denial

[ Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
Cause what you did was low ]

Low - Kelly Clarkson

The reason why I always say that I don't care when I actually still do care like mad; the reason why I always say that I letting go when I'm actually still holding on tight; the reason why I always lie to myself when I know that deep down, I'm actually not thinking that. The reason for all that, is because if you keep telling yourself that you don't care, if you keep telling yourself you are letting go, if you keep lying to yourself, overtime, the lies may become truths.

It's self-denial. I know that. But sometimes, you really just have to lie to yourself so that you won't get hurt. I said that I don't care. I said that I'm not going to be bothered by it anymore. I said that. But I know that I actually still care about it very much. That I actually still want to do something to change it. But I know that I'm not going to. Because really, some things you really have to learn it on your own. Some things are just not worth you spending time on. Some people, you just have to let go.

I'm not giving up. Even though I say I am. I'm still waiting. But I know I am not going to do anything this time because it's time that you learn how to deal with it without us telling you how to. It's time that you face up to it and learn how to deal with it on your own. And not let someone tell you what to do and you just follow through. How old are you already?

And those who knows what I'm talking about, don't interfere into this. I know you are concerned and you truly care about us a lot but it's something that I don't want it to be solved because someone comes and tell the person what to do and what should be done.

You need to figure this out yourself if we are actually still important to you. Don't do this for the sake of it 'cause really, why bother doing it for the sake of it? If you are really important to you, if you do care about us, you should know why. And if you don't, why are you scared to ask us? Really, friends should not be scared of each other in anyway. It doesn't make sense of the friendship anymore.

I'm tired. And though I say that I won't get affected by this, I know that it will always be nagging me at the back of my head. But I know that I'm really not going to do anything this time.If you want to do something, I will listen. If you want to ask something, I will tell you. Just, be genuine and true. Don't bother if you realise that we don't matter much to you anymore. We don't want to add on to your burdens.

It won't be great. It will hurt. But that's how life is sometimes. And lying to yourself isn't that bad sometimes because sometimes, you have to lie to yourself to protect yourself from getting hurt. It sounds sad. But in a way, if you lie to yourself that you can do it when you know that somehow you may actually can't do it, it's a positive thing 'cause like I said, the more you keep telling yourself otherwise, the more it may become real.

So yes, tell yourself you can do it, even though a lot of things seemed impossible to be done. Just keep telling yourself that you can do it. And you will really be able to do it someday. As long as you keep telling yourself what you want to do. Lol. Don't ask me how I managed to link until this but it just happened. Haha!

I'm glad that at least, I'm not wrong about some people. And that there are still many people other there worth holding on to and worth spending time on.

I didn't give up on you, you gave up on us first. You stop bothering. Not us.

crazy pig. =D

Lakeside! Didn't realise how beautiful that place was until Kamin brought me there last Friday. Haha! This mad woman wanted to see the night of that place. Being the ever so wonderful friend, I accompanied her. =D But yes! Thankyou for showing me such a nice pretty place to go to. =)

And haha! This girl ah, I think that sometimes I really feel like her dad. Haha! Taking care of her and going to such places with her. Like a daughter dragging her dad to random places. =D Heh, she love the card that I wrote for her~ =) It's super long but lol, I still had way more stuffs I wanted to write but yes, I'll save them for next time. =)

You know that I'll always be there for you this mad girl right? =) That even though I suck at replying messages, you are on my mind hor! I can't be there for you always, but I'll do my best. =) Haha! I think I really sound like a father saying to the daughter. =D

My ever so mad and crazy friend. =D Our 6th year of friendship! =)

Haha! Cool pondering photo~ but ok, I think it looks quite retarded but oh well. =D DSLR~ I shall bring it with me next time. =D YES!! I NEED TO GO TAKE PHOTOS! Seriously been damn long since I really take photos. =\ And I really miss taking photos. Gahhh. I think I really like and enjoy taking photos. Lol! Or making the subjects that I'm taking photos of. Haha!

the most annoying kids around

[ TATATARARARATA CIRCUS
TATATARARARATA AFRO
CIRCUS AFRO CIRCUS AFRO
POLKA-DOT POLKA-DOT POLKA-DOT AFRO ]

Marty (Madagascar 3)

Heh, I love this song. =D

Went to study and watch movie with 6H pple on Thursday~ It's the usual pple but good enough. =D Met Feli at Bangkit earlier 'cause we wanted to be there before Guodong. Haha! He forever the first to reach. And he actually apologised to us for being late. HAHA! He damn joke lar. Like we ever did apologise for being late for like just a few million times. =D

So yep! Changhui, Guodong, Feli and I travelled to JE library at around 9plus! Went inside JCube so that Feli could get her breakfast which was a bottle of Green Tea. Haha! Retarded woman. And lol, there was a queue outside the library. Haha! Super joke man. Like there was a long queue some more. Haha!

