Tuesday, 31 December 2013

counting stars

Let's continue with the important people in my life in 2013. Haha! Many photos are going to come up so yep. =D

Ok this photo is kinda my favourite photo of this year. HAHA! But no leh, this year really got too many awesome photos already. Heh. =D

But yes, these 4 crazy women are kinda important like crazy now. Ok all along in my life, they have been very important. Haha! I was reading back my birthday letters and cards that day and realised how yea, they are really hell of the important people in my life. Ok Swap sucks at writing nice letters so it's ok. HAHA! But yep, our friendship is rather strange but one of the best. We never show any affection to each other face to face because it's way to gay. We tried before but we wanted to die. HAHA! But yea, WE ARE EACH OTHER'S ONLY FRIENDS. HAHA! Our social circle is only this big. =D Haha!

Heh. Another favourite photo of the year. =) Seriously miss chalet with these people. Or actually just sitting around and talking about nothing. And hearing random stories here and there. And making unnecessary comments and hating on each other. HAHA! With the guys in army and the girls in uni, it's really crazy hard to meet up. I think the last time we had a somewhat more complete meet up was in July? Yep, it's that long. And I thought today I can finally meet up with more of them but nope, army is annoying. But it's ok!! We'll meet up someday soon again. Haha! Hopefully ba! Some weekend when everyone is free. Must like book in advance all. CNY!!! They better reply me or else I'll really rage crazy. But yes anyway, hate and love these humans. =)

I just love taking photos with them 'cause we all have this scary similar looking smiles and we all look really happy somehow. Haha! Probably 'cause all our smiles kinda reach our eyes. =D

My favourite and only Agents around. Haha! We met up lesser this year but every time we meet up, it's still kinda awesome. And just talk and catch up with each other's life even though we usually meet for a short while. Super long since we actually go out for one full day. But it's okay actually. A simple Enaq is enough for us. =)

Travelling to Tampines every 18th Jan has become a yearly affair. HAHA! Love these girls a lot and love how we are almost always so lazy to do anything and will just sit somewhere to talk about everything. Haha! Super long since we went out went out too. We need to be less lazy and really go explore some random cafe places one day. Haha!

 The girls who are stuck in my life forever and ever. They are like my stalkers who follow me to the same school every single time. Heh. But yes yes my favourite stalkers anyway. =D Really cool how fate just keeps bringing us together. Haha! I think the coolest part is really how we never discuss and say to go to the same school together. It's always just so happen that we are in the same school again. =)

People who I'm going to countdown to New Year with. Haha! Minus Brendan plus Darren. =D

HAHA! Posting these 4 photos 'cause I think it's the only 4 times this year where we can sort of considered it to be gathering? HAHA! Ok yes, this year, we didn't really have a proper 4E1 gathering 'cause erm, Haziq and I got lazy. And everyone got busier too so it's harder. And yea, not that I can't be bothered but I'm lazy. Haha! Next year June maybe? Or CNY! Ok CNY confirm will have lar. It's a tradition thing already. Haha! But yep, still thankful for these secondary school friends. =D

Friends who I can find if I want to do very random stuffs like Colour Run and cycling and Aquarium. HAHA! And also my Movie gang: Jeslynn, Haziq and Ben Lee. We should really take a proper photo of the 4 of us someday. Haha! We watched like ten thousand movies since the group was created. Shouldn't have named it movie 'cause we really meet up for movie every single time. Lol! Not that I'm complaining 'cause I finally have friends to watch almost every single movie with me. HAHA!

And yep, Nisa the annoying woman. Haha! Who I find if I need to bake and run. =D Though ok, we stop doing both things. Or rather, we are easily lazy. Haha! But yes, honestly quite strange not having her around in school too. =\ She is my complain buddy in AC. Haha! But yep! I'm sure we'll both survive uni fine. And then all the random stuffs we do when we are crazy and bored too. Haha!

My daughter~ Haha! Still quite funny how we continue on with this father-daughter thing at times. =D But yep! Quite proud of her this year with all that she had done. And how yea, she is really learning hard to not get pushed down easily and stand up strong. Even though she faced quite a lot of stuffs this year. And yes, really glad that she found a path to head towards. =)

Finally met up with these girls after 2 years!!! =D Really quite nice to finally see them and all. Too long since we last met but some feelings just don't change? Haha! Really happy to see all of them. =)

Hehe. I think we really do very weird stuffs when we are together. And distract each other from studying sometimes. BUT I think we are still able to study together at times. How we have each other around to talk nonsense when we take a break from studying. Haha! Or play monkey bars. WAH CHEE. And many other random stuffs lar. LOL!

And of course, awesome Korea trip with them. =D Sim sucks. Haha! But yes! Next grad trip, must be all 6 of us. =D But yep, I really love how we do damn crazy lot of nonsense together sometimes. Haha! When we get a little crazy. And forgot that we are in Singapore and in Jurong where people may actually see us again. Lol! We can be quite embarrassing together but we still do the weird things nonetheless. =D

Photog Exco!! Haha! Probably the last time we're meeting up in a long while. But yep! They are still people who I know I'll still want to meet up with for a short catch up with each other and stuffs. =)

Damn, didn't get to meet the Yunnan people this year. Lol! Ok we were supposed to meet before school starts but somehow other plans got in the way. But yep, they are people I hope I can keep in contact with too!

