D-Day

So tmr is the big day. Finally the day where we see what those two years of JC had become of. Those intense mugging session. My many eac trips and many drinks so that I can study and all. Starbucks and everything. I really hope they were all worth it. All that complaining and sleepless nights. All that cramming in the brain. History geography everything. I really hope that they were all worth it.

I guess what matters is that you went through this phase of life. You made it through it. You learned so much from it. And you grow up from it. You may not get what you want. But at least you survived through that phase of your life and when you look back, you will realise how much you have grown from it. Yes, what happens tmr, no one knows. Ok probably our teachers may know. But whatever results we do get, just remember that grades doesn't mean everything. Honestly. Yes. You can still grieve and feel sad. I'm not saying to be happy even if you are sad inside. That's just unhealthy. But don't dwell in the sadness because only you can get yourself out of it. Yes, be sad. Be happy. Just know that you still have to carry on with life. Because life doesn't stop after you get your results. It continues to go on. So yes, you can be sad but know when you should come out of it because after that, you have to really keep your life and your future right. And plan. And be clear of what you want. It's hard. I'm not saying it's going to be easy. But we sure hell still have to do that because yes, life doesn't stop.

I am scared. When I think abt it, I just get goosebumps. My heart rate just increases. And when I received the text from Mr Phang, I was touched but I wanted to tear at the same time. Because I really want to do well for him as well. Of course, I want to do well for myself the most. Then my parents. My family. And then of course all my friends and teachers. People who have faith in me. I really don't want to let people down. I don't want to let myself down. I really really don't want to feel the feeling I felt after I got back my PSLE results. Yes. That was 6years ago, times are different, I am different now from when I was 12. But I still remembered how bad the feeling was when I saw my score. I really don't want to feel that. I cannot.

But yes, I know that no matter what, I have my parents with me. Not physically but they will always be with me. Sucks though that my mum won't be at home tmr night. But it may be a good thing as well. Gah. I really really want to be happy tmr. Or at least satisfied with what I have.

And seriously, my mum always knows the right words to say/the right words to make me cry. So I will text her tmr instead of calling. Haha!

I really hate myself sometimes for being so optimistic. I guess it's a good and bad thing. And it can be annoying. Because yes, sometimes, things really just don't seems to be alright at all. But it really always does though. Which is something I always see.

I hope it's because I'm tired from work that I'm not feeling as nervous and panicky as the rest of the world are. I feel like I either gave up or can't be bother or what. It's damn weird. I know I still care abt my grades. I care a lot. But I'm not nervous or scared as I think I shd be. Which is really weird. I am scared and all but not to the extend with which my friends are though. Ah I hope I'm just tired. Because I know I do still are about what results I get.

Ok maybe I should sleep now. I think I'm really quite tired to even panic. Thank God for work today to make me tired. Haha!

it's Chinese New Year!

CNY Day 1~

My 2 lovely cousins~ Haha! Seriously need to go out with them soon since we have all grown up and able to go out on our own without our parents. =D

Jinqi! She's taller than me already. =( But wah she's really super long and lean. Lol! And pretty~ Somehow she's still as white as ever even though she's in Netball. Haha!

Jinhua! The pretty girl~ Haha! She is super ai mei but she's really pretty. =D Both my cousins are super pretty!!

This annoying little boy. Haha! Always always ask me for my phone first whenever he sees me. Lol! But ok, he really bring joy to the whole family being the only male. Haha!

 

 My shoes for Day One! Haha! It's super special. =D Bought it from Thailand but it's kinda tight so I doubt I'll wear it often. But I kinda like it though. =\ But wahh I love my dress! Haha! I think it's going to be my favourite dress now even though I only wore it once. Lol! But it's really nice. =D

My sister wasn't in the photos 'cause we kinda took photos when we went downstairs and she didn't follow us 'cause she was sleeping. LOL! Forever go my grandma's house to sleep lar this woman.