So we joined the queue and lol, when we went in right, there were two rows of librarians and library staffs welcoming us into the library. LOL! Seriously man, I was highly amused 'cause I thought the queuing up is funny enough already.

Anyway, managed to get a nice table with 4 seats! I realise we should have split into two tables so that we had more tables since 2 other pple were joining us. Lol! Anyway, so it was just Guodong, Changhui and me 'cause Feli saw Haisong and went to talk to him for super long. We were effective lar! As in when it was the 3 of us.

Then Feli came back and started to talk. After we studied awhile, Kenneth came and made a big fuss about not going up to the top floor to sit. Sheesh. Come earlier with us next time lar! Complain so much. Then he went to grab a chair and joined us. We were doing well until a library came over and said that we can't pull chairs over. Then we decided to shift upstairs when Enming came too. Feli went to find Haisong and I went up to the top floor 'cause of course in 6H, the girls do the job while the guys just sit and wait. Forever one. Tsk.

So yep, there were space upstairs so came down to shift those pple up and yep, Kenneth started to complain and all that we had no table and stuffs. And there was actually this nice table which was big enough for six pple. Ok, so now we learned that we have to aim for that table when we go study next time. Lol! But ya!!!! There was this group of secondary school kids that used the table to do some cards stuffs or something. Let us study lar! Sheesh. =\ Lol. I think I sound like some grumpy old kid.

Anyway, we found a random spot and just sat there. And lol, we were really just sprawled all over the place at that area. All with our own quite big area of space. Yes, that's us for you. Haha! And Kenneth was sulking for quite awhile until he decided to just accept his fate and  move on. Changhui really was super determined to study lar! He really started work once we settle down at that area. Lol, I realise it wasn't even a corner. Haha! Enming was obviously no intending on studying at all actually. Tsk.

Ohya! Yingkiat saw us at the library too! Haha! He was super lucky 'cause he didn't bring his phone and he had to meet Brendan to study and before he saw us, he met Jiesi also. Haha! Lucky lar, if not he really had to go all over to library to find his canoe pple.

So yep, we studied for awhile, like really a short while. Then I asked them a math question that Puiling asked me and Changhui and Enming were busy solving it. AHA!! I love it that I have really smart friends. =D Enming miraculously solved the math question. Haha! Ok lar, he is smart. But lol, he was really damn proud of himself for being able to solve it 'cause he said it was a long time since he solve something. Lol! But yea lar, they are all still damn smart please.

And ya!! I love this photo man. All 3 of them look damn hilarious. Guodong and Kenneth are gays shits man. Enming's face is just the best. Haha!

Someone got hungry. Lol! I forgot who though. I think Feli or Changhui so we decided to go for lunch. We suck man. Really failed mugging session. But eh!! It was effective initially. =\

Had lunch at Kopithiam at JCube! And we were so smart to eat lunch during a peak hour so yep, we had trouble finding seats. But yep, we managed to find one and we all chionged there immediately. Ok, at least I did. Haha! Ate Pepper lunch and Swap came to find us. =D

Went up to the movie theatre to get tickets for movie! Though as usual, we took forever just to reach the box office. The 4 of them were stuck watching the pple skating at the rink. Lol! And LOL!!! THIS IS THE BEST PART!! 

Ohya, before the best part, Faeqa went to JP instead of JCube. HAHA! LOSER~ but ok, not her fault 'cause her dad was confused. Lol! But still, quite funny. Haha! Then ok, the best part. HAHA! She called me while Feli, Swap and I were standing opposite from where the guys where standing at. I picked and she was screaming (shouting/talking VERY loudly) what are you doing!! So I was wondering where she was and then I realised that instead of 4 pple (Changhui, Enming, Guodong, Kenneth) standing at the opposite side, there was actually 5 pple. Faeqa camouflaged with this wall/poster behind her. LOL!!!!!!!!!! Seriously, I'M NOT JOKING! I really didn't see her at first!! Neither did Feli or Swap! I was really trying to find her until I realised that someone was standing beside Kenneth. LOL! Then the 3 of us went mad laughing. Haha! Faeqa, stop wearing black lar. We literally cannot see you. HAHA!

