batch. Haha! So proud. =D All his challenging problems. Wah I realise at P3 and P4, we really went through a lot. HAHA! As in academic wise. We were in the time when best class is really differentiated greatly from the rest. For a neighborhood primary sch I guess. Haha! That's why yea, I think I'm really lucky to have been in 3S, 4S, 5H and 6H. =) my first six years of formal schooling in ZHPS. =D
Ok so PSLE I didn't do too well. Haha! For a best class student at least. You can actually trace back to my post in 2006 I think. HAHA! My blog has been around for that long. Anyway, so Fuhua was actually my 4th choice. Haha! Yes, it's damn far. And no one heard of Fuhua then. Lol! 'Cause it considered a new sch but doing well. But yes, Bukit Panjang pple never heard of Fuhua. Haha! Our own enclave. =D
But yes, all these was a blessing in disguise I guess. Haha! Getting that aggregate and going to Fuhua. Sec 1 and 2 weren't really pleasant years. Haha! Sec 1 was just me trying to adapt but a bit unwilling to, but ok that year actually ended well. Making friends that really mattered. Damily~ haha! Funny name but yes, I'm really thankful for them for those first 2 years in Fuhua. They really helped me to get thru those scary 2 years. Haha! Ok lar. Those 2 years weren't all that horrible. There were nice memories too. But yes, Damily is really one of the reasons why those 2 years were still bearable.
Then come sec 3! Haha! I'm really lucky too to be in 3S1. Like really man. The people there are just awesome. It's like all the nice people from each of the classes in sec 2 come together to form 3S1. Haha! But yea lar, we were hell of a quiet class. Lol! First half of sec 3 was funny 'cause we were really freaking quiet that teachers don't know if they shd be angry with us for not being responsive or happy with us for being quiet. We like angels lar. Haha! Then yep, somehow, the 2nd half of sec 3, we finally warmed up to each other and really went mad. Lol! Of course, we still angelic in front of teachers. HAHA! We are quite two-face I realise. Heh. Then it's like after sch and during breaks or when teachers aren't around, we just go mad completely. Haha! And I remember we had our own floor to ourselves 'cause we shared the same floor with the sec 4 'cause a sec 4 class had a student who had difficulty climbing up 4 floors. At first we all whine like mad and complain abt it 'cause we won't be on the same floor with the other sec 3 classes but yea, it turned out pretty fun when the sec 4s went on study leave for Os and we had the floor to ourselves. HAHA! All the noise we can make. =D
And yea, CCA wise. Haha! I think I kinda make a wrong choice in CCA actually. Lol! Like I shd have really join something more outdoorsy? But ok, ELDDS I a bit regret lar. Lol! Me and ELDDS is just funny. Haha! I really don't know why. But luckily I still had AVA! Which was a real blessing in disguise 'cause somehow, I just became the chairperson of AVA. Haha! Ok I really didn't do much for the CCA I think. It's a really pretty slack CCA but I did enjoy it. So it's good I guess! And yea, the leadership stuffs. HAHA! It's really responsibility got pushed away so I was the only choice kinda thing. Haha! But yea lar, blessing in disguise!
Sec 4 was just great lar. Haha! Like 4E1 really got closer and bonded. They are really awesome people who I'm really thankful to have met in these 2 years. And spending time with them those 2 years. Sec 3 and 4 really were my best school years. Not even primary school. Haha! Like the class times and stuffs. We really had fun, but we managed to still get the grades. That's why teachers start to love our class more 'cause we were more responsive and still as awesome as ever. Haha! We will play but we produce results. Mug together play together. Seriously lucky to have this class to go through Os with me. We really had fun yet still do well. All the many outings. Haha! So many photos spammed with them. All the unglam shots. HAHA! And doing mad childish stuffs that you won't think sec 3 and 4 students will be doing. =) really an awesome class lar! Haha! So yep, 4 years in Fuhua. Which I'm really thankful for too. The friends I made, the teachers I met, the memories and experiences. I'm really glad that I went Fuhua even though it's so far from my house. Haha! But yes, the friends I made there are really awesome. People who are real and true. So yes, going to Fuhua was really a blessing in disguise. =)
And I think I really grew a lot in sec 3 and 4. Haha! Like my personality and character-wise. The leadership part of me too. Like it's something I never really thought I had? Actually, I'm still not very sure if I did a good job in the leadership roles given to me but yea, I guess I really did my best and that's all the matters! Haha! But yea, I think I really grew and change in those 2 years. For the better. =)
So yep, now comes AC. Haha! Ok I think I shall post one on it's own. 'Cause there's too much to write abt AC. Haha! Since it's the most recent one.
But yes, 12 years of formal education. It has been a really long journey. But I think I really did enjoy most of it. I guess I'm really lucky? But of course, not everything was perfect and smooth sailing. But I think it was still alright. And really, all the things that happened, I have no regrets. Which is good I guess. Haha! Funny how during then, I would be saying I regret this and that but after a few years and you look back, you realise you are actually pretty lucky and have no regrets. I think this comes with age. HAHA! Okok, maturity. We can't say we are old 'cause seriously man, we are still so young. We just grow up more and mature more. =D
Ok! So I'm down with a post. LOL! Still many more to go. =( but actually, it's really quite nice to just sit here and reflect about all that. Reflection is alway nice. Keeps you thinking and makes you move forward.
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