So yep! Stayed at my paternal grandma's house for the whole day and greet any relatives who came over. The usual practice of every CNY day one. =D

We decided on that day itself to watch Ah Boys To Men Part 2 at night together~ As in my grandma, my parents, my sister, my uncle, my aunt and my cousins. =D Total 5 adults and 5 children. Haha! So the kids sat in front of the adults in the cinema. =D It's always nice to go for a movie together as a family. Feels nice somehow. Heh. Especially on the first day of CNY. It's sort of our tradition I realise. Haha! 'Cause one of us kids will feel like watching then we just ask the adults and they are up for it as well. =D

And wah, Ah Boys To Men Part 2 is damn mad hilarious lar!!!!! I really laughed until I wanted to die so bad at this one whole long part. Usually you laughed until stomach pain for this part then will stop and rest for awhile before you laugh again right? This whole long part was just crazy funny that I laughed damn part throughout and my stomach hurts damn bad lar! I was tearing already. Haha! It's really that funny. Ok for me at least. Haha! But wahhhhh it felt so good to laugh so hard. =D

CNY Day 2~

My shoes for the day! Haha! I think it's the first time these shoes matches my outfit well. =D 

Photo with the sister! =D She pretty lar. Haha! Became so much prettier. Ok she is pretty all along. Just that she doesn't dress up last time. Now got a little bit more improvement. =D And I think besides our smile, we don't look alike. Haha!

Anyway so as usual, went over to my maternal grandparents' house on CNY day 2! Had good food cooked by my dearest popo. =D Slack around and eat all the CNY goodies. Heh. It's really heaven I tell you. And once I sit in front of them all, it's non stop eating 'cause somehow I feel wasted if I don't eat them. LOL! I seriously feel responsible to help finish the food up lar. 'Cause these goodies are seriously awesome and you can usually only eat them once a year. But wah, they can kill your throat. But they are still awesome. Sigh, it's a love-hate relationship between me and the CNY goodies.

After that we went over to my granduncle's house in Malaysia for fireworks and fire crackers!! Haha! Since Malaysia allows you to put fireworks on your own. =D My sister drove us in. Haha! One day, I will be able to drive in as well. =D But wah, my dad sat in the front seat beside her and I think she nearly went crazy. Lol! He really kept nagging at her and telling her how to drive all. Lol! As in can say lar but cannot say too much though. It can get very annoying.

Took some photos while we wait for night to come. Haha! I wanted to take family photo but quite hard to get everyone together ba! And lol, something scary happened after that too which I will say later. Haha!
 

 My 3 favourite kids to take photo of! =D There will always be a photo of the 3 of them each year. Haha! Probable the only 3 who are more willing to pose for a photo. =D

Haha! Love this girl!! =D She's my granduncle's granddaughter so she's my cousin. Haha! Damn cute lar she. But wah, when we first came I think she suddenly saw so many pple then she not used to it so she was throwing tantrums. Haha! Then after that she warmed up to us and kept playing with us. But wah, her smile really super cute. =D And she kept asking us to carry her and spin her around. Lol! Super funny.

 Tree outside my granduncle's house. Haha! The sky in Malaysia is somehow prettier I don't know why. Haha!

So we started to play with fire crackers and fireworks! Haha! Ok not exactly us play but we watch from a distance. Lol! 2 fire crackers and one quite pretty fireworks. =D We got to see more also 'cause the neighbours also got put up fireworks. Yes, awesomeness of Malaysia during CNY period. =D

Ok so here's the scary story. Haha! My granduncle took out one last firework thing which is the biggest one but it only blast one time.

It's pretty blur but that's really the one. Lol! Somehow I took photo of it. Lol! Anyway, so my granduncle's son which is my uncle, lol, was the one who start up the fireworks.

So fireworks are supposed to shoot up in the sky first then burst in the air right? This is one kinda didn't. Lol! Sigh, it's easier to say out than type out. Haha! But yes, we all heard a fizzle sound so we thought it failed and won't burst anymore. But nope, suddenly, it just burst on ground level. And there was a loud sound also. Kinda like a mini earthquake that kind.  So instead of shooting up and bursting in the sky, the fireworks burst at ground level. Pretty scary right? And somehow it's one big burst. But luckily it wasn't multiple burst though. Lol!