Anyway, so yea, the guys managed to get their feet walking and came over to the box office. We gave Guodong his erm, super duper belated birthday gift. Haha! His birthday was in February. Yep, we know we are so on time. But yay!! He was damn touched. Haha!

 

But lol, the scroll we gave him was actually quite nonsensical. Haha! But hope he still likes it though. =D

Anyway, so yep, the whole process of choosing what to watch was long and tiring so I'm lazy to explain but in the end we went to JP to watch Madagascar 'cause the seats at JE were the front 2 rows. Lol! Changhui didn't join us for the movie though so the rest of us went to JP to watch.

Don't know why but I decided to walk super fast initially while the guys were really happily scrolling. But lol, we all reached the MRT at the same time 'cause Swap had to buy her ticket since she lost her ezlink card for I think the dunno which time already. Lol! She is super lousy!

So yep, reached JP and lol, Feli and I wanted to go to the box office first 'cause we were scared that there wasn't going to be good seats again then Faeqa was worried that the rest would get lost, but she ended up being lost while the rest made it to the box office safely before her. Haha!

Anyway, 'cause of our wonderful dark knight, there was a confusion with the money. Tsk tsk. So we made her buy popcorn for us. Haha! Ok, not really but she didn't really mind so oh well. =D And none of us wanted to sit beside her 'cause we know how noisily scary she would be during the whole movie. And ya! Swap, Feli and I all weren't sitting beside her initially but then 'cause we went to the toilet and they just all sat together and Faeqa left 2 seats empty beside her. Tsk.

But we went to sit beside Guodong instead of her. Lol! Then pple came and we had to move and the guys and Faeqa refuse to move down so I got fed up and moved over while accidentally stepping on everyone's foot. Lol! It really wasn't on purpose just that I was annoyed so I just wanted to get to the seats quickly. Haha! And poor Swap had to sit beside Faeqa. =D

Anyway, the movie was funny ba! Though lol! It's really quite retarded. But I love Marty's song. =D Yep, after the movie, I kept singing the song. It's damn cute! Retarded like mad but I like. =D And lol! Faeqa was really laughing throughout the whole movie. Haha! Ok lar, it really was funny at times but it's really damn retarded. Lol! The only thing I remember from the movie now is the song.=D CIRCUS AFRO~

For the first time, the guys were the ones leading us instead and they brought us to this basketball shop. Lol! We ended up at Long John Silvers eventually and stayed there for super long talking about all sorts of things. Haha! From nonsense stuffs to chalets to weird outings to random suggestions of outings to insults to just about everything. The typical bunch of us who rather waste time and sit at some place to talk nonsense rather than doing something more constructive. =D

Took 180 back with Swap, Guodong and Faeqa! We were all super tired by then already. Best part is that we shouldn't be tired since the only activity we actually did was watch movie. Lol! But somehow we were all just tired. I think sitting around and talking nonsense actually makes you tired. Haha!

Went plaza to get dinner with Swap and Faeqa and went home after that~ I kinda like how 6h outings, you won't end up home very late 'cause somehow we'll all go home early. Haha! Supposed to meet Shaohao for dinner but they all couldn't make it so we postponed the dinner to another time. Shaohao wanted to meet us damn badly lar. Haha! The guys are so mean.

Though this post is full of insults, full of complains, full of non-nice things, full of nonsense, I had a really great time with these bunch of pple yesterday even though it was just a mugging session and movie and talking. Haha! Meeting them is good enough already! And all the weird things we do when we get together. It's not even we intentionally want to do all those weird stuffs. It always just happens. Haha! You can't find a more retarded bunch of friends around. And yet, they are amazingly smart. Lol!

YEA!!! I'm so looking forward to the end of A levels! We have to have chalet before the guys book into army 'cause we are finally able to book the chalet on our own without any guardian required~ =)) HAHA! We sound so sad.

