things I'll never say

What are the things that you will never say? Even when you should. Even when you know you want to say it so much. Even when you care so much about that person but you will never say it no matter what. What happens when one day, you will regret not saying while you still had the chance? Regrets, in any form, are the worst feelings to feel.

Pride. Pride makes you never say the things that you want to say. I never understood pride but I know that it's something that everyone has it even if you think you don't. I know that I can be quite prideful sometimes. But of course, I will let it down sometimes when you know that you may lose people if you don't. Admitting that it is your fault even though it wasn't anyone's fault.

Sigh. I have so much things I wanted to type about but there's just so much that I'm at a loss of words. I miss people.  To be honest, sometimes I wonder if I actually do really miss or it's just that I'm used to missing people that it's normal to miss them. Haha! Not sure if it makes sense but yep.

And I suddenly realise how scary a friend can really disappear from your life so abruptly. Can't help suddenly thinking of a close friend who just cut off all sorts of connection with everyone. Like not even a person has some contact with this friend. It's rather scary I think. It's more strange 'cause this friend was actually close to a lot of us.

But yea lar, just a sudden thought. To be true, I know I don't really care about this friend anymore. I just really find it strange how can a person just cut off ties with, well, the world. It's too weird. Too strange.

Alright, I should be thankful that I have friends who stayed on by my side. Who doesn't leave or runaway or avoid me. Lol! Friends who are worth the keep. And yes, some things happen this way for a reason. And I guess, it's good. Haha! As in just a thought of how things may have been but didn't happen which I should be glad it didn't? Because yes, I'm pretty sure if it did happen, things will not be the same as it is now. And I'm quite sure that most likely things would have been worse if it went the other way. So yes, everything happens for a reason. Haha! Obviously but yep. Some things are just not meant to be but it's alright.

So yes, sometimes, you won't say all the things that you may want to say. But it's alright because maybe it doesn't really mattered for you to actually say it so much.

And you know, I really feel like I'm crazy naggy. Lol! And how I really always go on saying the same things for awhile. Just that it's all phrase differently. Lol! Ok, I'm typing this half asleep so pardon me for all these nonsense. I shall attempt to post activities stuffs next time. Lol! Attempt is the word.