So yep, I was standing quite far from it already. But somehow, I think it really just wasn't my day, the impact of the fireworks bursting blast out some hard concrete rock thing. It's not exactly a rock but I know it's hard and it's a concrete. Lol! I think it's somewhat pavement brick? I don't know lar but it's around the size of the brick. So yes, this concrete brick thing hit my left upper arm and sort of "rebounded" on my left lower arm. At first, I felt the impact all but my left arm was just numb. Like got not much feeling of pain at first. Then I actually walked into the house. Haha! Yes, I think I'm quite pro. Then suddenly I felt dizzy and I cannot really hear anything. Like everything became muffled that kind. I think I nearly fainted. Quite scary 'cause I never have near-faint experiences before. My mum brought me to sit down and then I vomitted. Lol! I don't even know why. I guess it's the combination of shock and the impact of the stupid rock thing on my left arm. Then wah, I really felt dizzy and all. Really quite scary at that moment. My left arm was just pretty numb and all. But lol, you know my first few thoughts after the rock thing hit my arm was that luckily it was my left arm and not right. HAHA! Yes, I'm highly dependent on my right arm.

So yes, what a day huh. Haha! Looking back, now that my left arm is fine already, I think it's quite a cool experience. Haha! Not at that moment though. That moment was just scary. And I was quite scared that my left arm got fracture all but ok lar, if it really fracture, I would be screaming my head off 'cause it will be painful by a million times. Not that I had fracture or wish to have fracture before but according to my mum, I won't even be able to move my arm at all. Haha!

But wah, my aunt had it worse though. Hers was her feet ankle area. I wasn't very sure exactly where but it was quite scary according to my sister. But she seriously super brave lar. She could still hop into the house and all. And she never cry at all I think. I seriously salute her 'cause her injury is really scarier than mine by a lot. Not that I cry also but I was just dizzy and all. Lol! She really super brave still. Haha!

Then my uncle got injured also 'cause the rock thing that injured my aunt's feet rebounded to my uncle's feet also. But luckily he wore covered shoes so still alright. He quite funny though 'cause he felt my aunt's feet and I think he thought it's fracture and all that he felt dizzy suddenly. Lol! He was really scared for his wife. Quite sweet. Haha! Ok all these is told by my sister though. But haha! It's really quite sweet.

So yep, we all decided to go back to SG and sent my aunt to A&E in case anything happens. We were all quite fast though. Lol! My dad drove my uncle's car for them in case anything happens. My mum drove our car and 3 cars went chiong-ing back to Singapore. Lol! It's quite funny in a way but pretty scary then 'cause we really didn't know what will happen to our aunt. But luckily no fracture or anything ba! 1 week MC. Haha!

So yep, we were all thinking that we are really lucky in a way. 不幸中的大幸 Lol! In English it means something like lucky it's not as bad as it could have been. Haha! I don't think I translate it well but something that like.

Aha, what a dramatic day 2 of CNY. Lol! I still went to work the next day also. Haha! But ok lar, my injury really isn't that bad. But at that moment it's just scary still. Lol! But yes, seriously glad that nothing very serious happen if not my granduncle will feel quite bad. I think he really got a shock when he saw all these injuries. But yes, I will still want to go again ba! Just that must do it safely. Lol! For a while I had a little bit of phobia of fireworks. But now ok already lar. Haha!

My 2 days of CNY~ =D I'm quite behind in my posts but oh well. I doubt I'll post so much also. Lol! Ok see how ba! I a bit lazy already. Haha! Life is just still pretty good so far. Oh right, lol, this coming Friday. =\ Ok I think I may post one more about it when it comes closer I guess.

Mission Accomplished

Haha! Seriously bad quality photo of us but it was the only group photo we took that day. =D

Anyway, so on 7th feb met up with these people and Jiesi in the morning for Sweden~ Haha! It was the only day where everyone was free and able to meet up with Sweden before he enlist into army!

Met them at Westmall after driving lessons. =D I kinda like Jiesi's camera. Haha! I realise, compact camera still do kinda rocks sometimes. Lol! I want too much lar. 