And lol! We were saying that the first time we go clubbing, we should actually go together. HAHA! I can imagine a bunch of us standing together, looking freaking out of place and clueless and I bet we'll leave there before 1 hour or even less. But, lol, I think it will be really damn funny. =D

laughing at pple falling~

4E1 gathering on Wednesday! Heh, it was ice-skating which we were all supposed to be skating but only the guys went to skate. Haha! I got lazy and I figured taking photos nicer. Haha! Ok lar, I kinda did regret not skating but oh well, we can go again if there's chance. =D

HAHA! So sweet~! =D It's really fun looking at the guys skate though. They did all sort of retarded stuffs lar. And seeing other professional pple skate also. But seeing them skate makes you want to try also. Haha! Though of course, we are no where going to be near professional. But I still want to try someday. Heh.

Jeslyn and Peixuan! Haha! Should have taken another better shot but they thought this was alright. Lol! Super long since I saw them! Quite nice to catch up with them. =D They went to watch Madagascar though 'cause they thought that all of us were skating. Nevermind! Can catch up again soon! Hopefully! =)

Lol. I felt like I was the guys' mother or babysitter when I had to take their bags. Sheesh. But really man, it's like we babysitters like that. Haha! But yep, a group photo when you get bored of looking at the kids. =D

Yea, they were damn retarded! But the crew people told them to stop after that. Haha! They were trying to act like professional skaters. Fail!! Haha! And they went to play catching after that. Lol! Quite funny seeing how desperate Sweden and Haziq were trying to skate away 'cause the 2 of them were the lousier ones~ =D The way Haziq skate is quite funny. Heh. But ok, I cannot laugh 'cause I may not be any better.

This photo is super gay!! But it's still quite nice. Haha! 'Cause I TOOK IT. =D But yea lar, it's a pretty nice shot. =D

Nisa's inspirational look. =D We were bored lar.

So after the guys skate, they came up and we sat there for quite long before we decided to move. Lol! And took a lot of nonsense photos. No, Ben Lee and Jordan took my camera and took nonsense photos. Seriously man. Of strangers, of ceilings all. They forever one lar.

And haha, I like how we will always walk walk walk and somehow stop at some point 'cause something caught our eye and we all just stand there and look. LOL! Super retarded. Then until someone made a move, then we all just follow and continue to move on. Haha! We suck.

Took train to JP to meet the rest for dinner. Dinner was super sian 'cause we were there before this group of people but no one lines up to queue for it. Ok fine, I should have went to queue for it. So yea, this other big group of people came and got the seats before us. =\\\ So some of us kinda had to separate. But yep! Hope everyone still had fun catching up with each other!

Next time we meet up, it'll most likely be after A levels! So to all the JC kids, jiayou all the way!!! We can all do this together, even though we aren't physically together! And to the poly kids, don't die doing all the projects and jiayou with them!!! We can all get through this year together. =)

good times

I miss these people like mad even though I just met up with most of them yesterday! I admit, what I truly miss are the memories we shared together in the past. Things changed as we all moved on to different places after graduating from Fuhua. But they are the people who really made school so much more fun and worth looking forward to in sec 3 and 4. Without them around, I really have no idea how I was going to survive O Levels.

But what makes me feel happy now is that somehow, there is still something that everyone still holds on to. Though yes, I miss how we used to be in the past, I guess things just change and we can't do anything about it. But I guess, somehow, we still want to see each other from time to time. Even if it's for awhile, even if it wasn't a perfect gathering. Seeing each other, doing alright, makes us happy enough. And I guess that's what makes me feel happy seeing them too. True, it's not the same anymore. But it's still comforting to know that they are doing fine. They are the people who have stuck by me in sec 3 and 4. The crazy class where we did many millions of nonsense stuffs. Seriously man, my best class times were with them. They gave me the best memories in class. I love how we somehow managed to balance play and study. Not many people can do it. And we really work towards the goal together as a class.

I really miss the old times. But I know that I can't have them back. At least, I once had them and that's really good enough. =) And I'm sure that most people in class will always remember the funny and awesome times we had in those 2 years. And having those memories will make us still want to meet each other even after many years. Some people may stop doing it, but I guess it's alright. Whoever that still comes, whoever that still stays on, even though they know that somehow it may not be a great outing yet they still want to come, these people make organising class gatherings worthwhile.