New friends new friends!


I made more new friends than this but I guess these are probably some of the new friends that I have a higher chance of keeping in contact with. Haha! The rest are most probably going to be hi-bye friends? Lol! Maybe I really ought to make more new friends in uni. HAHA! 

Ok lar, there are more people than this. LOL! Just that some I didn't take photos with them. Haha! But yep, these are some of the more important people who made year 1 semester 1 better. And my other group mates too. Haha!

  
My family! Yep, always the most important people in my life. We don't usually take photos together so these are the rare times. Haha!

Ok! I think that's about it for 2013. Lol! It actually really doesn't feel like it's the last day of the year. Probably 'cause I'm at home and not out with those people. =( But ok, I'm going out to meet some of them now so it's all good. =D HAHA! 

And yes, I realise my eyes are really just non existence from majority of the photos. Tsk. IT'S OK! Me smiling without eyes makes me me.

two zero one three

This year is kinda full of photos. Lol! With more activities and stuffs since A Levels was over and we are all very free. And that awesome, awesome, awesome 7 to 8 months. And and too many favourite photos of the year. LOL! Usually, there will be one but I can't really decide which ones I like more 'cause there's really too many nice photos. Haha!

So first half of the year. Or rather, life up until university started. Haha! First job experience, first time driving a car, first overseas trip without any adults' supervision,  first time dying my hair, first time going USS, first time donating blood, first time paying money to run/walk/have colour flour thrown at you, first time going for actual POP, first time being someone's date for some event, first time trying to bake something alone, first time staying out until 2am plus just to talk. I realise, there really are too many first times this year. And I'm not including life after university started. That's kinda cool. Haha!

I guess those 7 months were really pretty awesome. Haha! Ups and downs and stuffs. But all in all quite alright. I think I shall just go by months already. LOL! I'm trying to figure out how to go about doing this but it's really hard to make it generic because yea, too many things happened. And yes, I'll bring the photos along too!

January  

Chalet with my favourite people. =)) This would most likely be our last chalet in a long long time. Probably next chalet would be after the guys all ORD-ed. And hopefully the girls are somehow free too. But yea, kinda my favourite chalet actually. We actually HTHT for the first time ever and it was kinda nice. And yes, building sandcastles too. HAHA! We honestly do quite strange yet fun stuffs together.

Hair Chalk!! Something we greatly regretted. LOL! Something we wanted to try so much before As ended and got all excited and stuffs but it all turned out to be great disappointment. Haha! But oh well, still kinda fun yet frustrating and very very messy. But yes, adding them colour on my hair. Only to wash it off less than a few hours after.


FIRST GRAD TRIP!! =D And erm 5 of us were squeezing in that unstable basket. Jiesi didn't want to risk her life. Haha! But yea, felt kinda nice to just go overseas with your friends though Bangkok is more of a shopping place than a holiday place. Haha! We tried to go to some museum but failed. But yep, still had a great time with them. Pretty annoying people but yea, still love them. Haha!

First time going USS to play. Actually, first time going USS ever. Haha! Yes, I wanted to go ever since it opened in 2009 but never got the chance to until 4 years later. Lol! Had a great time with them though. It's really like going there with a bunch of kids. HAHA! But yes, really had a crazy time even though I kinda just got back from Bangkok that early early morning. Lol! So yes, I was running on adrenaline to keep me going the whole day. A little crazy but still fun. Heh.

First job experience!! Had my first job training on 14th Jan. Junyuan also had training the same time as me so I had a friend. Haha! Though he quit like after that week of training. Tsk. But ok lar, it's honestly not the kind of job he will like anyway. More about my job experience later~


Really lucky 19 year old girl, blessed with really incredible friends who are very free. HAHA! Yes you all are honestly very incredible. To come to my house at like freaking 12am just to surprise me, to wake up early at 8am just to cook for me, to plan all these stuffs even though 19 is a really insignificant year to celebrate but you guys did it anyway. Haha! So yes thankyou. Still really grateful to all of you. =)

You know, I think I cannot continue doing this month by month thing. Lol! There is honestly just too many things that happened. And I want to explain them all but it's really too much. So I'll just stop at January because it's my favourite month. =D

And actually, most of the more significant events from this year I've already mentioned them in previous posts. To some extend. Haha! But ok, here's a more detailed summary-ish I guess?

In those 7 months, I learnt driving and got my license at the first try. HAHA! Yes, I'm kinda proud of it even though many people do it too but yea, first person to get the license out of all my primary and secondary school friends. =D Yes, that, you have to boast. Heh. Not that I've drove them around before but oh well, it's still quite an achievement.

