holding on to the precious and important

When we are young, we think that we are invincible. And that we have everything, our futures in control. But as you grow older, things just slowly get out of control. Friends forever used to mean it. But it gets harder somehow. Everyone has different schedules and plans and friends and family.

Sometimes, I'm honestly quite scared that I'll slowly lose some of my friends as time pass by. And the reason for it is because we drifted. That's the worse way to end a friendship because once you've drifted, it's quite hard to find it back again. It's still possible of course but the chances are rare and you need to have a lot of fate with the person. I'll rather the friendship "ended" because of some stupid fight because at least it shows that both of you still care a lot abt each other. And that after solving the random misunderstandings and end the fight, you are friends again. It all really ends when you stop caring. And that often happens when you are busy and don't have time. Which is going to happen as you grow older. It may seems like an excuse at times and to be true, I still think it is but I think I have yet to be truly busy to the point where you really just don't have time for anything else. What I do know is that I really don't want a future like that. I want to be able to have time for my family and friends and not just my job. But knowing the me, I'll either have everything and make myself very very tired or I'll not have everything. Right now, I think I'm balancing my life quite alright. But that's just because I'm not that busy yet. But I do know also that when I can't balance, the one person that I will treat badly and make the person tired is myself. I don't know if it's a good thing but I do know it's not healthy.

Anyway, as of right now, I really really want to hold on to the friendships that I have. Because they are all really important to me. Even if I may not meet up with everyone very often, they are important. They are the people I want to keep for a long time. I do think I'm quite greedy at times because I really want everything. Lol. Which alright, I come to realise that I really can't. But I just know that I want to be able to still meet up with these pple from time to time even if I can't do it often.

I guess it's just something I want to be able to remember when I'm older. That I'll look back at this blog post and hopefully still able to hold on to the friendships that are precious to me now.

And I guess I am honestly glad that there is this amazing group of people who I know that time and tide somehow won't change this friendship of ours. Because it's weird to begin with and it has lasted for so long already. And I kinda have pretty strong faith that it will be alright no matter what. Not that I don't have faith in other friendships because I do. It's just that this friendships is just like that. Haha! We are really just like that. =D

All these super random thoughts just from hearing We Are Young by fun. Haha! I like mornings like these though. When songs keep your thoughts going. And I also need to improve on my English a lot. It really kind of sucks. Maybe I should try blogging in good perfect English. HAHA! But I'll just be gross out by myself when I read back my blog posts so forget it. =D