And what makes us really special is that we know that there may be awkward moments during the gatherings but we'll still try to make an effort to come. True, some people stop, but those who still continue to come, thank you. It just makes me feel happy seeing you guys come. So yea, thank you for still wanting to catch up with how everyone else is doing with their lives. You guys make me want to plan gatherings. =)

So yes, I know that I'll still continue to bug Haziq to plan class gatherings during holidays. =D It's going to get harder with people in army, working, schooling, overseas and everything. But it will work somehow. I know that these are the people I really don't want to lose contact with. I have faith! Haha!

work harder

Yes, it's really time to work a little harder. A little harder on relationships with family and friends, a little harder on studies, a little harder on self-discipline, a little harder on listening, a little harder on sharing, a little harder on laughter, a little harder on positivity, a little harder on life.

This has been the 3rd week of June Holidays. I guess, I didn't exactly wasted it. I did some work here and there but I know it's not enough. To get really good results for A levels, this is not enough at all. So yes, 2 more weeks before the start of a new term. It's going to be hell of a term. So we really have to brace ourselves. And I'm sure that we can get through all these as long as we have each other with us.

Relationships. Somehow, as you get older, friendships and kinship get more complicated and not as easy as it used to have been. I guess that's just how life is like. And the only thing we can really do is try harder. Yes, what you have been doing when you were younger is not applicable to now already. As you get older, you change too. And you have to adapt and try even if you don't feel like it. If you don't try, the only one being unhappy, is you. I'm not saying to change just to suit the environment, but adapt. Adapt doesn't mean you have to change. It's just adjusting to it to make yourself enjoy the process and be happy. What used to be easy, isn't anymore. Life... Well, it's like that. We really have no control over it and we shouldn't sulk 'cause it just makes us more miserable. Though of course, there will be times when you really feel tired but don't stay tired forever. Look around you and you will find that there really are a lot of things still worth being happy for and worth fighting for.

But of course, don't spend your time and effort on things that you know that no matter how much you hope for things to work, things just can't work. You know that ultimately, somethings are really out of your control. So don't spend too much effort on it. 'cause you will be wasting your energy on something not worthy and you end up missing the things that are worth more but you failed to realise at that moment.

You know, the thing about life is that it's really unpredictable. One day, you may find that maybe I should do this. Another day, things change and you realise you should change the plan too. It kinda does sucks sometimes but I guess that's the thrill in life. Not knowing what to expect every day when you wake up. Because yes, nothing lasts forever. Time doesn't stand still. Change is the only constant in life. And that's what makes life worth living.

Sometimes, I really wish that I can hear myself more. There are advices that I can tell so easily to others when the same advice can help me too. Which I guess, sometimes I do listen to myself. That's why I can always get back up after feeling down. I'm glad I'm like that. Though sometimes, I can't help feeling a bit too strong for my own good. I'm not saying that I'm really a strong person but I think I'm really not too bad. Haha! It's good 'cause really, the brighter side is always nicer.

Aha, always after long talks, I'll suddenly think of a lot of deeper stuffs to talk about. Strength in numbers. You really cannot get through life on your own. No matter how strong you are, you will need some people to fall back on. To catch you when you you fall and to hold you when you get tired. You are not alone! Haha! Everyone has their fair share of problems. No one's life is perfect. Sometimes we really just have to take a step back and try to understand people.

And some people, they may appear to be carefree, they may appear to be happy and gleeful always, they aren't. They are just putting on a facade to protect themselves 'cause they feel that no one can understand them so why bother sharing. These people, reach out to them. Don't just think that this person is always happy and cheerful and don't need to worry about that person. These kind of people actually need more attention because they actually think more than you think they think. Lol! They care so much more than they appear to be caring. They hurt way more than you think. Don't overlook them 'cause they need you more than you think. Of course, they must be willing to share too lar. Lol! Don't force people if they are really reluctant 'cause it'll just make things uncomfortable between you and the person.

I guess yes, fate places a part in this. Some people, you are just fated to be really good friends with them. Some people, you are just not fated with that. God, He really does a lot of wonders and if you trust in Him, everything will seem easier in a way. He will guide you through this life. He will always be there no matter what.

YES!! Time to work harder on everything. Stop being lazy. Stop procrastinating. If you want to do it, do it now. Don't wait until later. Just don't be lazy. Laziness really kills and I know I'm heck of a guilty with laziness. Since when I was a little kid, I was super lazy. Lol! My mum has been complaining about my laziness since forever.