Yes, terribly proud of this piece of paper. =D

Got the A levels results which kinda sucked. Shall not mentioned those unpleasant parts but yea you kinda realised how important your mum is in times like these and how she is honestly the superhero of my life. Haha! So it all seems kinda bleak but with God's grace, SMU accepted me and yea, that day was kinda awesome 'cause I got my license too. So it was kinda one of the most magical day of my life? The day where I honestly felt so surreal and so thankful for just everything. How everything just some how falls in place. Even though that past two weeks had been kinda horrible with 2 rejections from NUS and NTU, that day really just made up for everything.


And this screenshot. HAHA!

2 grad trip with my 2 different groups of people. =D Kinda awesome. Haha! Bangkok one I think I paid for the air tickets and accommodation but my parents gave me money to spend there. Korea Trip was one that I paid for everything with my own money. From all the savings and working. Yea, somehow, I actually really earned quite a lot from my work at USS. Heh. So yep, it was kinda awesome. And it's honestly quite nice to go overseas using your own money 'cause you know you earned it so you don't feel bad. 

Both trips were honestly so awesome. Korea Trip felt more like a grad trip 'cause it's Korea. Heh. It's just kinda awesome 'cause it was something that we talked about ever since start of J2? I can't really remember when but we were quite dead on about it, though we know that we may not be able to go through with it, but we all still want it so badly. Haha! It's a confusing feeling actually. Like I know I really want to go Korea with them, but I know that there's a chance we may not be able to go. But I still want to. HAHA! Conflicting ah. BUT YES!! One night, we did it. We booked the tickets. Haha! Or rather, Sharon booked them. And and we were all crazy excited and nervous at home. I remember feeling this really super excited feeling at home. Going crazy when Sharon sent us the photo of the confirmation thing, which I still kept. HAHA! Stuffs like that are worth keeping.

So since the air tickets were booked, die die must go already right? Heh. So yep! We went on with planning our trip. It's honestly so fun to plan 'cause ok lar, I think I really kinda like planning stuffs like that. Lol! The itinerary and all that. Especially when it's a place where you've never been before and always wanted to go.

And so we went to KOREAAAA. Hehe. Had a really awesome awesome time with them. And we navigated to every place by ourselves. It's kinda amazing really. Heh. And it' so easy somehow. Ok, Seoul is honestly really easy to navigate around. It's quite similar to Singapore, just that you are overseas so everything is just cooler and nicer. And yes, Seoul is bigger. Haha! And I really want to go back again. It's the kind of country where you can go back a million times and still will want to go back again. Ok, that's me to everywhere in the world but that's a whole other thing.

Too many awesome photos from Korea already. =D This one, we are just too cute. Heh. 

Anyway, something I did realise about this girls is that we will really do stuffs. Haha! Like though at some point of time, we almost didn't go and almost didn't have a grad trip with them at all. But in the end we did. And yes, recently, we said that at some point in our lives, we must go on a road trip together. Road trip around either Australia or New Zealand. Maybe not anytime soon because we really are students now and kinda have zero income yet still having to pay for many stuffs. But yes, somehow, we must really save up like crazy and make this happen. To be true, I really honestly think that we can. That this road trip will happen because we are kinda awesome. And Sim must come with us too. Heh. And we have 4 drivers among us~ So yes!!! We can take turns. =D

Doing really random stuffs like selfie with Santa with these people. LOL!

Plus skydiving and bungee jumping!! I realise Eunice's year had been crazy amazing. But that's her life so yes. HAHA! Mine ain't that bad too. Just that hers is really woah. I so applaud her for all that she had done this year, like bungee jumping and diving until 50plus metres deep. I think she's kinda crazy but yes she's totally living it.

Anyway, so yes, next is my job experience! I know I still kinda owed a post about my job experience but I think I may not continue on with it. HAHA! Ok until when I really have to mood. But all in all, I really like my job at USS. At times it can be quite dull and it became a routine, but when some tourists talk to you and smile at you, it makes everything bad go away. And interacting with people is honestly quite fun. Especially kids. Heh. I have a few of my favourite kiddos. Ok few is an understatement. Some kids really just make my day. And some adults too. Haha! Tourists are always kinda cute and fun to talk to. LOL! And how it made me realise that I really do like to work in the tourism industry and stuffs. So maybe I'll look into it and yea, we'll see how it goes. HAHA! And jobs allow you to know more about yourself too.

Exclusive place in USS. =D

From my work, I realised that I can be quite impatient and in a hurry to complete and do stuffs. But some things need to be done slowly. And I need to be more flexible and able to multi-task. And just be fast. LOL! Yes, I can be really slow sometimes. Like the mind just doesn't click. But I guess it all comes with experiences and mistakes. I was quite lucky in a way that I got to experience some stuffs at work that doesn't usually happen. Haha! So yea, those are great learning points. But one thing I do know is that it's not a place to stay long in. Lol! As much as I do like it, it's the kind of temporary job that you do for awhile. But you know that you have to move on from it and find other stuffs. Maybe that's why the turnover rate there is quite high. But yes, I'm still glad that I've got that experience. And hey, I've actually managed to stay on for 6 months even though I wanted to try some other work initially. But yes, so glad that I stayed on 'cause this job allowed great flexible in schedule for me to complete my driving lessons and get my license. =D HAHA! It seems like everything boils down to this.