Anyway, so Junyuan came over after that and the 4 of us went to Enaq while Jiesi went to work! Our last enaq Agents meeting before Swe goes into army~ So we sat there and wait until Feli came. LOL! With these 3 annoying guys. =D But ok yes, always nice to just sit there and talk with them 'cause I don't know why there is just always something to talk to with them. Haha! Even if it's nonsense or some random stuffs. And yes!! My update of new music usually comes from Sweden and Brendan! =D 

Gah. Strangely miss them. Lol! Though now Swe is away at Tekong already. Haha! Poor boy enlisted on 13th Feb! But yea lar, I know we can all still meet up during weekends and stuffs! But it will really be harder since the guys only have 2 days free per week. Lol! But we'll see how~ =) 

Agents. HAHA! Seriously can't help finding this name super lame but it's just something that struck and we can't change it too. Heh. Yes, we do really childish things together sometimes but it's only us I guess. Really wonder how we actually came together in sec 3. Haha! Ok I know why but still pretty cool how we are really just like that? Ever since we graduated from Fuhua, many things happened but I'm so thankful and glad that we struck through them? How we just know that no matter what, we are important to each other and we will always look out for each other. 3 annoying bitchy guy friends of mine plus one crazy woman who is just with me everywhere. HAHA!

And and Feli and Swe owe me so much for their Vday~ Haha! Ok lar, they don't. Lol! I volunteered to help them since they both 2 poor things and I think I'm really a nice friend but ok I shall not praise myself so much. =D But really lar, the both of them are so sweet to each other in the non-gross way. Haha! I want to help them take couple shots when Sweden comes out from army all fit and slimer~ =D Ok, I just want to take couple shots for them. Heh. Supposed to help them take before Swe goes into army but couldn't find them. =\ Nevermind lar! Will have chance one! =D

someone

Sometimes, you really wish that there is someone who will pull you back and slow down your pace. Someone who will grab your hand and hold it and walk beside you. Someone who will help you carry anything that is heavy or just anything you don't feel like carrying. Someone who will hold the umbrella for you on rainy days. Someone who will take care of you when you are sick. Someone who will hug you when you are tired. Someone who will listen to anything you have to say even if it's nonsense. Someone who will just take care of you and you won't feel guilty.

Since young, the "someone" are my mum and dad. They are still there for me. They truly are amazing and just awesome. But sometimes, you want someone who just makes your heart skip a beat whenever he is around. Yes the heart skip a beat feeling is something that your parents can't give you. Haha! As in yea, they really do give you all the warmth and comfort and everything. But they can't make your heart flutter. And yes, sometimes, I really wish that there is someone there who can make my heart skip a beat. This heart has been numb for awhile. Ok not exactly completely numb but yes, you get what I mean. And sometimes, you really just wish that there is someone who just makes your heart flutter when you see him. I kinda miss that feeling but I'm scared to start feeling that way again too. It's never easy to like someone but when you do, you just wished that you didn't at times. But I guess, it's time that I shd ready my heart and accept whatever thing. Lol! I'm already 19 huh. It's not that young anymore. Haha!

Oh well. Haha! Come what may, bring it on. Haha! I guess I just need to be willing to accept it. And yes, never compare. Because everyone is different and your ideal may not be always the right one for you. Life is such I guess.

"We accept the love we think we deserve."
- The Perks of Being A Wallflower

It's true I guess. Just yea, lower expectations and you will be fine? Haha! But Okok, I'm not in need of someone right now. I'm a pretty independent woman. HAHA! But yea, sometimes you really can't help wanting someone who you can always count on and never feel bad towards him. Haha!

Time to truly move on I guess. Something that I said since forever but I guess it's really truly time already. Lol! Some things are just not meant to be and you have to accept it and at least you did do something abt it already so it's good enough! Haha!

There are still many people to meet and experiences waiting for me. You are still young so yea, someone will come and make this heart flutter again. You will feel again and when it does come again, don't be scared and just embrace it as it is? So don't worry so much, your time will come. =)

because they are worth it

Whee~ haha! really love this photo. We all look really happy here somehow. There's this essence of little kids who are really happy. =)

Had dinner with these awesome pple on 6th feb! I ended work at 8pm that day so I had to rush like crazy to Clementi to meet them. I really rushed lar!! Run to take the bus and MRT and walked up all the long escalators just for these people. But haha! They are truly worth it. =D

But they are annoying too 'cause I was already at Clementi when Ben Lee called and said they were leaving. I know they were just being annoying but wah if they really leave I will really kill them. Lol!