One thing that I'm super proud of myself lately is that I'm no longer late! Or even if I'm late, it's just a few minutes. Less than 20mins. =D Yes, I know I was damn horrible in lateness last year. =\ Don't know why also. It's really super bad of me to make people wait for me for so long. But yes! I have made improvements!

Ice Skating with 4E1 tmr! =D I just hope I won't fall. But wah, I realise the rink is big. =\ Going one round will be a torture. Damn man. But ok lar, the last time I skate, it wasn't with people who I was close to. Lol! I forgot who I went with but I know it's not my family or my close friends. Haha! Going with close friends more fun lar. =D

And Thursday, 6H's going to have mugging session!! Hopefully, it's effective. Haha! I scared we may end up talking nonsense. But ok lar, I'm quite sure our determination should be quite good since there's movie after studying~ So it's sort of like reward. =D

Eyes Open - Taylor Swift

[ Keep your feet ready
Heartbeat steady
Keep your eyes open
Keep your aim locked
The night grows dark
Keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting, for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching, to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your e-eyes open ]

Eyes Open - Taylor Swift

This song is nicer than Safe and Sound! The lyrics to the song is really good. HUNGER GAMES!! I want to read the books!!

Kamin came over to my house to study today! Haha! Ok, I kinda made her do it but oh well, I have been going Jurong a lot so yes! Bukit Panjang is a nice place. =D Talked for quite long while studying. Heh. But we really did study. =D And then there's ants attack. Haha! I swear my house's ants are freaky.

Went for ACCO concert yesterday to support Jiawan! The concert was quite nice ba! K-Pop medley had nice songs like Haru Haru and Sorry Sorry. Haha! Haru Haru on CO is surprisingly nice. =D

Yifan is annoying tall lar!!

Met up with Qiaofen, Puiling and Jiesi on Saturday! We just sat at Mos Burger and talked for super long. Miss them loads man. We really have so much stuffs to tell each other about. Lol! And meeting them always felt good. =D Though we were all in a lazy mood to take photos so no photos this time. Haha! Only Jiesi wanted to take photo. Forever one. But yes! We should go out soon!

Went for this Youth Entrepreneurship Symposium (YES) last Wednesday to Friday! Learned quite a few stuffs and get to hear a lot of entrepreneurs share about their stories and all. Quite inspiring. But lol, I don't think I'm cut out to be an entrepreneur. Haha! But yes! It's still a good experience. And meeting Eunice and YL for breakfast at Clementi mall at 7.15am in the morning. Though, the time got pushed back on Thursday and Friday, and I didn't exactly ate with them on those 2 days. Haha!

All of us wearing nice stuffs~ Got to see Eunice in her dress!! HAHA! So it's still quite worth it. But this girl really super anyhow one lar. Wear dress still anyhow walk all. Lol!

And the YES was actually more fun with them around. Haha! On the 2nd day, we were supposed to be mingling with entrepreneurs and other students. But we went to slack at a corner. Heh. And yes, we did many retarded stuffs then. Haha! And many ugly photos. Like really a lot man. Lol!

We all look like idiots here except Lingli. She cannot unglam face one lor! Even her unglam face also not as bad as ours. Haha!

And yep! New friends made! And the 2 facilitators had mutual friends with me. Haha! Super cool lar. The world really shrink when everyone split up from secondary school and went to JC/Poly. There's always a mutual friend kinda thing. Quite cool. =D

So yep! Those 3 days were quite interesting ba! Haha! Though heh, if 3 days combine to 1 day, it will be better. 'Cause really 3 whole days gone man.

One thing that I learned, ok, I learned more than one thing but this is more worthy of memory. There was these two entrepreneur who told us, "Don't plan for a back up plan. 'Cause by planning for a back up plan, you are actually saying that your initial plan will fail." So it kinda meant that if you have a plan, if you have a goal, focus on it and just work hard and reach for it. Don't think about what ifs and stuffs. I guess, that's what really makes them entrepreneurs. They are really willing to take the risk and really just focus on their dream and work towards them. I guess yea, the biggest takeaway from this symposium is hearing all these inspirational talks and stories from these really good entrepreneurs.