Going overseas with my dad for the first time! Though ok, it was Malaysia. Haha! And my mum and grandma and sister came to join us after that. But yep, it was still quite an experience? No connection to the world for about 4 days. Haha! And realise how I am so terribly dependent on wifi and stuffs. And finding my dad kinda annoying. HAHA! But yes, I realise I'm really a daddy's girl. No matter how much I get pissed off at my dad, he still kinda takes care of me a lot. And never get angry at me even though I was being a brat at times. Ok lar, he has 3 women in the house. 3 women who think quite similarly. So if he anger one, the other two will agree and yep, it's scary. HAHA! But ok lar, at times, my mum can be quite weird too. And my sister and yes probably me too. We are a very strange family who are equally stubborn and fight over the weirdest things like not drying our hair and toothpastes. But we still love each other nonetheless. Not like we have a choice. Haha! I kid. My strongest support system. People who will always look out for me no matter what. And yea, always take care of me because I am their baby. Sort of. Baby just sounds damn weird. Youngest also quite weird. Maknae lar. Sounds a lot nicer. =D

On top of some hill place in Penang. Haha! Probably that hill that is their only hill I think?

Blood donation! Haha! Ok, it's actually nothing much? Just that it was something I wanted to do since a long time ago. But because me weak with thinner and small veins, I couldn't donate last year when the blood donation drive went to AC. So this year I tried again because Sharon was going to donate. Haha! It's more of a I accompany her but still try my luck thing. And YES! I was really quite happy when they say I can. Haha! I think it's the kind of stuffs you know that you should do because it's good? Sounds kinda weird but you really feel good that your blood is able to help people? Like I don't really know how to say this but yea, it's just a good thing to do and everyone should do it. Lol! I suck at telling stuffs like that. But yes, blood saves lives and if you are good and healthy, why not do it?

 Lame photo but my first time so let me show off a bit. HAHA!

So dye-ing my hair was kinda a impulse thing. Haha! And probably a bit 'cause of A levels results. And erm Groupon. HAHA! Yes I saw some really cheap deals of it on Groupon and it kinda made me want to do it. I guess A levels really was this quite big factor in all my decisions somehow. LOL! Like after going through such a crazy exam, you just want to go out there and start living and just do as much things as you can. Ok things that you really want to do. Lol! I always wanted to do something to my hair since it really sucks. But I don't want to rebond or perm 'cause yes, I'm stubborn about not rebonding my hair. It's this weird moral/pride thing of mine. So the next thing I could think of was dye-ing it. And ok, I kinda want to re-dye again. it's kinda addictive. Haha! And yea, kinda cool to have colours in your hair. It makes your hair nicer somehow. LOL! Or so I believe. And even though the purple kinda failed, and can only be seen under sunlight, I still like it. And I love how it faded until it's really quite a nice colour now. Haha!

YES THAT'S MY HAIR I'M NOT JOKING

Ahahahaha, this is kinda funny 'cause I still think it's funny. Lol! But yes, still greatly honoured. Though it was a favour. Haha! Yes, I'm a good friend. =D But ok lar, it's really quite a rare experience. Something that I don't think I'll ever want to do again 'cause it's not say that fun. Haha! And it's troublesome. But yes, my dear friend here tried to make it as least awkward as possible. And yes, flowers and macaroons. HAHA!

Awkward photo but ok it's kinda funny. Haha!

Colour Run!! Haha! It's really one of the most fun stuffs I did this year. To yes have colours thrown at you. It's such a happy run though. Like you really feel happy the whole day. Lol! And yes, so glad that we decided to dress up. HAHA! Though it's just pirates' hats, they are still cool. And those awesome water guns. Yes, I am a kid who likes water guns. But it's a water gun for $2. You ought to be happy. Haha! It's still funny how we walked through the whole thing but we still felt crazy tired after that. Haha!

This photo is nice because it was edited. Haha! Okok, it's really a very nice photo where Jordan got like ten thousand likes for it on Insta. And he complained that no one was liking it initially 'cause Insta screwed up a bit that day. Probably too many people posting about Colour Run. Haha!

Ok my 7 months still have many more events and what not. But there's just too many things to say already so yea. Lol! I had a good long break. And so yes, it was about time I went back to school. Haha! After rotting this brain, 19th August was the first day of school. And I spent it with no other than Felicia Sim Xin Yi! HAHA!