I really feel like I'm back in secondary school again when I met up with them. Lol! There is this air of childishness that isn't the bad kinda of childishness. LOL! Ok how to say this, it's like I feel like I'm back to being a kid again. Doing all really stupid things and just enjoying their company. There is this innocence and purity? No pretense or whatsoever because what's there is hide or pretend about. We just became ourselves as we always are and gah it just felt nice meeting all of them.

And I think we were really nuisance to everyone around us. Haha! And ya!! We were called kids by this guy at Baskin Robbins 'cause I think we really like a bunch of kids there. LOL! And all of us had one for one ice cream 'cause we all have pink IC. HAHA! It's damn joke lar! I think the guy just gave it to us 'cause we like poor things. Lol!

So yep, even though I only met them for quite a short while but it still felt really nice. And I realise lol, I was really having a headache on my way to meet them but somehow it really became less painful after meeting them. Haha! They have that power huh? =D

And yep, something Haziq said that made me realise that time really flew by fast. "That all of us are really entering into a new phase of their life. They're done with a chapter of their story and has to proceed to the next." Haha! It really dawned on me how all of us are really moving into a new phase of life. The guys going army, the girls going university, even the poly kids are going for internship all which is heck of a new phase because it's really working and stuffs. 5 years ago, we barely talked to each other and knew who each other were. Now, we can talk so comfortably with each other and truly enjoy each others' company.

One of the few many things I'm really thankful that I got lousy results for PSLE and entered Fuhua is really this class. I said this many times too but seriously glad to have these people accompanying me through the last 2 years in Fuhua. They made Fuhua special. One thing I really do hope is that we will really still continue to meet up like that. I don't need to see the whole class. I guess, somewhere along, some people will just stop coming and stop bothering. But you know, the ones who still bother are truly the ones who matter and I guess that's really enough. True, you can't help feeling sad with the non-replies but I guess after awhile, you will be used to it and it's fine. Haha! It's like 6H in a way. Lol! Initially, there were a whole bunch of us still meeting up but soon the number decrease but you know it's ok because these are truly the people who matters. And from time to time, in those "larger scale" meet ups and gatherings, you get to see the other people who rarely come but will make the effort to come for the "larger scale" ones. Yes, that's really enough.

And you know, even though things may not be how it used to be, feelings may not be as deep and close as before, but the fact that we used to have such great fun together and really happy together before, being the truly bonded class we were then. For the fact that at least we have those memories, it's enough. =) Gahhh I'm feeling super nostalgic now. But really ar, I feel quite glad to have them really. =)

Gah I feel so lazy to post already. Lol! This shall be a short one. =D

So yes, I realise ever since A levels ended, we met up for like at least once every week. Sometimes we'll meet up more than once. LOL! It's actually quite nice though. Heh. Even though by meeting up so often that you won't miss them anymore, you still want to meet them 'cause being around them is just comfortable feeling. =)

Anyway so on 5th Feb, we decided to celebrate Guodong's birthday since we may not be free anymore. Had dinner at Shaohao's condo's function room 'cause it's big enough to house us all. Haha! And Yes!! We made our own food! Haha! So proud of us.

yes! I was the one who grind the cheese. Haha! Ok, nothing to be proud of but oh well. It's actually quite easy I realise. As in making pizza and all. Shaohao was the chef. Haha! Met up with him at BPP NTUC to buy the food and stuffs. Yiinlih and Rizheng came over to help carry the stuffs over while I went home to bathe. Took my own sweet time over 'cause it was raining super heavily.

 This is our pizza~ It looks super appetizing right? =D It really does taste good. So proud of my friends. =D I may not be able to cook well but I have friends who can~

Anyway, so it was supposed to be a surprise birthday party sort of thing for Guodong. Haha! But ok, we kinda failed lar. I think we were all lazy somehow. Heh. And yes, we nearly had a surprise birthday part  for Guodong without Guodong around. This stupid boy didn't check his Whatsapp and lucky I texted him if not he really won't have come and we did all that for nothing. Lol!

