i think i'll be alright if everything stays status quo

I feel this sudden thankfulness to have the people around me. My family and my friends. Seriously, I don't know what I'll do without them in my life. I cannot imagine my life without them. It's just this sudden surge of thankfulness that I have them with me. True, they can't be there always but they will try their very best. That's the part where you really feel loved. They will really be there for you if they can. And seriously, with these people around, these really awesome fabulous family and friends around me, I have the strength to continue the fight. And I'm truly contented if I only have them, because these are the people that stay and really just stand by me.

It's really strange how my mind works. All this sudden thankfulnees. So if you are my friend and you are reading this, I really want to say how lucky I am to have you in my life and thank you for being here with me, living this hell of a life. Thank you for making me smile and laugh in your own ways. Thank you for just existing and being in my life. Without you people, I won't be how I am now.

So yes, life can be hell sometimes, but we should love life. It lets us live. Love the people around you 'cause they are truly awesome. Live life the way you want it. Don't let others control how you should be living your own life. Don't give up on your dreams 'cause dreams do come true. A dream is a wish your heart makes and it will come true as long as you hold them close to your heart.

I really miss laughing silly. Laugh for no good reason. That is one of the nice ways to laugh. You laugh for nothing. Though it's extremely silly but you'll feel real good and happy. Like everything will be alright, and you will just forget about all our troubles at that moment and just laugh and have a good time laughing. But yes, laughing in general is really the best medicine. It cures almost everything, or at least make you forget about the problems at that moment. It's just awesome. =D

I really miss people now. Those awesome awesome friends that I just don't get to see often. Even if I see them often, it's always not enough. People that I see almost everyday last year, people that I stop seeing almost everyday 4 years ago but every time after meeting them, I will want to meet them again. Ah.. This missing-people feeling again. Forever one. It's really not fair sometimes how we have to split up after spending a time with them. But I guess that's just how you meet new people. And without splitting, there won't be meeting.

And yes, I will get back on track. I must get back on track I hope I'll really push myself. Time is really an annoying factor. This June holidays, I really hope I'll have time to get everything done. I think I better write down soon my plans for June Holidays or else it will pass in a flash and I will start regret and whining and being all pissed off with myself all over again. I got a feeling I might, so there is a high chance of another post where I scold myself. But yes, I'll try not to let myself have that screwed up feeling again. It's really not a good feeling 'cause you really feel lost and just freaking pissed off with yourself.

I really wonder who actually will bother reading every single detail. LOL. But then again, I'm mainly blogging for myself to look back and read. Haha! Ah, I can actually nearly fall asleep in front of the com. Scary, But then again, I did study today so yep, there's a valid reason to be tired! =D Stupid, annoying GP package. -_-