This part is going to sound a little bit cheesy, but I realise how we are really stuck for life. And it's going to be so weird if we don't. Haha! Like somehow, we are just supposed to be in each others life like permanently, no matter where we go. It's so scary though. Lol! Like I thought I was going to shake her off in university when she got accepted into NTU and I didn't. Haha! Ok I kid. But yea, I really thought that this is going to be the first time we would be in different schools like finally. Ok, at that point of time, I didn't really think much 'cause I was pretty much preoccupied with my own university stuffs. But yea, somehow, we just ended up together in SMU again. HAHA! And the scariest part is how we got pre-assigned to the same class. PRE-ASSIGNED. Among like so freaking lot of people in SMU. And it just so happened to be our first ever class in SMU. Haha! Yep, scary as hell. But yes yes, I am very thankful. Haha! I was reading this useless card she made me for this year's birthday and she said how it's always nice to have a friend you can never get rid of. HAHA! Yes it sounds more like an insult but I get what she means. Haha! We are honestly like some old married couple but friend version. And yes, I won't steal her away from Sweden. It's not nice to be hated by a country. (Ok yes, my brain now is a bit screw loose so please bear with me.) ANYHOW, we are stuck for life and yes, we are accepting it. HAHA! Both secretly kinda happy but we won't ever really truly admit it 'cause it's too gross and gay.

Because we just don't take nice photos together

So first day of school had lunch with these 2 idiots. And guess what, on our final paper day, we spent it together as well! Haha! We are so gay but I'm crazy hell so thankful for these two of them. In life, you need friends who you can just call up when you need someone to accompany you for something or to accompany you for a short while. They are those friends to me. =D

WITH OUR 1 FOR 1 CAKE and Swap's free drink

So school life has been quite alright. I wasn't used to it at first but somewhere along, you realised that it's not too bad. And there are still nice people around. Project works can be a bitch but you deal with them? And yea, it will all turn out fine eventually. Maybe things could have been better and you could have done more but what's done is done and the only thing you can do is to learn from your mistakes and never to repeat them. And yes, work smart. In uni, the people around you have to have similar, if not even higher and better, callable than you. So if you don't work smart and work hard, you will loose out and you don't want that. Yes, it kinda sucks that university isn't easy like what we used to have an impression on. But yea, it's not all that hard too. Just keep going and things will get better eventually and you will meet nice people. Haha! I'm quite thankful that I've met pretty great people so far. Some weren't completely pleasant but at least they aren't bad people. Or scary people. Lol! So yes, I still believe in humanity. HAHA!

And I believe that you choose your friends. And yea, somehow you will know if they are good or bad. Lol! This vibe thing never goes wrong. And some people you can just click instantly while some you just can't even if you want to. So yep, I guess it's ok sometimes if you just can't click with certain people. Haha! You can't click with everyone in the world if not you will never have time alone for yourself ever. Lol!

 Heh. My favourite new friends that I've made this year. =D

OH RIGHT! I forgot about my 2 orientation groups. HAHA! Ok to be true, I'm really not that close to them. And it's kinda sad but actually, not really. LOL! Like I don't really feel much of a lost there but yea, they are nice people so that's good? Haha! Like I know nice people in school so that's not too bad. And there are some of them whom I can click with so yea, at least it's not completely zero. Haha! No lost, no lost.

Finals. Haha! That awesome awesome finals. Yea it sucked. Lol! And I only had 3 finals. Oh well, it's all over. I had good food to make me feel better after that so I'm alright now. Haha! Quite scary though 'cause for one, I really felt like killing myself after the paper. Ok, too drama. I really felt like what the hell. Like I can't even speak of it. But yes yes, it's all over. I didn't do completely bad for it. And my overall grade wasn't that bad so yes, thank you for other percentages of marks. Haha! But yes, this is truly a wake up call to up my game for the next semester. So yes, I kinda screwed up my first semester badly but I still have 7 more so it's not too late to work hard. And really study. Yep, things will be fine. Just don't let other stuffs distract you.

 This is an example of a food that makes life so much better instantly.

To be true, I'm kinda scared for the next semester. I really don't know what to expect and yea, I really hope I won't drown in studies. And that yea, I would be alright. And that I have some sort of talent for economics 'cause we're starting on our core modules already. Which I am glad but still kinda scared about. I hope that I still remember some stuffs from JC and that it's not all gone. Lol! But yes, that's I will leave it to next year to worry. Haha!

Anyway, yep, I realised I've come to the end of 2013. Haha! Somewhat. There are still so many freaking lots of things that happened that I haven't really typed about. So yea, probably I'll try to be more hardworking in blogging next year. But yea, sometimes I think it's not exactly necessary to blog about every single thing of your life because some stuffs you'll just always remember. And most of the time it's really more worth it to go out there and live instead of sitting in front of the laptop to type about what you had lived. Lol! And yes, continue to take photos because it honestly nice to look back and smile at the photos or look back to remember the day. Haha! Yes, sometimes, your brain really can't remember most stuffs and photos help to jolt back the memory. So yes, photos are still very much important. Though now it's more of selfies instead of proper photography. Lol!

I guess something that I realise that I really lacked in doing this year is with my photography. Some things in life, once you lost it, it's hard to find it again. It's quite sad but maybe it's just paving the way for something better to come along. And who knows, if it's worth it and if it's something crazy important to you, it may come back to you eventually. In ways that you will never expect. If it's meant to be, you will find it again. If it's not, don't see it as a lost too. And to be true, I think that one day, it will come back, I'm quite sure actually. Just that yea, I won't wait around for it to come back. I'll just live life as it is and even if my camera remains unused for a long time, it may not be a bad thing? New things, better things. Holga. HAHA! I really kinda love my friends for ever being so sporting with Holga even though they hate it. Haha! And how I always gave the excuse of needing to use up the film. Which is a valid excuse by the way. Just that erm, I will never stop buying films because I kinda like them. Lol! So I will always have to "waste my film". HAHA! I'm quite sly in a non-sly way. Lol! I think I'm really tired now so it's all just typing what I'm thinking.