And yes!!! I made jelly! Haha! And I'm quite proud of it 'cause my parents and my sis likes it. Haha! And honestly, I anyhow make one. Lol! As in I kinda never exactly follow the steps accordingly but just make that kinda thing. Lol! But ok, it's really easy. Haha! I want to try making jellyhearts though. I thin that one is really the hard one.

And wahhh they are so annoying. They were all like, "Why are there onions on the jelly?" Tsk. It's longan!! I was just lazy to make it look neat and tidy. Lol!

So this is the birthday boy. Haha! We were supposed to surprise him but ok we failed. Lol! He was coming up when we haven't set up the room yet so I just dragged him to fetch Faeqa at the gate with me. Lol! Yes, he sort of suspected all already so when he entered the room, he was like "I knew it!" Lol! But ok, I think everyone was tired from something. Haha! Weiying's mood was the best lar. damn funny.

And so the girls, we, sang songs again. Like never ending. While the guys just look at us with the judging face. But ok, I don't care. Haha! But wah, we really just kept singing. I don't know how we do it. Lol!

And wah this picture. LOL! I didn't take this picture so when I saw it, I really burst out laughing. DAMN GAYYYYY. They really wah. damn gross. Lol! Cannot stand it. It's too funny a photo. =D

Took photos and polaroids! Ok, we took two only 'cause everyone was tired and lazy to do anything else. Haha! Yes, we suck.

This one is just epic 'cause look at Shaohao's and Yiinlih's faces. Really daebak. LOL! We all burst out laughing like crazy when we saw this polaroid. Lol!

We look more decent~ Haha!

So I think I was really tired and stuffs so I didn't really realise that it was really the last time we will meet up in a long while with 3 of them going army this week!! Until Changhui realised it when he was leaving. Lol! Then we all had long farewell random talking stuffs with Changhui, Guodong and Shaohao. Haha! yes, we were all just tired and talking utter rubbish.

But anyway, I realise that it's strange how we got so used to meeting up quite often that it will be weird to not being able to meet up often anymore after the guys enlist. Like I said, we really met up almost once every week ever since A levels ended. Lol! I think it's really a lot. Not that I mind. Haha!

But yep, this friendship is really pretty strong and I know it will go a long way somehow. Seriously can't wait to see the guys with their army hair. Hehe. =D

2 insane weirdos

Went to run with Nisa and Jordan on 5th Feb! Haha! Yes, we actually really ran. It was more than what me and Nisa ran the other time. Lol! Probably 'cause Jordan refused to let Nisa walk. So we ran to the other side of the Lakeside area and then from there we walked through Chinese Garden and to Science Centre. Haha! It's quite awesome 'cause you can only do such stuffs when you are THAT free which we really are. =D

So I don't know why we actually went all the way to Science Centre for Macs but we did. Lol! The 2 of them were singing the most random songs ever while we walked there. Yes, they really wahhhh crazy humans.

Ate Macs and saw little primary school kids. Haha! The last time I went to Science Centre was in sec 2 I think. Super long ago. It's funny how we went Macs after running 'cause it totally makes the run worthwhile. Lol! Oh well~

Played at the playground outside Science Centre after that! I don't remember it being so fun. HAHA! I sound so deprived. But wah, I really didn't remember that there was a trampoline and a swing at the Science Centre. Maybe because every time we went there, there were a lot of other kids playing too. That day we went only got some kids there only. Haha! The trampoline really damn fun. Lol! Though I don't get how is it possible to jump star jumps without fearing you will fall. Lol! And yes, I nearly slipped a lot of times. Or rather I think I did but it's not the super serious kind lar. And ya!!! I lost a $1 there. -_- Damn sad lar. My moneyyyyy. Even if it's $1, it's still important. =\

Anyway, we decided to head back to Nisa's house to play swing instead. HAHA! It's like never ending play. We are deprived kids. Walked back to Nisa's house and went to the playground~ Seriously still love her swing. It's the most fun swing ever I think. =D It can go super high and you are sit comfortably. =D Sat at the playground for awhile and talked about random stuffs. Technically, they were both accompanying me to kill time. Heh. But hey, still fun what.