Aha, this week is going to be packed. =\ And it's already the 3rd week of holidays. I really am running out of time. But somehow, it's like I want to do work but I don't want also. There is just too many stuffs to do already. But yes, must really start on something at least or else I won't get moving. But ok lar, I think I'm not bad. I actually did some work for the past 2 weeks so not bad lar. Haha!

My King 2 Hearts!! And many random Korean variety shows. Seriously man. Watching those make me laugh like mad and brings up my mood. =D Though yes, sucks up my time too but at least I'm happy. =D

It Prey Love =D

June Hols started last week! Actually, it started on last last Wednesday 'cause my mid year papers end on Wednesday! =D Felt damn good after that though I kinda am prepared that I'll do badly for this time again. But yes, let's not talk about that now.

Anyway, so yep! We went to eat Strictly Pancakes after the exams!! =D It's damn good!!! Just that we realise we should have shared. Lol! 'cause the sweet kind can get very sick after awhile. First bite was awesome then it becomes very sweet after awhile. Feli, Eunice, YL and I were like dying towards the end 'cause we ordered the sweet one. Haha!

It looks damn awesome right!! =D Good food always makes people smile. =D

Went to walk around The Cathay and Plaza Sing after that! We played hide and seek with Eunice for awhile. Haha! It's so primary school but it's still damn funny 'cause it's Eunice. =D Super retarded lar. Haha! Went window shopping and went home after that!

On that Thursday I had GP consult with YL! We actually went to school at 9am for it. Lol! Mad one. Haha! But the consult was quite good so not bad ba! Went to take my harddisk and went Bugis Junction after that with YL to meet Lingli for shopping~! Haha! And gahhh I saw this quite nice shoes from Top Shop. It's damn unique and I need shoes. =( Ok, not really but I want. But yea lar, I need bag first. =\

Anyway, so yep! Shop around, there wasn't anything much for YL and me but loads for Lingli. Haha! And we went to Cotton On after that and we were there for super longer trying super load of clothes. =D Ultimately, Cotton On still the most shiok place to shop when there are stuffs to buy. =D We all went home with stuffs! Haha!

Went to meet/fetch Faeqa from her school! Haha! I'm saying until she like some kid. Anyway, so yep! Met her from her school and we went back to Bukit Panjang! Met Feli Sim aft damn long. She is damn slow lar I swear. Tsk tsk. So talked for damn long. And aft Faeqa went home, Feli and I continued to talk for super long. Haha! Surprising how we have so many million stuffs to talk about even though we see each other in sch everyday. Forever one lar we. =D But it felt damn nice to talk. Haha! And YA!!! This girl is mad lar! The next day she still had Lit paper. I forgot about it and she said when we were going home. Mad one lar she.

Friday I had lunch with Weiying~ And she began to plan her June hols revision schedule since she still has exams after June hols. Ok, technically everyone has exams after June hols. It's just AC. Lol. But ya, she took forever to plan finish while I did some stuffs. Haha! Yes I'm hardworking! Ok, that's a lie. Anyway, saw Xiaowen at plaza! Haha! Still the same blur girl as ever. Haha! She lost her phone lar! Super sad. But somehow, it's still very typical of her. =D

Had tuition at Nisa's place on Saturday! Same drilling and stuffs. Went to get stationaries after that! Supposed to go with Weiying and Faeqa but Weiying was lazy to go out and Faeqa can't. Sheesh. Met Faeqa after that so that she could pass me my harddisk with all the nice videos and shows inside. =DDDD

And yes, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, I spent my time watching The King 2 Hearts. =D I really chiong finish the show man. First time. Usually I'll take it slow and talk about a week or more to finish watching a show. But this time I just chiong all episodes. It's really good lar. Haha!

Bailamos on Wednesday~ Met Sweden and Nisa for dinner at Jurong Point first before we went. Technically, we went there to get stuffs for the dancers and took away our dinner 'cause we didn't want to be late for it. Lol!

The concert was good!! AC dancers are good. =D I guess the money was worth it! Anyway, it's all to support my friends. Haha! Got chocolates for the guys and gave Feli a sunflower seed and flower. Haha! She demanded sunflower from me what. Ok, I'm freaking lame but oh well, Sweden got her sunflowers anyway. =D

The dancers~ So proud of them lar! All 3 of them had no dance background what so ever in primary or secondary school. But they really improve a lot . =D

The monkey!! Faeqa wanted to scream her name so badly during the concert. Haha! Damn retarded. And wah, when Nisa and Faeqa came together, it's freaking annoying I swear. They are damn mad!! It's like they themselves are annoying. When they are together, it's like times 100 annoyance. Tsk tsk.