Clear example of film wastage but it has 3 photos overlapping into one and yes, it's kinda cool. =D

Now it's time for important people in my life!

Which I shall leave it to later in the morning 'cause I'm kinda really quite tired and lazy to like find photos and come up with more words. And lol, I realise I got naggier and naggier with my so called summary as I continued on. I really am super naggy.

Sunday, 29 December 2013

growing up


I realise growing up doesn't mean you have to stop having fun. You can still do silly things and really random stuffs. But you think differently and I guess you'll be more mature. And that's growing up I guess. To understand more about life as it is. And not just the shallow part of life. You can still act all childish and have fun. Growing up doesn't mean you stop having fun. It's just you having a different mindset.

Maturity in thoughts but heart still young. It's okay to play once in awhile. It's okay to act all foolish. But you need to learn how to prioritise and make right decisions. I guess that's what growing up means? I'm still not sure exactly but if that's what growing up means then I think I'm alright with that. Haha!

You know, I guess it really depends on how you see things. How you define and view them. And everyone's way of perceiving something is different. But as long as you know what how you yourself view them, and you live by it, that's really enough.

Growing up means having to take up more responsibilities with your own life. Having the ability to control your own life and make the most out of it. You can still have fun, you can still play. As long as that's what you really want to do. Sing if you want. Dance if you want. Do whatever that you want. But know what you are doing and yea, that's probably what growing up means. Being responsible for yourself. Because your parents can't always be around to tell you what is right and what is wrong. You make that decision yourself. Of course, you still have to consult them and stuffs, but ultimately, the decision-making lies with you.

I'm quite thankful that that's my parents' mentality since young. They let us choose what path we want to do. They will advise and help us. But ultimately, they will say that the decision lies with you. And they will support whatever decision you make all the way. And it's often always true. I realise I have really supportive parents. So crazy thankful for. And yea, I realise I really do have an easy childhood in a sense that my parents really never force anything on me. They let me decided and choose for myself. And yep, I think they do make good parents. Annoying and naggy at times, but if parents aren't naggy and annoying, they aren't parents. Haha!

Wow, I really have strange good inspirations in the morning. Haha! Probably should wake up earlier more often. It's kinda good.

all grown up


20 years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.
 
- Mark Twain
 
Haha! I feel like this proud older sister now. Read this really good reflection about 2013 from my friend and you can really see how people really just grow up. And somehow, you can't help feeling proud. To have a friend like that. That you can proudly say to everyone, "That's my friend there." HAHA! Primary school friend some more. Heh. =D

But yea, what he wrote really struck me, and I think almost everyone because 2013 has really been a year of change. So many changes happened, changes that we are so unfamiliar with. But the only thing we can do is to adapt and adjust to the changes. We can't wallow in our sorrows for the changes. Because yea, change is the only constant. Change will always happen and we can't let it push us down every single time it happened. I think everyone can somewhat relate to what he wrote. Though his is the army path but it's still changes nonetheless.

Somewhat inspired by him now. Haha! Still feel so proud. It's honestly kinda cool. To know someone ever since you were 9 years old (which was 10 years ago by the way) and seeing how much he grew. Haha! I guess it's cool 'cause you can see the transition through the years because we are cool enough to stay in contact after all these years. Haha! Still miss all them idiots. Especially this boy in UK. But yep!! Soon soon I hope. Really kinda miss our big groups. Having at least 10 people together. Ok, we are only 10plus people altogether but you get what I mean.

I really miss going out in big groups. Not that I don't like small groups. But in big groups, you feel very proud? HAHA! Like even though together you are crazy and mad noisy and everyone is just staring at you. But you have this feeling that they are staring because they are jealous? HAHA! Yes yes. Me and my weird proud issues. But yea, it really feels nice. Like see here, all my friends are here. Haha! And you laugh a lot somehow. Because in big groups, there will always be someone or some people who will do something really stupid and weird and you will laugh until you want to die. In big groups, you don't usually talk the deep stuffs much but you know that you really enjoy each others' company and that's enough. Laughing together and doing really random shits together. Yea, I really miss that. Like even walking can be fun.

You know, I realise that actually I do really learn a lot from this boy. Haha! His thoughts are just somehow very clear. Well, most of the time. Unless he becomes a butterfly. HAHA! But yea, it's quite nice to see someone your age, who is also your friend, to be clear of what kind of future he wants. Like even though there are changes along the way, he embraced them and readjust his route. He never was really lost? Even if he was lost, it's only momentary. Then he will somehow get his footing again and find his way. It's quite impressive to be true. And it's nice to see someone like that in your life? Someone who you can actually talk to and not like some inspirational speaker or something. Haha! Like someone very much down to earth I guess?