Decided to go back to Nisa's house and slack somemore. And since there's drinks and food there. Haha! But then, suddenly we saw this thing that spins. Lol! It's this thing at the playground that you can spin it that kinda thing. So Jordan went on it and Nisa spun him. Then after that Nisa tried too. They were all fine and well. Never fall or anything. Not dizzy. NORMAL. Then I went up. And yes, Jordan spinned the thing a few many million times. Seriously wanted to kill him but I was super dizzy so I can't really do anything. I was standing initially but I went on to sit down 'cause I was that dizzy. And you are supposed to stop the thing when someone is dizzy but nope, he spin the thing even more. So yes, I got stuck there. Annoying ass. And ok fine, Nisa tried to help. Ok, nope she didn't. HAHA! She just laughed. Tsk. Anyway, so somehow, I think I got too dizzy or what, I fell off the thing. Yep, head first and all. Sand all over my hands and hair and everything. And yep, I got a small injury at my left knee. And yes, I wanted to kill Jordan. Bitch leh he!!! Seriously didn't expect myself to get injured from playing at the playground. My parents and my sis laughed at me when I told them I got injured at the playground. Lol. They were saying that it should happen 10 years ago and not when I am already 19 years old. Such nice family too.

Anyway, so washed up a little and head up to Nisa's house and we played Cluedo in the card game form. Haha! And Jordan was happily touching all the random things at Nisa's room. And somehow he found some random magnets. Yes, this boy is hopeless. Haha! Going NS soon somemore. Tsk tsk.

So yep! Went to BPP at about 2plus to buy stuffs for Guodong's so called birthday party. Haha! That will be for another post.

Had a good time with these 2 retards though. Haha! Even though I fell and all. But wahhh I really feel like I'm mentally and physically tortured by these 2 crazy pple. They really are super annoying. Lol! But ok, I'm seriously glad that I have these 2 crazy friends. 2 people who I'm really glad that I became good friends with them in sec 3 and 4 and glad that they went AC too and yep! Just glad that they are around and stuffs. Haha! No matter how annoying these 2 can be at times. And I won't feel stupid doing stupid stuffs when I'm with them 'cause they do times 10 more stupid stuffs as compared to me, so it's fine. =D

learn to expect lesser

Last week was a crazy week for me since I had work from Monday to Sunday except Wednesday. Haha! But ok, I managed to survived through it! Work so far had been nice. =D Seriously love my working environment. Heh. Going to a theme park for work always feels nice somehow. Haha! And interacting with the guests all. Though it's physically tiring but at least the mind is happy. Haha!

Anyway, so this week is more of spamming meet ups and gatherings with those going to army soon. Haha! I'm only working 3 days this week so yes, it's really a break from that many days of work. Shall post more next time~ Haha! Too lazy to elaborate now actually. Heh. But all meet ups this week felt nice. =) Yes, really glad and thankful that I have such amazing friends in my life who can make me laugh so much and truly be myself when I'm with them. =D Like I realise that I really don't care about anything when I met up with all these people this week. Haha! It's really the comfortable feeling.

And yes, expectations are what we always tend to have but I guess we really need to learn to expect less sometimes. Not just so that you won't feel as disappointed, but also being fair to yourself and others. Treating yourself right I guess? And yes, you will feel happier when you don't expect so much. I guess, it's something I have to learn 'cause I'm usually one who has quite high expectations for myself. Yes!! Learn and grow. Haha!

Ahhh I really really don't want to grow up. I have been saying this since forever but really, it's scary to grow up. And how my parents are really growing old now. =\ Though yes, they are both still very healthy and always will be, it still kinda hurts me to see them more easily tired and stuffs. Gah. I really wish that somehow life will be easy and that I will earn a lot of money so that my family can have a good life. Lol! As in ok, who doesn't wish that. But really kinda sucks how money is not the most important thing in the world but we still do kinda need it. Yes as humans, we really expect too much always.


Anyway, life has really still been pretty good so far. Heh. Sigh, about one more months time, the thing that I haven't been thinking about for awhile is going to come back to haunt us. But yes, I'm going to enjoy as much as I can now. Save the worries and stuffs for then. Ok, time to sleep!