 

Sharon!! She's super good!! Haha! And easy to spot her 'cause she's tall. =D But her dance really is super nice to watch. =D

Aha, the 2 of them cried when they came down lar. Super funny. I think 'cause it was really a good performance. It's their last concert already! But yes, they really did a good job. =D

Studied with Puiling on Friday! She was late as usual. Tsk. Went to school to get history notes before that. The notes are freaking thick. =\ And yes, I need to read it. Gah, times like these makes me regret taking History. But yes, I still like it. =D And I'm really glad that I took these subjects 'cause I really gain a lot from them. =D So yep! Went JP to meet Puiling! Studied quite a bit here and there and we were both super tired after awhile. Lol! She went to library to continue studying while I went home. She's super hardcore! But she really needs to study. Her exams is after June Hols and quite worried for her but I believe she can do it!

GP tuition on Saturday! We did our work! =D For like the first time in a long time. Haha! We damn horrible lar. And ya!! YouTube can kill. Suddenly, I found a lot of funny Korean variety videos and you'll just keep linking from one to another and it's non stop man. Damn annoying. But ok, they are funny videos so it's fine. At least they make me laugh like mad. =D

Met Faeqa and Weiying for lunch at Greenridge! Haha! Meeting them quite a lot this hols but it's really during hols when we can actually meet up, even if it's for studying, it's still good. =D And we really study! Quite proud of ourselves. Haha! I mean we got talk nonsense all once in awhile, spazz over Korean stuffs =D but we still studied! So it's good. Haha! And we annoy each other so much man. Lol! Super retarded. Or rather, they annoy me. Sheesh.

Went to Kent Ridge Park with my grandma, parents and sister on Sunday! Haha! It's super random but it's nice! Just that erm, Kent Ridge Park is quite a boring place to take photos. For me lar. It's really trees and more trees. But I really really really need to spam photos soon. It's been so freaking long since I spam photos. Even if it's nonsense. Lol! I need outings! I really want to just spam photos of people. It's damn fun and I miss it! =(

Yesterday, went to Sweden's house to "study". Haha! I WAS EARLIER BY 15 MINUTES!! Wahahahahaha, damn proud of myself. =D Feli was 2nd to reach too. HAH! We are no longer late ok, sheesh. So Feli, Junyuan, Sweden and I went to buy lunch and snacks and went up to Sweden's Aunt's house! We were eating lunch and watching random stuffs on the TV. Haha! Brendan and Jiesi came after that and they went to play card games all while I watched the TV 'cause I found Running Man!!!!!!!!! =DDD Freaking hilarious lar the show! Still love it. =D Laughed until I damn tired. And it's in Chinese sub too so I really had to focus on reading it. Lol! But seriously, it's freaking hilarious. =D

Played mahjong aft that and lucky I still sort of remembered how to play. =D Studied after that though we were all not in the mood to study already. Lol! We should have studied first then play lar! Nevermind, next time. =D

Anyway, so Feli, Sweden, Junyuan and I went to Enaq for dinner after that. Usual long talking sessions after that. Haha! Talked about all sorts of things in the world. Rubbish and proper talking. =D Felt good 'cause it had been a super long time since we last talked for a long. Haha! And LOL. There's a reason for my blog title. =D Junyuan thought "Eat. Pray. Love" was "It Prey Love". HAHA! Laughed until my stomach hurts damn lot. He damn smart. Super retarded lar! All sorts of nonsense always come out when we go eat at Enaq. =D

Had phone conversation with Faqea and Kenneth! For like 2hours plus. LOL! We damn horrible 'cause it was supposed to be to discuss about 6h gathering all, we ended up talking about everything else as usual. Haha! Digress super fast. =D But yea lar, I like long phone calls like these. Damn waste time but it's still nice to have such phone calls once in awhile. Though ya, we were talking and discussing stupid stuffs most of the time but oh well. =D

3 more weeks of June hols to go! I think I'm quite balanced ba. I studied and play too. =D So not bad. Haha!