One thing he said that struck me before was "Don't find a job that you love, love the job that you do." Or something along that lines. Haha! But he really does give quite good advices. Sometimes, you really can't believe that he's 19 years old too. Haha! He's actually younger than me some more. Lol! But ok, we kinda did established that he's quite an old man for his age. Haha! But yes, still very proud of this old man. Sigh, the only guy who bothers. Haha! Really hope he is surviving well in UK too. But I'm quite sure he is 'cause it's freaking United Kingdom. So so jealous of him.

I really hope that someday, we can really all travel overseas together. Haha! Ok lar, right now, I really just want to meet up with all of them. It's really hard though. But ok, I won't give up texting and calling them people if need be. Such annoying people but I still want to meet them.

"But I guess I chose to write this as a reminder that I'm going to experience plenty of changes here on. It's not school anymore, but it doesn't have to be a bad thing."

Saturday, 28 December 2013

expectations, lower them


Living for the small things. Yea, that's really enough right? But why do I feel like wanting more than small things sometimes? And have expectations on people when you know that you shouldn't because the only one affected from these expectations is yourself. So why do this to yourself? When honestly, you can really don't.

To be true, I really have no idea why I'm suddenly feeling like this. Lol! I think my mind is honestly quite a strange place to be in. The thoughts are thrown all over the place. And I'm never sure of what exactly I want. What the hell I am expecting from people around me. What I am expecting of myself.

They say that the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. I don't know who they are, but they are kinda right sometimes. But the thing here is, I don't even know what the expectations are. Why the heck you are feeling this disappointment about. I just know that I'm somehow greatly affected by something. And maybe I do know why. But part of me doesn't want to open that up. It's like this Pandora's Box. You don't know what might happen if you open it up and gets you all confused, so you just don't open it. Because you know that what's inside may not be good for you.

And yea, maybe it's really the times when you least expected. These are the times that truly matters. Something simple and small. Something spontaneous and unplanned. Yea, those are usually the best. Spontaneous. I kinda like spontaneous. Because if you bother, you bother. If you don't, you don't. It's quite simple. If you are lazy, you are. But sometimes, you will get passed the laziness and do stuffs because they are worth it and you know it. And ok, also if you are free at that moment. Haha! But yea, I still kinda like spontaneous. When plans are made just a day before or even a few hours before.

Because then, you don't have expectations on anyone or anything. It's just right on the spot. Plans are made there and then. I guess, I just miss being able to do things spontaneously. I kinda still can. Just that sometimes, people are really not free. That's why yea, it kinda sucks. This time thing.

Small things in life. Yea, I think they are enough to last you through a long time. Shouldn't be that hard. And yea, it's the simple things that make you smile. You don't need a grand affair to be happy. All that fancy shit.

And it's really quite amazing how some songs can really cheer you up after listening to them.

Friday, 27 December 2013

hold on for one more day

[ Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on for one more day
Things will go your way
Hold on for one more day ]
Hold On - Wilson Phillips

Haha! Found this song after watching Bridesmaids. It's the kind of classic song that everyone can sing along to even though they hear the song for the first time.

I miss singing so much. LOL! As in seriously singing to the very core. Had singing sessions twice so far. Heh. Felt damn  good after that. Haha! Singing really makes your day better somehow. =D

Anyway, I think I shall start on 2013 reflection stuffs. HAHA! Even though I haven't post many other stuffs too. But ok, I'll do it tomorrow maybe. Haha! I realise I spent whole of yesterday just watching shows and movies and play games. Wah I need to stop playing games. Like seriously. Because it's the holidays and because I started playing them when I was in Malaysia for a day without wifi and stuffs, I continued to play. But ok I guess when school starts, I will stop. Ain't nobody got time for games.

ANYWAY. So 2013 was really a crazy happening year. And fun year and nice year. With ups and downs too. Too many things happened already actually but I guess mostly are good stuffs. And I learnt quite a lot? It's a strange year though. It's kinda the year where you have to learn to adapt and try out new stuffs. New environment, new people. First times.

But yep, it's quite a good year? Just that there are times where you just really wish you can go back to days when things were simpler. And you miss people a lot. Ok, I miss people a lot. LOL! Actually, ok I miss people ever since university started because yea, not the same people anymore. It's all new and unfamiliar. But yep, you learn, you adapt and get used to it. And of course, making new friends. Quite glad for some new friends I made this year because they are kinda awesome. Haha! But one thing about these friendships now are that you are really not very sure if it will last for a long time? Because university life is honestly very busy. What spare time you have, you'll rather spend it with people you want to see more or people you haven't see for a long time. And also your family as well. Oh man, I really hope my family can go on a holiday together next year. Super long since we travelled to somewhere together as a family. Malaysia not counted.

I guess this university life, I'll get used to it. I have to anyway. 7 more semesters to go. Haha! But honestly, it's quite fast if you think about it. And when you count by summer breaks because we'll only have 3 summer breaks. I just really hope I won't waste away my days like this winter break. Ok, I don't think I've wasted this winter break. I really needed some time to just relax a bit because this sem had been quite hard. Not exactly but yea lar, after rotting for 8 months, it's hard. Haha! 

So 2013, is a strange year. Haha! I guess it's a year when you start to realise that you really are growing up. And how life is going to get busier from now on. How time is so limited and how you really want to do so much but there is just this time there that limits many things. But of course, you also learn who are the important people in your life. Who are worth the keeps and worth every minute of the time and you know that they will always be there for you even at the lowest point of your life. Going out there to make new friends and to get out of that little comfort zone of yours. Forcing yourself to speak up, learning more about myself and really growing I guess. Adapting and changing for the better. Because yes, you realise that if you don't change, you will be stuck at status quo and nothing good will come out of it. Change as in doesn't mean you have to be a different person. Just be a better person who stays true to who you are and what your values and principals are.

I guess, yea, that makes a better summary of 2013. HAHA! And I guess pushing yourself to do stuffs. To take up some form of responsibilities without having adults around to guide and help us because we are the adults now. And also knowing when to have fun and when to get things done. When to let go and when to hold on. How sometimes things may not always go the way you want it to, but it never goes very wrong way and yea, how it will always get better.

There are still many uncertainties in my life right now. But I guess, some day, it will all be clear again. And yea, from then on, life will get better. Of course, there will always be times when life gets down and makes you feel like giving up. But we are really better than all the failures and upsets.

Hold on. Yep. Holding on to whatever time you have and really just live because life is freaking hell short and you'll never know what's going to happen. What you don't ever want to do in life is to look back and say, "Ah, I should have done this or that." Living in the moment. I guess, I've kinda learned that after A Levels ended? LOL! As slow as it sounds. I used to be quite passive and nonchalant. Like I honestly was given quite a few opportunities but I didn't really make the full use out of it? Like I could have done more but I didn't. But yep! No more of that useless Yi Fang already. Haha!

And to be honest, sometimes I really forget how lucky I am and should be more thankful at times. Lol! As in really. This year also made me realise that I really need to be more thankful and not take things are granted. Because yea, some things are really really really hard to come by and I should be very thankful for them. I am. Just that at times, you forget about it.

Alright! I'll post next time of the important people in my life again~ Haha! It's like a must have. But wah, there really is too much to post this year. Too many things that happened.

Wednesday, 25 December 2013

silent night, holy night



YAYYYYYY IT'S CHRISTMAS~ Haha! Ok my family doesn't really celebrate Christmas. Though we used to when we were younger. With the Christmas tree all and presents. And my sister and I would actually really prepare cookies and milk for "Santa'. But yes lar, we never really believed in Santa. It's just something that we do every Christmas. Haha!

But yep, as we grew older, and the plastic Christmas tree became quite old and spoiled, we just stop? It's kinda sad though. How we outgrew stuffs like that. One thing I really don't want right now is to grow up. It's really not that worth looking forward to? Having to really get your life straight and figuring things out. But ok let's leave these to another post. Haha!

Anyway, yep! Christmas is still a nice festivial 'cause it's happy and nice. And the songs are nice too. Haha! Where you can really just sing them out of random and everyone knows the lyircs to them. =D

This Christmas, I spent time with my family. And erm sleeping. HAHA! Ok, at least I countdown to Christmas with people. HAHA! And ok, it's funny why we even bother to countdown but since Jeslynn wanted, we are nice people. Haha! But it's kinda nice to really spend Christmas with my family. Been a while since we really sit in front of the TV together and stuffs. And yes, I helped my mum cleaned up the house too. Quite a boring Christmas but it's ok~

Tmr shall be a day where I'll do what I need to do for my blog. LOL! And and many other stuffs that I haven't do yet. Sigh. I feel like not doing anything and watch shows all day. But okok, I shouldn't.

MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~~

Saturday, 21 December 2013

I'll Be There For You

Still the best show ever created. It's like I can really never get sick of any of the episodes even thouhg I've watched them before. Never fails to make my day or make me smile. Always the show to cheer me up. Haha!

First time I'm watching it from the start to the end. Last time I've only watch random episodes here and there. Haha! But wah it's seriously the best show ever. The last episode really killed me. Like you can feel their sadness also. 10 years sia. No joke.

[ No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah ]

I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts

Sigh. Feel so strange to finally finish watching though. Haha! But yes, it's really the kind of shows that I'll confirm rewatch forever and ever. HAHA! And I don't think I'll ever get sick of it. It's really too damn awesome. Their friendship is so freaking unique.


HAHA! I love this a lot. =D They are all really so awesome. I think I'm quite crazy with emotions here but really, they are damn awesome. I feel like watching it again. =( Really cannot get sick of it one. Old shows are still gold.

Alright alright, I think I really need to go sleep. Lol! Technically, it's not very late but I think I shouldn't wake up too late regularly.

Overall, Friends is just awesome. Watch it if you haven't. Like seriously man. Don't even need to watch from start to end. Just any one. Ok, I think I'm quite biased but oh well. I really love it. Haha!